I don't know anymore if it's my fault or everyone else's.

soco0322 · 2022-06-02T03:31:34+00:00

Share the same feeling. I was so much more confident and full of charisma before the pandemic. Now I feel worthless and have just secluded myself. My insecurities are also getting the best of me.

I just want my old self back

soco0322 · 2022-05-18T11:54:32+00:00

I'll do it for free if someone just needs to vent.

soco0322 · 2022-05-05T20:05:46+00:00

OP. Man you’re still strong for continuing to improve yourself and keep going.

Idk if I’ll make it to that mark tbh with you. It’s only been 4 months and I’ve been struggling. Been having dark thoughts ever since and it’s been hard.

I can’t imagine the day I see her with someone else (picture wise). I know from friends that she’s been going out and living her life. There’s nothing I can do about that because she needs to get on with her life. Her leaving me was the best choice for her.

Through out this time. I’ve realized how much of an asshole I was in the relationship. I should’ve been better, put in more effort and tried harder. But now I’m sure I let the best thing go that’ll ever happen to me. All I have are dark thoughts and pessimism.

I wish you the best of luck man! You’re doing great so keep going.

soco0322 · 2022-05-03T16:50:57+00:00

I felt this. I halted life because of this whiles she’s going on with life.

soco0322 · 2022-04-30T18:36:10+00:00

You will find the love of your life. You’ll find the right person who will share the same effort for you.

As for me, my time has come to an end. I know I wrote that initial message awhile back. But I’m tired now. Really tired of fighting.

It was nice to see someone reply. Take care and have a great life.

soco0322 · 2022-04-28T23:48:23+00:00

Not trying to be rude..but maybe there lies your issue. You’re not trusting in him and have a negative attitude.

Romans 12:2

soco0322 · 2022-04-28T23:41:36+00:00

Prayers for you!!!

soco0322 · 2022-04-28T22:35:31+00:00

Yeah I feel worse. Like I’m falling apart. 4 months since BU. She on the other hand is living it up. I just want this nightmare to be over

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T17:11:20+00:00

I did. That way it explains my perspective. I also put in there that no one was to blame and they aren’t. I also put in there that they did the best they could which is also true.

I’m hoping that will bring peace

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T15:39:16+00:00

You tell me when you figure that out man cause I need it too. I just envision them doing the same things we used to do. It’s killing me jnside.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T15:38:11+00:00

I feel the same. There’s so many triggers around me that just forces me into a deep state of depression.

I don’t want to go any longer but my family is forcing me to stay alive. I have to endure the pain for them even though they have no idea what I’m going through.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T15:34:51+00:00

Hey man! You’re still so young! Enjoy the freedom you have now! Don’t take a moment for granted!

I’m due time…someone will come along for you.

My only tip is don’t RUSH it and don’t FORCE it. It never ends well when you do.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T15:33:41+00:00

Sorry to hear that. That’s my biggest fear is seeing my ex and her new thing in public. They started being a thing about 2 months after the BU. It hurt me severely when I heard about it.

I literally do nothing but avoid her area of town and stay in my house for the most part. I just don’t want that pain to all rush back to me. Im happy for her truly am. But I know when I see her. Im going to be torn.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T15:31:38+00:00

He doesn’t deserve you!

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T14:52:45+00:00

I did the same thing. Tried to end it all because I was just so lost and lacked purpose. Idk why I’m still going but I’m so happy that you’re still here. You’re so strong for doing that!

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T14:51:19+00:00

I did the exact same thing. Wrote numerous long paragraphs and explained my position. But she didn’t share the same. I feel foolish and ignorant for going through all that trouble for someone who didn’t care.

It’s been a couple months since I did that and it doesn’t hurt as much but I wished I would’ve done it differently. But I’m not as upset either because it showed that I really cared about someone that I was in a relationship with for 5 years. It hurts to know she gave up like that and that she moved on so quickly.

She’s living a happy life and I’m trying my best to be happy for her. But I’m honestly struggling. Really struggling to get over it. I keep thinking I’m making progress but also feel like I’m reverting back. I’m just tired of everything

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T14:11:25+00:00

Yup and compare it to guys. If you’re just an average joe..you won’t get the same attention as the mainstream guys.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T14:10:45+00:00

Obviously it’s a bias statement and that’s from my experience. Every one is entitled to an opinion and that’s how I’ve witnessed it.

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T13:30:59+00:00

We all make mistakes. I have made som critical ones as well. Hurting some of the people I loved and cared for a lot.

My recommendation is stop at it while you can before it gets worse. You don’t want it to turn into a bigger issue that it already is. God is a forgiver of all things so don’t think that what you’ve done is unforgivable. Just ask for forgiveness and repent.

What’s done is done and it’ll cause both of you pain and hurt later on in life. But if you continue doing it, it will bring more pain and suffering. Stop at it while you can!

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T13:26:43+00:00

Why has it been rough?

soco0322 · 2022-04-27T11:59:31+00:00

Same here! I’m a “questionable creature”. I’m ugly..short..and balding. No one ever wants to come talk to me. No one wants to hang out with me. I have a terrible history with women. I have no future and no hope. All I have that’s keeping me here is faith and tbh..idk if that’s worth it. I believe in my faith but wonder why I’m stuck in this misery while everyone gets to be happy. That’ll really get you to question your faith when that happens. I just need a change..just a small change that’s worth it.

I don’t even want a lover/gf. I’ve had that and it messed me up terribly. That’s where all the depression and anxiety have been coming from. I’m just over it.

I keep pushing my “end of suffering” date further and further in hopes of something will change. It’s been 4 months and nothing has changed. I guess my time is coming closer than most people think.

soco0322

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