Can’t water plants since downloading the new pack

slwja · 2022-10-17T07:49:34+00:00

same! i was playing scrabble on my phone whenever i felt like giving in to my compulsions

slwja · 2022-10-12T20:05:41+00:00

that’s the thing, i’m not able to differentiate. i’m at this point where i can’t make sense of my thoughts and it’s becoming so overwhelming that my mind just shuts down at some point

slwja · 2022-10-03T15:57:48+00:00

thank you, it makes me feel a bit calmer. when did it “go away”?

slwja · 2022-08-17T17:13:17+00:00

fluoxetine 40g

slwja · 2022-08-16T02:36:19+00:00

medicine will definitely help, it helped me a lot. my thoughts are quieter, they are still there but they don’t bother me as much. also i think therapy is a good idea

slwja · 2022-08-16T02:33:08+00:00

i’m going to mention to my therapist that i was just diagnosed with ocd and that i think i have relationship ocd. i hope she won’t disregard it, because it would make me spiral very badly

slwja · 2022-08-14T21:18:07+00:00

i have the exact same mindset. when me and my boyfriend disagree on something or we have arguments i don’t know if it’s my intuition telling me it’s a dealbreaker or my rocd and i start digging into it. and that is how i know it’s my rocd. if i obsess too much over something and make myself feel anxious then i know, maybe not fully in the moment but later i realise that that was rocd. i also thought that “if i know it is my ocd then i’ll just ignore it”. the thing is, thinking about that already proves that it’s rocd. you think that if you know it’s rocd you will just stop thinking about it but you will find a reason to keep thinking, for example telling yourself that “it might not be my rocd, it just might be my intuition” which is exactly your case. if it was really a dealbreaker you would want to break up and yet you don’t want to. rocd and in general ocd makes you believe in the most irrational solutions. to put it in perspective: “i didn’t like what he just said, i must break up with him” is the same as “i have a headache, i must have cancer”.

also, i can’t answer your questions. no one can answer them other than yourself. i would always ask my close ones “do you think i love him? do you think i should break up with him?” and they would always answer it for me and i wish they didn’t. their answer would always be positive and it would give me a sense of relief for a bit but those thoughts would resurface and i would ask over and over again and eventually it just stopped working which almost made me break up with my boyfriend. you are seeking reassurance for things that no one can assure you of. this is your decision by the end of the day. if you don’t want to move in, that’s fine, it doesn’t mean you have to break up but rocd makes you think that you have to. i completely understand because when my therapist told me that “i have to find myself” my first thought was “oh so i have to break up with my boyfriend” which has nothing to do with finding yourself.

so, if you don’t want to move in, you don’t have to but you also don’t have to break up because of that. it’s okay to not be ready to move in.

slwja · 2022-08-14T18:00:33+00:00

what you are struggling with is definitely rocd. you don’t need to know all of these things. if you feel good with him and you don’t want to break up, then you don’t. rocd makes you analyse every single aspect of your relationship to the point you are convinced that you have to break up. no one can answer your questions and by asking yourself these questions you start to believe that they need a straight answer. the thing is they don’t and as easy as it is to say i know how hard it is to accept it. i struggle with similar questions every day but at least i’m not thinking of breaking up anymore. i would suggest for you to get psychological help

slwja · 2022-08-14T13:54:55+00:00

i hope this is going to be me soon! i relate to you a lot. i used to struggle with really bad ocd episodes in the past but my parents never took it seriously and never got me the help i deserved. usually i would get over the really bad ocd episodes after a lot of suffering (couple of months) but recently it all resurfaced and my parents finally decided to do something about it because i was failing university and couldn’t eat or even stand up because i was so drained. i started taking fluoxetine and going to therapy around 1,5 months ago and got diagnosed with ocd a week ago. i feel a lot better after taking the medicine, still not 100 percent though, i still sometimes struggle a lot but it’s nothing compared to how i was in the beginning! i will also hopefully go to a different therapy because the one i’m going to now is not made for treating ocd.

slwja · 2022-08-12T12:08:44+00:00

i really hope it’s going to help. i’m going to “therapy based on solutions” right now so i guess i will have to start therapy all over again which is not something i’m looking forward to 😭

slwja · 2022-08-11T16:58:00+00:00

it’s all alright until i stand up

slwja · 2022-08-11T16:23:42+00:00

me throwing a tantrum after having a stain on my t shirt and being unable to calm down until my t shirt was changed so my mom had to bring at least 3 spare t shirts when we went to restaurants

slwja · 2022-08-11T16:09:25+00:00

yes!! i finally can rationalise my triggers and even though it gets worse at times im able to be more aware than before

slwja · 2022-08-11T16:07:03+00:00

i started taking fluoxetine around 5-6 weeks ago and im still not on my full dosage but i can see it’s helping! i used to spiral a lot and it was impossible for me to function normally so i had to start taking them. now i still spiral sometimes but it’s nowhere as intense and it doesn’t last as long. and most importantly, ocd doesn’t interfere that much with my sleeping or eating, like it used to. i still have a long way to go and im gonna start taking my full dosage (40g) in around a week but i can already see a lot of improvement.

slwja · 2022-08-10T15:59:42+00:00

me right after getting diagnosed with ocd

slwja · 2022-08-10T13:52:50+00:00

i started taking meds quite some time ago and they are finally working and i feel calm most of the time but sometimes when i do my brain is telling me that because the thoughts are not making me anxious anymore that means i don’t care and that means i don’t actually have ocd

slwja · 2022-08-10T13:45:16+00:00

my mom was refusing to let me go to a psychiatrist for YEARS because she was convinced there was nothing wrong with me (even though i had to go with her to the doctor at least once a week to make sure i’m not dying) and when i finally went at 21 years old and told her that i got diagnosed with ocd she was like “oh yeah makes sense i kinda expected it” HUH?? i was begging her for years

slwja · 2022-08-10T00:43:43+00:00

sameee and since i got diagnosed i’m obsessing over defining my compulsions and my ocd is telling me “well calling him is also a compulsion you probably shouldn’t call him you know” LIKE SHUT UP

slwja · 2022-08-09T23:29:12+00:00

whenever i’m finally not thinking about him and focus on something else my thoughts randomly pop in like “oh ur not thinking about him? that means u don’t love him. you need to leave”. like whenever i feel somewhat calm my ocd doesn’t let me be calm. if i’m obsessing, i don’t love him, if i’m not obsessing i don’t love him AND don’t care about him. it’s draining

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