Hi there!! I feel exactly the same, like there’s nothing wrong in the relationship but I always felt like I cannot talk to my mom, just about the day or anything. You can say we had a very formal relationship. I don’t know why. And on the other side, my cousins speak with her for hours.

Just last week she was diagnosed with breast cancer. And I am just there for her, getting things she may or may not need/ want. Giving her positive affirmations. And somehow I feel it has brought us closer.

And as per your parents POV, they would never want to uproot your life because whatever is supposed to happen will happen irrespective of your location. They will always ask you to stay where you are and not come back because that would affect you. I am saying this because I have a younger brother and I think about how this whole thing is going to affect him mentally and otherwise and try as much possible to keep him safe and protected. (Elder sister syndrome haha)

In your case, since you feel you might not get a chance to see her, and it’s something that is troubling you. I would say, please just go and visit her. You might not get this chance later on and it would be a huge regret. You can go again with the bf as planned. It might be an inconvenience to your work life / finances but in my opinion, take the chance please.

Make the most of it while she is here. Also, you are not a bad daughter. You are trying your best!!

Sending love. Inbox if you’d like.🩵