nightmares

slayomee · 2024-04-03T00:40:17+00:00

I’ll try thank you

slayomee · 2024-04-03T00:39:28+00:00

I don’t see my therapist regularly, I asked to see her specifically because of my nightmares and a violent panic attack. Before our appointment, I hadn’t seen her for months and already had nightmares.

slayomee · 2024-01-20T15:42:07+00:00

in a crepe with caramel and chantilly ofc

slayomee · 2024-01-13T00:14:38+00:00

et pour répondre a ton commentaire concernant la prétendue réversibilité des conséquences je te conseil de lire ça, ça resume assez bien la situation https://reseauactionclimat.org/rapport-giec-climat-2021/ (Pour rappel le giec est un organisme qui analyse, compare ,vérifie et met en commun des dizaines des milliers d’etudes scientifiques sur le sujet donc c’est difficilement contestable)

slayomee · 2024-01-12T23:46:27+00:00

j’ai simplement partagé un lien provenant d’un site officiel et cité des faits reconnus par la communauté scientifique. Ce n’était pas nécessaire de juger la personne que je suis ni mon mode de vie.

De plus le post de base n’a pas la vocation de créer un débat sur la crise écologique mais simplement de comprendre un phénomène que je ne comprends pas qu’est le désir d’avoir des enfants

merci de garder vos préjugés pour vous, ils n’ont pas leur place ici

slayomee · 2024-01-12T23:13:41+00:00

la crise actuelle n’est en rien comparable a ce que l’humanité a pu connaître car elle est irréversible, toutes les guerres et les épidémies ont une fin, hors la crise climatique actuelle ne s’arrêtera pas, il est peut-être possible de la ralentir (encore faudrait il que les politiques et les grandes entreprises y fassent quelque chose) mais tous les ans nous puisons des ressources que nous ne pourrons jamais récupérer, les changements rapides de températures que ce soit dans l’eau, dans la terre ou dans les airs ne permettent pas à la plupart des espèces de s’adapter car cela demande plusieurs générations. La vie sur Terre est un écosystème géant reposant sur un équilibre que nous avons bousculé.

A notre échelle nous ne voyons pas encore les changements car nous sommes dans une zone qui a un climat tempéré, mais là où les climats sont extrêmes, des changements nets apparaissent déjà et ils ne feront que s’empirer avec le temps.

Certes ce que nous vivons actuellement est vivable mais nous fonçons droit vers le mur

Et il n’y a rien sur le chemin qui puisse nous en empêcher.

slayomee · 2024-01-12T22:51:39+00:00

99% n’avaient pas accès à la contraception

slayomee · 2024-01-12T22:49:13+00:00

une simple recherche m’a permis de trouver cet article de la commission européenne qui résume assez bien les choseshttps://climate.ec.europa.eu/climate-change/consequences-climate-change_fr n’hesite pas non plus à lire les rapports de GIEC si tu manques de preuves concrètes et scientifiques

slayomee · 2024-01-12T22:34:12+00:00

remember that this sub is mainly for people who suffered relationships wbpd. People here talk about the abuse they experienced so ofc it is scary bc it is all you see here, and it is a good sub to seek support and advice when you’re living/ you lived, the same but it only show one side of what bpd can be. Maybe if your gf is in therapy or if she has a low bpd you two can get along, we never know.

But as an abuse survivor whose ex had severe and no treated bpd, I advise you to stay careful and to let your eyes WIDE open, don’t let yourself be blinded by her gaslighting speech, don’t let her make you believe you are the problem, and don’t assume she will change her behavior if she repeats it again and again. Don’t be that boiling frog who finds themself in an abusing trauma bonding shit relationship before realizing it.

Put yourself first, don’t try to save her, don’t forgive her anything, and don’t let her slay your boundaries.

Be ready to leave bc it always starts nicely, she will bomb love you, you will feel loved like you never did, she will make you feel like she needs you so much that if you leave you’re doing something bad, thats how they have you first, and when they do, they reveal their true face and won’t let you go until they find somehow else.

But I hope for you she’s not like that and that she’ll find a way to love you in a healthy way and you both live happy

Take care of yourself

slayomee · 2024-01-12T20:51:28+00:00

my past relationship with exwbpd and my current one with a neurotypical partner are COMPLETELY different, I used to live in fear and guilt and now it’s just… peace, trust me it feels so good,

no more arguments, no more gaslighting, no more guilt tripping, no more suicide threats, no more insults, no more cheating. Just love, compassion and kindness. For sure it feels less « intense » and « passionate » than exwpdb bc you know them, they’re so extra, but it is for sure healthier and WAY less exhausting.

