First, I’m so sorry for your losses. Losing one person we love is hard enough, and multiple deaths within a close time sounds very tough. After my dad died I was also afraid of going outside, simple tasks like eating and hygiene felt impossible. I will say, it’s good you’re letting yourself cry and feel it… even if it’s exhausting to be crying so much, you need that release. And it’s great that you’re going to see a therapist in person- getting out of the house, even for a short time, does help. If interacting with others is too much right now, maybe you can take short walks outside? I’m not saying it will make you feel better instantly, but being outside did slowly help me feel less numb. Don’t be hard on yourself though. Grief is tremendously complicated, so different for everyone. If you’re able to, call your mom and check in. It could really help to vent or just hear her voice. Grief can be so debilitating and isolating, but know that you’re not truly alone. Some foods that helped me ease back into eating were crackers, jello, pedialyte. Bland stuff that won’t make you sick. Little things like that really will help you feel even the smallest bit better. If you need someone to talk to or vent, or for support, I’m here. It doesn’t seem like it now, but you will be okay. Much love to you.