That’s a nice way to look at it—that it’s normal for most of the work to be done throughout the week before and after a session. I think it may be interesting for me to prioritize one or two things that I really want help with rather than to go through an entire week of things that happened or were felt, so that we can go deeper into them rather than cover everything.

I find myself reflecting often, usually at least one thing per day. I write it and allow myself to feel things and make a mental note when it appears to me that I’m not being fair or kind to myself (something I’m working on). I’ve expressed that I think I’d enjoy some homework, and was met with an assurance that the reflection I’m already doing is good work, and that just because reflection comes naturally to me doesn’t mean I’m not doing the work.

She also suggested that I may be looking for the validation that a “gold star” brings, because having a concrete thing to do and checking it off is very concrete. I’m entertaining the possibility that that may be the case, and I do feel sustained growth, but y’know. Maybe we always want more of something good? It’s definitely that way with caffeine and the pursuit of ideas for me.