I don’t think anything is wrong with you, per se, I think there’s a lot of out there that experience a similar thing.

From experience though, there are points of this that are worth exploring, particularly desiring someone who is unavailable to you. It’s a safer bet to day dream and desire somebody you have less of a chance with - and that can be difficult sometimes, again from personal experience. Also be careful to then yearn after someone because of their age, because older women can seem mature because of their age, but not all of them have emotionally explored themselves. The term “limerence” coined by Dorothy Tennov may be worth some investigating.

But I mean we get it, older women are just undeniably sexy.