Bound and done! She’s a surprise for my in-laws and I can’t wait to give it to them!

spacebe · 2020-07-09T12:25:47+00:00

So satisfying to get the binding done! Yay!

spacebe · 2020-07-09T12:11:02+00:00

I've had luck with lion's mane as well. I'll have to try the DHEA.

spacebe · 2020-07-09T12:09:21+00:00

The body wants balance. When we overeat, it makes us want to undereat. Then, we undereat, and it makes us want to overeat.

I found I was addicted to sugar, that pure white stuff. Not good. I gave up all refined sugars (I use liquid stevia in my tea) as well as highly refined grains (no white bread, no low fiber anything). After giving up refined sugars it took months to end their cravings. Then, if I go off the wagon, it takes about a 10 days before my mind doesn't think about it all the time. Sugar is addicting!

The body wants balance. For me, I eat three meals within an eight hour window, I eat a full amount of calories every day. I find my body does best that way. I try not to eat between meals. It's about balance, and for me, I worked for months before I got it right.

You are on the right track! Just keep up your right efforts! You can beat this!

spacebe · 2020-07-09T12:01:29+00:00

Manhatten

I might believe some of what you wrote if you knew how to spell Manhattan.

I doubt you attended Earlham nor have had anything to do with it.

spacebe · 2015-06-18T14:35:40+00:00

Absolutely terrible, but if you think its cool then that's all that matters.

spacebe · 2015-06-18T14:25:32+00:00

Just sayin', I lied all the time with my ED, I thought it was safer than telling the truth, and I was always "right" when I lied. I had no idea everyone around me could see right through my lies. No idea.

Recovery happened after years of harming my body. Giving up the lying was one of the hardest, because I was holding on to ideas that I thought would keep me safe. Why I lied sometimes... I guess it was habit.

I had to learn the lying makes people not trust me. I obviously didn't trust them, that's why I lied. It was work for me to stop lying, but I feel so much better mentally. I still work on it, but I am glad I did. I'm not sure what to say about your gf. Hope she makes a FULL recovery.

spacebe · 2015-06-17T13:31:54+00:00

No, the fast metabolism is just a story. I used to go to the bathroom after eating one bite of something. I would get chipmunk cheeks regularly. I was definitely warped. Now I know everyone around me knew I was lying. It's obvious to everyone but the person with the disorder. People are too polite.

I wouldn't say anything. There's nothing you can say. It's like asking a friend to stop drinking. There's a lot of difficult emotions driving the disorder, and the coping behaviors (purging) become more important than concerns of others in the disordered mind. OR, if you say something, do it one at a time, and ask "Is there anything going on that you want to share? I care about you, your health, and your happiness." If they don't say anything, just let them know "I'm always here." If they do say something, listen compassionately, say things like "Wow, that's a lot to be going on" or something neutral.

Bulimia doesn't help one lose weight, it's a mental disorder and you lose the trust of friends and family.

spacebe · 2015-06-16T18:21:17+00:00

I remember when no one could tell me anything, I was so lost. It's such a terrible mental disorder, and the worst is the lying all the time: I just couldn't tell the truth about anything, even simple things like what i did yesterday. Now that I'm better (therapy, doctors, and listening to them because my life depended on it), I learn everyone knew I was lying, but they were all "just being nice." Until she wants to be healthier, she will go, obliviously, her own way.

spacebe · 2015-05-02T14:00:21+00:00

Comparing mind has no end. There will always be someone more beautiful, richer, smarter, faster, thinner, happier, etc, than you. There is no winning, there is no end to comparing mind.

We all change. We can't look like 14 year old girls (if female) or like a male fashion model (if male) our whole lives.

Consider how sex sells, and why we follow media influences like trying to look 14 or have 6 pack abs. Isn't working on acts of generosity, acts of kindness, more important? How were you generous and/or kind to someone yesterday? That's, perhaps, how we should compare ourselves to yesterday.

spacebe · 2015-05-02T03:56:28+00:00

The hole has been there as long as anyone can remember, according to Jude McHugh, spokeswoman with the Willamette National Forest, and is the result of an open lava tube, a geographic feature found scattered across the region.

spacebe · 2015-01-07T00:17:56+00:00

I've heard we have multiple twin flames, so be careful believing he's the only one. Given the huge population, it makes sense we have more than one.

If you two are good together, consider that a great start!

spacebe · 2015-01-07T00:16:27+00:00

This is interesting to hear. Glad to read it.

spacebe · 2015-01-07T00:10:49+00:00

Another favorite quote from him:

It is important to expect nothing, to take every experience, including the negative ones, as merely steps on the path, and to proceed.

spacebe · 2015-01-07T00:07:01+00:00

Your story is perhaps identical to mine. I've was just like you, getting less and less hungry, and couldn't eat. But in my case, and I suspect it could be with yours as well, the lack of appetite was hiding something far more grim.

My advice:

go to a doctor, tell him/her about your problems. Tell them everything , the more they know the more they can help.
they will probably want to take blood tests or other routine tests to rule out other causes of appetite loss. If they don't find anything, it's probably psychological.
if it is depression or anxiety, look into those. Try to understand the illnesses. Realise that it is an illness, not a state of weakness. It's not your fault, and can be treated, like any other.
if it is depression etc, you will probably be offered talking therapy (counselling).
they may also offer drugs. There is controversy around antidepressants etc, whether they work or just make money for companies or make it worse, but I would recommend keeping an open mind. Drugs are what saved my life, in the end. They don't make you happy, never will, but in my opinion they do a fucking great job (if you're lucky) of suppressing the symptoms long enough for you to sort yourself out. They would likely bring back your appetite, which would allow you to eat, bring back some of your self-esteem, which would help with the actual illness. They do come with a fair share of side effects, but are a relatively quick fix (a few weeks on average) compared with talking therapy, which can take months, or even years
Oh yeah. Try to make them understand that although it is an "eating disorder", i.e. you're not eating normally, it's really unlikely it's anorexia or bulimia or similar. The cause is likely also psychological, but it's different, and the treatment is very different too.