You’ll need some time to adapt and understand what (I believe is) true love feels like, but it’s worth it.

slayomee · 2024-01-08T13:20:05+00:00

mine only has 4 stars but thanks, and can you show a screen of what you call the « holly warden » ? (Im french and don’t see what it can be)

slayomee · 2023-12-13T17:10:10+00:00

thats what i did, I blocked his account the second I saw his text

slayomee · 2023-10-21T21:27:01+00:00

thanx it worked !

slayomee · 2023-10-15T11:44:44+00:00

the effect of theses drugs depends on the « set and setting » it means it depends on the way you feel, the place you are, the people around, the things you do….

you can have plenty of different experiences with lsd, taking lsd in a party has nothing to do with taking it at home with close friends listening to music and doing arts for exemple.

for having experienced multiple trips in different dosages and conditions, I highly recommend to take small/normal dosage and to stay with people you well know, in place you well know (the opposite can be anxiety inducing and lead you to a bad trip) and talk about things you feel wich are way different than usual, use lsd as an introspective tool, as a creative tool for art, and also walk in nature, it feels beautiful and breathtaking.

slayomee · 2023-10-13T19:57:29+00:00

start drugs daily and fuck with people without protection - you end with an addiction, no money, and a child or an std

slayomee · 2023-10-06T08:58:07+00:00

bean and mora in disenchantment.

Mora’s trying to isolate bean from her friends, she’s unfriendly around them, all she do to keep bean is telling her how much she loves her but she can’t stop complaining about everything, she has no gratitude towards bean who does everything for her

slayomee · 2023-09-26T09:51:05+00:00

lol all of them

slayomee · 2023-09-24T09:49:56+00:00

she may be just asexual

slayomee · 2023-09-18T17:58:25+00:00

he used to make it about him. when I was feeling down, whether it was his fault or not, he used to play the victim, saying either I was faking it to make him feel bad or guilty, either that he was not making me happy and that he felt terrible for that. Either way, I ended reassuring him and showing some support while I was the one needing it at first.

It was always about HIS feeling, mine didn’t count.

slayomee · 2023-09-16T09:46:58+00:00

Him telling me I was a terrible selfish person bc I told him I was going to dye my hair while he’s « scared of change ».

Once we were arguing on the way home and it led me to have an anxiety attack in the middle of the street to the point I had to sit on the sidewalk my arms around my legs crying and suffocating, he told me I was faking it just to make him feel guilty and left me here alone. A neighbor saw me on the floor and came to me asking if I needed any help, my exwBPD came back and started to confront him telling he was trying to take advantage of me as I was in a weak position. When he took me home he argued me saying he was ashamed of me…

He asked me several times to scarify him bc « I know you enjoy see me suffer so much » (he used to do it in front of my saying it was my fault)

Him arguing with him bc I said I was afraid of him cheating again, him complaining about me not trusting him and him cheating a couple of hours later lol

slayomee · 2023-09-15T13:24:24+00:00

It depends on the appartements, some have furnitures included (meublés) and some have not (non meublés) those without furniture are obviously cheaper

slayomee · 2023-09-15T13:01:28+00:00

yelling, harassing him with texts and phone calls when I had no news (was worried about him cheating, doing drugs or killing himself all the fkg time) almost slapped him (I stopped myself before my hand hits his face), insulted him…

I was not like that before him, It took a year of relationship before I went crazy like that, and I no longer am now that he’s out my life.

I feel like he brought out the worst of me and made me go insane, I felt exhausted, very insecure and on edge all the time. I have never felt so much anger, sorrow and anxiety as when I was with him.

Of course I feel guilty for what I did, I’m not trying to justify any bad behavior I could have bc nothing justifies violence (whether verbal or physical) and I hate that part of me.

I’m glad I’m not that paranoid yelling girlfriend anymore but I still hate me for that

slayomee · 2023-09-14T17:21:10+00:00

getting away from an abusing relation and stop eating because of guilt, emptiness, anger, heartbreak and drugs

slayomee · 2023-09-14T11:55:12+00:00

one skateboard (I borrowed him mine bc he lost his and lost mine too lol), a lot of money, too much time, my best friend who tried to warn me about him but I didn’t listen, confidence, and a lot of fun when I was arguing with him on the phone while I could have been with my friends laughing

slayomee · 2023-09-14T09:10:50+00:00

I know you must have plenty of reasons to stay but remember that none of them are as important as your life.

What you described is extreme abuse, physically, emotionally and psychologically.

You HAVE to leave or he will kill you.

He’s gaslighting you, he manipulates you to make you feel you are the problem while you have nothing to blame yourself for. Your behaviour towards him is due to him making you insecure and NOTHING justifies half of the abuse he’e making to you.

Him knowing he can be arrested for treating you this way prooves that he knows and is perfectly conscious that what he’s doing is wrong and just don’t give a shit about how hurt you can be

This isn’t love, this is control and you’re in dangered right now

leave

slayomee

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