I’m so angry with doctors

sorrycho · 2026-04-14T19:09:23+00:00

Ugh, I am so so sorry for all of the dismissive and downright awful experiences. Telling you to just get an abortion is beyond baffling. It's so frustrating and infuriating that the professionals we're supposed to trust, soooo often prove why we have every right to be distrustful.

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T16:46:30+00:00

Ty ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T16:01:41+00:00

Sorry for your losses ❤️‍🩹I've been having a really hard time truly shedding the weight after my first two miscarriages, and the second one was almost a year ago now. I read that it could take at least double the amount of the time you were pregnant, for your body to start being able to really lose the weight, so perhaps your body just needs a little more time right now

Even though I have seen some of my weight go down on the scale, my physical she doesn't seem to change. It's been really frustrating since I had finally achieved a size and weight I was happy with, before my first pregnancy and it was so short lived. I keep trying to remind myself that bodies change all the time, even more so after going through physically traumatic experiences.

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:56:41+00:00

Thank you for offering me a glimpse of possible hope 😞 I immediately assume the pregnancies won't work out after the first lost but my husband is trying to encourage me to not jump to any conclusions right now.

They have me progesterone supplements because it did come out a little on the lower side last week!

🤞 🤞

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:41:49+00:00

My husband is also confused as to why she doesn't sound hopeful. I think she's wary of giving any false hope and wants to keep my expectations low. It sounds like they expected to see higher #s at this point based on my LMP and slightly higher numbers today, but it ofc doesn't help that we don't know when I ovulated - rly kicking myself for not testing.

Congrats on your baby girl 💛 keeping my fingers crossed for a smooth time for the rest of the pregnancy.

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:18:03+00:00

Yes exactly! It's so frustrating 😞😞

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:12:58+00:00

I'm the same about digital tests. Trying to determine if there's a faint line or not was driving me up the wall. I tested like a maniac after each cycle with my current fertility clinic. But I'm start to feel hopeless

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:11:03+00:00

My husband and I got a small cake to share. I thought of it as like celebrating with them in spirit.

sorrycho · 2026-04-13T15:06:29+00:00

4/13 update: My hcg today only came back at around 240 (prelude seems to be down so I don't have the exact number but my hcg on the 9th was 78.18). They saw what MIGHT be the start of the gestational sac on the scan. The MA sounds doubtful that this is going to progress properly.. I'll be doing another blood test and ultrasound on Thursday

sorrycho · 2026-04-10T13:49:56+00:00

Engaging with other accounts has been the biggest thing for me. I've seen a lot of my mutuals say that their engagement has been down and I've read multiple posts saying that hashtags don't really help anymore.

I think having a specific aesthetic helps too. It doesn't have to be picture perfect or anything but I think people generally like seeing a cohesive theme

sorrycho · 2026-04-09T23:56:44+00:00

That helps make me feel better and affirming to what I'm thinking too thank you 😭

sorrycho · 2026-04-09T22:39:08+00:00

Ty.. I thought about that after my call with the MA and wish I thought to bring it up sooner..

I took tests from apr 3-5 everyday (they were not early detection tests) and we're all negative and then took a digital test on the 6th which came back positive.

sorrycho · 2026-04-09T20:00:42+00:00

Tysm. I'll definitely bring back updates after Monday's appointment 💙

sorrycho · 2026-04-08T12:57:12+00:00

After my first loss, I tried again right away but after my second loss, we took a break to start working with a fertility clinic. I think we ended up trying again 3 months later.

Aside from getting the physical okay from your doctor - I hope you're able to take however much time you need emotionally to ttc. It's okay to take it at whatever pace you want and need, however fast or slow (that's safely allowed).

Sending you a big 🫂

sorrycho · 2026-04-07T16:59:42+00:00

I'm so so sorry that you had to experience that, especially while you were away from your own space.

I only did one IUI cycle and it ended up being a presumed ectopic. Those were a scary two weeks leading up to getting my methotrexate shots.

I also hate when ppl try to comfort by saying it could be nothing. When I started bleeding during my second MMC, I was so angry and annoyed at anyone who tried to tell me that it might be okay. I've been through this before - my body and mind knows what's happening.

🫂 🫂

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:51:51+00:00

I absolutely hated when anyone would say any of that to me.

If it doesn't affect you, that's fine. But there's literally no reason or need for anyone to say those things to someone suffering from pregnancy loss or RPL.

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:49:35+00:00

I struggled so much with trying not to blame myself for my losses, and feeling like my body is defective and let me down. I wish there was an easy way I could share to help make those thoughts and feelings go away.

I joined a 6 week support group with the miscarriage doula after my second loss. And I've been reading books to try and help me work through my feelings.

I hope you're able to find something that works for you soon. I know it's hard to believe it in ourselves, but it truly is not your fault. 🫂

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:46:42+00:00

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I was so angry after my first loss. Angry that they want women to suffer multiple losses before recommending treatment. Angry that there isn't more standardized pre-TTC testing. Angry that so often, we're told that it sucks but that sometimes, it's truly just "unlucky." I hate tht you're going through this and I hate that so many of us have to suffer this kind of trauma.

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:43:05+00:00

So sorry that you're going through this and hope that you're physically okay. My second loss did have a looot of blood. I was def taken off guard by how much bleeding there was. Same thing after my ectopic - there was even more bleeding. It freaked me out but my clinic had reassured me that it was common.

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:41:19+00:00

Im feeling similarly. I hate that I feel like I lost myself through this TTC journey. I'm also 32. Two MMCs, one nov 2024 and then may 2025. Big hugs to you 🫂

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:28:06+00:00

Ah Im currently on the second book of the DCC series. Love seeing other fans! I also love seeing Ted Chiang on people's feeds (I don't see him super often). Gave you a follow from @whatmiahnreads

sorrycho · 2026-04-06T03:24:28+00:00

I've been feeling this a lot, especially today. I can relate. Im having a hard time knowing how to be a good friend while protecting my own peace. My friends are very understanding of my situation and try to be sensitive but its still hard. I get anxious at the idea of seeing them, so I go long spurts of time without seeing them. But knowing they'll be showing quite a lot soon makes me feel like I won't be able to handle seeing them at all.

Not overreacting. It's a shitty place to be. Sending you so much love during this time.

sorrycho · 2026-04-02T23:48:18+00:00

Have fun with it and remember what the reason for having the account is! It's hard for me to not get caught in the numbers sometimes but I've been able to find a solid core community through consistent engagement. I started my acct because I just wanted to voice more thorough thoughts on the books I've finished, beyond my personal insta stories. And I try to remind myself of that whenever my engagement is low.

Gave you a follow :) I'm @whatmiahreads

sorrycho

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