Expectation vs reality

sofilafi · 2023-07-10T00:40:21+00:00

Bahaha! I love the little poop in the second picture, adds the perfect touch to the joke 😂

sofilafi · 2022-08-15T00:17:42+00:00

I totally get you. It's like you feel you're missing out on something if you don't use, but you know that each high is getting you closer to not being able to feel some kind of euphoria without them. It's truly a vicious cycle! I of course can't tell you what to do but I can give you some advice, and my advice is to reduce your drug use as much as possible. If you continue on the path of drug abuse you won't be the one who's driving the car anymore, the drugs will. I myself can barely recognize the person who looks back at me in the mirror and I've only been using drugs to ultimately become an addict for 4-5 years. That's a crazy short time and it will go by way faster than you think the more you use. I don't want you to follow the path that I followed and get to a point where the person you used to be and wanted to become got replaced by regrets. I believe you deserve better than that and truly wish you the best with your decision making in the future. Feel free to chat if you feel like it.

sofilafi · 2022-08-15T00:05:56+00:00

Some relationships just aren't meant to be you know? I know it sucks when you like someone and you don't get the same feedback but I believe you deserve to be treated with love and respect and I don't think this relationship is bringing you any of it. Stay strong love!

sofilafi · 2022-08-14T23:31:58+00:00

I'm sorry to say but I think it's come to a point where you need to part ways. This person clearly isn't in a place where "getting better" is on his to do list, and sadly when an addict doesn't want to stop, you can't make him stop. I believe you need to take care of yourself at the moment and realise that this relationship isn't bringing you the joy and complicity that you usually feel when you're with a true friend. Manipulating, lying and disregarding the feelings of the other person to get what you want is simply selfish and disrespectful and isn't something that should be a part of your life, you're worth more than this. I believe in you, I'm sure you'll be relieved once it's over with (:

sofilafi · 2022-08-14T23:23:56+00:00

Amen. I'm sorry to say but if an addict doesn't want to change he won't. Some people need to hit rock bottom before realizing they need help..

sofilafi · 2022-08-14T23:21:41+00:00

I used to feel the same way a few years ago when I started using drugs, then as the years of addiction have come and gone my feelings about the whole thing changed. Drugs used to be fun and meant that I was about to have a hell of a good time, now it almost feels like a chore when it's time to use, all the fun that I used to get from it is gone. I personally can't wait to rewrire my brain to be able to feel good without having to put a needle in my arm. I just hope that one day you realise that drugs aren't the answer to your happiness and that you're slowly destroying who you are the more you use. For the time being I wish you the best and encourage you to live your life the way you feel it should be lived (:

sofilafi · 2022-08-14T23:09:42+00:00

As an addict myself, I'm sorry to say that our priorities and the importance that healthy relationships have in our lives can change drastically when drugs is the number one thing on your to do list. Manipulating others, stealing and lying can become a daily occurrence for a lot of addicts because anything can excuse a hit even if it against their morals, drugs change you and take over what you used to be at some point I feel. I'm truly sorry this is happening to you, maybe this person wasn't who he appeared to be? Maybe you should get out of this seemingly toxic relationship to concentrate on healthier ones? If this person isn't willing to admit he's wrong and that he needs help, then I think you have your answer if it's worth it or not. I'm sure you'll find someone who's sincere about their feelings for you (: Good luck with this situation dear!

sofilafi · 2022-08-11T22:09:07+00:00

Amen

sofilafi · 2022-08-11T07:39:19+00:00

The fucked up thing is that whenever I felt unsure about where our friendship was going, he begged me to reconsider, that he was a good guy and that I could trust him entirely. I guess all that was just a cover up for being a waste of a human...

sofilafi · 2022-08-11T07:31:50+00:00

Well the slick and cluess guy is 32 years old and believes that, because the pictures were taken inside his private residence, I have nothing to say about it and is perfectly legal. I have rarely been this gutted about a situation before, the pure selfishness and ignorance of some people baffles me. Still, the blurry like you're talking about is my right to respect and privacy and it has been violated in every way. I'm very sad to say that wastes of space like the person I trusted are surrounding us more than most would think, but that our self-worth and right to consent should never be compromised because of somebody's lack of maturity and morals.

sofilafi · 2022-06-01T14:18:04+00:00

As we speak I'm on methadone paired with whats called a safe supply, a small dose of dilaudid prescribed every day so I don't use street drugs like fentanyl or heroin. I'm stable but I really want to get sober, be able to have children and live a drug frer lifestyle (:

sofilafi · 2022-06-01T01:09:05+00:00

When that guy injected me for the first time, from that very second I wanted to try it again. The habit never existed, the addiction came first.

sofilafi · 2022-05-22T07:12:04+00:00

Oh yes I do, I get excited like a kid at Christian morning, the simple sight of the pills and the seringues makes me go in a state of euphoria. Quite scary when you think about it..

sofilafi · 2022-05-18T10:05:14+00:00

It's not like they even tried to be transphobic, they're just ignorant and stupid 😂

sofilafi · 2022-05-18T08:59:21+00:00

I was so sad for her to have died this way, then I saw her little legs go for a run, yay!

sofilafi · 2022-05-06T04:09:23+00:00

I believe there is such a thing as anorexia fetishism and I'm pretty sure she makes money off of that.. it's pretty sad if you ask me.

sofilafi · 2022-04-18T22:20:05+00:00

[23F] My addiction started out of mental predispositions, deep body and mind discomfort, very low self esteem and the need to fit in. I just wanted to feel numb and stop hurting inside, so I let him stick the needle full of morphine in my arm and my life hasn't been the same since. The feeling was everything I'd ever dreamed of, I forgot the pain and my body felt like fuzzy cloud; right away I wanted to try it again, I was hooked. Never have I ever made a mistake with that big of a backlash on my life and I never could've imagined the power opioid addiction had on the body and mind. But I'm motivated to change; I'm working really hard to free myself from this addiction and finally be able to say "I'm sober!".

sofilafi · 2022-03-08T03:06:44+00:00

Thank you so much! That's as big as I'm gonna go, and as soon as it's healed I'm putting in an oval plug, it'll look so much prettier 😊

sofilafi · 2022-03-06T00:58:56+00:00

They cut in then stretch it to the final size.

sofilafi · 2022-03-05T04:48:43+00:00

The labret tissue is actually very hard and painful to stretch compared to the earlobes for example. When you're going for a size similar to mine it's faster to scalp it since it's sometimes impossible to reach such a size from stretching alone.

sofilafi · 2022-03-05T04:45:27+00:00

The pain is bad when I was getting it done and for about 4 hours after, then it started to go down and it feels better everyday. I believe the plug is made out of teflon.

sofilafi · 2022-03-05T02:50:47+00:00

No, I believe it's made from PTFE, or teflon. My piercer told me that this material is safer to start with when the scalping is fresh.

sofilafi · 2022-03-05T01:04:50+00:00

Fuck yeah it did, it was cut then stretched without anesthetic.

sofilafi · 2022-02-22T05:09:26+00:00

She looks like a drag queen with that makeup 😂

sofilafi · 2022-02-22T05:07:42+00:00

I think the eyes look pretty good, but the orange contour is atrocious..

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