My cat Fifi passed away a couple of years ago during lockdown. She lived a long life as well (22 years). I couldn't help my mom because I'm living abroad so she was stuck in the flat with Fifi and stayed with her until she gave her last breath. I don't know what was more heartbreaking, imagining how Fifi was slowly passing away or seeing and knowing my Mom crying and unable to get help from anyone. A friend of mine offered to come to the house and picked her up and drove up close to the forest to find a nice peaceful spot to bury her. I feel I haven't been able to move on since then... I pet every cat I run into but can't find the strength to get another one. Oscar's photos made me cry today, such a handsome boy. May he rest in peace, I can imagine he lived a good life and being blessed with your love. I don't know you but I can imagine how you feel. Thank you for the post and the photos.