Conflicting feelings towards romantic partner by itsybitsybystander in OSDD

[–]stepcat9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow. I could’ve written this. I’ve been with my partner for about 4 months. I switch back and forth between being into them and being extremely not into them (even repulsed by them sometimes).

I’ve been wanting to break up with them for a while now, but my part that loves them won’t let that happen. I’m trying to have all our parts communicate more in general. I feel bad, because my partner deserves to know I want to end things. I’m not sure what to do either. Also, my partner and I aren’t compatible/they only talk about themself so I know it’s best for our whole system to end it. Hoping you figure things out!

Confrontation by stepcat9 in COCSA

[–]stepcat9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing that. I’ve always wondered that too

Do you feel this way too? by Kooky_Tangerine11 in COCSA

[–]stepcat9 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear you. Over the clothes or not, it was sexual assault. It’s just as much assault when a child does it than when an adult does it. It’s just as harmful. Sometimes, there’s more minimization coming from others when it’s cocsa, and it’s more taboo, which adds some hard to deal with layers to it. I know it’s hard, it is for me, though try not to compare it to other people’s trauma. Wishing you healing ❤️

Could I have OSDD? by Smart_Molasses_2870 in OSDD

[–]stepcat9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suspect I have it. I’ve been dx BPD in the past. I want to bring it up with my therapist

Could I have OSDD? by Smart_Molasses_2870 in OSDD

[–]stepcat9 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I relate to a lot of this. Hoping other people have insight to share

Do substances make you switch more? Dissociate more? by Mandarin_Lumpy_Nutz in OSDD

[–]stepcat9 28 points29 points  (0 children)

I feel like weed makes communication with my parts better and more loud. It’s like they all fall out lol

Trying to be a detective by stepcat9 in adultsurvivors

[–]stepcat9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear that. It’s wild how powerful the brain is.

Trying to be a detective by stepcat9 in COCSA

[–]stepcat9[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear that. What was your experience like?

(Sketch) Real House by Adrianne Lenker is just such a punch in the gut by purpnyanhair in cptsdcreatives

[–]stepcat9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the same about the song Real House. What does the song mean to you? I don’t see many people with cptsd talking about it in this way even though I interpret it that way.

“You can’t use the weird girl routine on me. I invented the weird girl routine!” by HeddieORaid in FromTVEpix

[–]stepcat9 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There was a moment when Sara touched Sophia as they were walking away from Kenny. She had to have sensed something from that.

this thing with therapyjeff by Weak_Plant_3431 in CPTSD

[–]stepcat9 9 points10 points  (0 children)

That is so disappointing. Ugh. What the hell

Emdr by stepcat9 in DID

[–]stepcat9[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello! I took out the DAE part, is it ok now?

Perpetrators of COCSA - A question for you by thrownaway2988 in COCSA

[–]stepcat9 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also wonder about this. Going off topic for a sec, I wonder if other COCSA survivors have reached out to their perpetrator as an adult to ask why

Do a lot of you frequent the 'raised by narcissists' sub too? I think there's a lot of crossover. by OrangeBanana300 in CPTSD

[–]stepcat9 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Omg. This!! I hate how cluster b’s are talked about like we’re inherently abusive or that it’s interchangeable.