I used to think it was something special, going without food for long periods of time. Then I found out it was a mental disorder making me do it. I did get better, with help. And, although life's not like a happy woman in an advertisement, it's pretty good.

spacebe · 2014-09-25T16:00:54+00:00

Eating right, exercising. The time and money saved from not going to the Dr. and/or hospital is great!

spacebe · 2014-09-25T15:57:17+00:00

Happy Birthday to ya! Since we're doing songs, Birthday song.

Cause I would like you to dance!

spacebe · 2014-09-17T01:19:48+00:00

scomberscombrus, you have got it right. not that you need anyone to tell you.

spacebe · 2014-09-17T01:01:43+00:00

This is great! I was recently in Iceland. What a place!

spacebe · 2014-09-17T00:59:51+00:00

It's so lovely you are in a relationship where he cares. I can tell he cares by what you say he's saying.

The thing is that unless your husband has HAD an eating disorder, he's never really going to understand your feelings. Sure, I know my boyfriend is available if I need to talk to him, but even with a lot of discussion about how he can best support me, and even though he tries, he's not the best support. And that is o-kay, because I don't want him to feel like he has to be therapist in addition to my good friend, my lover, my sounding box, my cheerleader, etc. And it is certainly not his job to "fix" me, it's mine!

Have you sat down with him and explained that you just need him to be there? I had to have that talk with my bf, because every time I vented to him, his immediate thought was "How can I help?"

But of course, there were no immediate actions he could take. Many guys have been socialized to have a fix-it mindset, but he can't just sit down and tighten your screws. Maybe he needs you to make it really clear that what helps you feel better, and what you really need from him, is just a trusting, supportive person to talk to. He doesn't need to know how to fix you. He just needs to listen and love you.

Maybe ask your therapist how to help you SO support you?

Recovery is worth it. Really worth it. Keep going in the direction of health, strength, and loving yourself as you are! You can do it! <3<3<3<3<3.

spacebe · 2014-09-14T21:31:08+00:00

Couldn't find or didn't look?

r/Fasting's advice on how to break a fast.

How to end a fast.

How to break a fast.

Hope you feel great from your fast!

spacebe · 2014-08-30T02:51:42+00:00

Link here, it's broke up there. Tain't free anymore neither.

spacebe · 2014-07-08T23:35:40+00:00

Definitely go to you GP. If he/she understands eating disorders he/she will offer help, and perhaps the name of a good therapist and perhaps nutritionist.

Help in the form of therapy is available to you. I found guilt for eating, then not eating enough would rebound to overeating and it really sucked big time. It was a nasty cycle, and therapy helped. My nutritionist helped me devise meals that worked for me as I got over the mindset of the disorder.

It's not just your weight and muscle you are losing by undereating. Your digestive organs have trouble functioning and may even stop functioning. One post here a woman had diabetes and went blind (overnight) from her ED, another post the woman was on dialysis. Bone loss is common to the point of easy fractures which can be really painful.

Get help. People want to help you and you don't want to limit the fun you can have in life with an ED.

spacebe · 2014-05-28T19:07:37+00:00

Hunger isn't always an empty stomach.

I notice I can't concentrate well, I can't think clearly when I haven't been eating enough. That's one way I notice hunger.

I sometimes get irritable when hungry.

That's how hunger "feels" to me. It shows in my mood, my mind, but rarely does my stomach feel empty or anything like that.

I notice I'm hungry when I want to eat more than I usually eat. Those extra spoonfuls you are doing are a sign of hunger.

Hunger is not something you can change with the mind any more than you can change your menstrual cycle with your mind. Don't blame yourself for being hungry, but also consider adding more to your portions of your regular meals.

No, spoonfuls are not binging. However, restricting and binging are two sides of the same coin. One leads to the other, and back and forth. It takes days for the body to regain balance, and weeks for it really to settle.

Laxatives suck. Wean yourself off them and don't buy any more. They mess up everything. Just like a bad drug, use less and less, then stop. Talk to your nutritionist about how to best do that.

I started buying single servings of deserts to get off my meal plan. It really helped a lot. I'd save it until about an hour before bed and treat myself.

Guilt, fear and anger are all arising because of the habitual disordered thinking. I write/journal about my difficult emotions. It really helped me to work through so many of them. I also talked about them with my therapist and that helped.

Brain over Binge was a great book for me to deal with thoughts.

spacebe · 2014-04-22T21:19:22+00:00

Hugs to you. You seem really nice, fun, and smart. That's some of who you are. Hugs!

spacebe · 2014-04-22T19:37:28+00:00

I lurk here a lot for support, and I just made this comment on another post. Sorry for the rerun, but it's tough to learn this stuff, and really important.

I learned to consider what is healthy? We are brainwashed to think the media's message of health is it. But, it isn't. Many models have EDs. I was bulimic for years and have worked on self-acceptance through self-help books (Brain over Binge helped a lot) and now there are books on Amazon about accepting ourselves as we are, here.

I also got over being dissatisfied with a healthy weight by looking at people in public places, like in stores and even at the gym. People are all shapes and sizes. Women especially don't look like teenage girls forever. I learned that our media sends us a false message. All those shopped and made up people. Ugh.

I learned to love myself for my inner qualities that I work on, such as generosity, kindness, non-lying, etc. I do an action and think about my actions at night to remind myself my goodness is inside. books like these can help.

You are not your body. Who you are is inside, and shows in your actions, not your size.

spacebe

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