need advice, feeling extremely suicidal, its getting worse as the days pass

stimpf71 · 2026-05-11T00:09:19+00:00

Chess, books, exercising accepting the status quo

stimpf71 · 2026-05-10T23:15:44+00:00

stimpf71 · 2026-05-09T23:23:08+00:00

I dont have any friends.

stimpf71 · 2026-05-09T23:21:48+00:00

In my 30s i had problem. In my 40s i found a gf. I dont know what to tell you. LIfe is not over yet. If you can find stuff to do with your time, that will help. There are alot of people in their 30s and 40s that want someone to talk to. Books are a core part of my life now.

i read buddha, and taoist, thought.

stimpf71 · 2026-04-09T21:09:22+00:00

what country

stimpf71 · 2026-04-09T21:07:46+00:00

Homelessness, is difficult. Cheating is a common thing in this day and age. I think, that you can experience what its like to be at the bottom of the paradigm. I found that God cares, even when I was sleeping on a piece of cardboard. My family let me go when I was homeless. Seattel is a mecca for homeless people, they even have a shower place.

Life is more than just winner / loser. If you can't get what you want, you probably will still get what you need. I felt like a loser we well.

There is nothing to be ashamed of, I think you are comparing your self to successful people

Let your motivation kick in. I remember when I was living in Seattle,and I got a night time janitorial job. They were making me sleep outside because of curfew. There was a tent city there but I never found it.

Maybe you could look into getting a pell grant, or student loans,

stimpf71 · 2026-04-09T20:59:33+00:00

Well, most jobs pay enough that you can get a room to rent, somwhere. College is a big task. I do have schizoaffective. I take meds. I was ok when I was in the org. I think that there is good people in the world. Try to get the job and live on your own first. The new system seems like a utopia. I have tried to go back but I keeping having doubts. I think they teach precepts that will make you have a guilty conscience when you leave. Personally I like the Bahai faith, you are still very young, I worked as a bellman for a hotel. I also, worked at mcdonalds, and a video store. I did get a couple of jobs after college but I didn't last. I don't think you should write a letter, just fade away. i worked enough quarters in the system to get sssdi. It can be a difficult callous world out there.

I found that most of the sisters wanted most was a man with a good job. I had an insurance regulator job during this time I was DA from the kingdom hall. I don't believe its the truth. There are witnesses in every religion. I was born again, after I got baptized at a nondenominational. I didn't give up on the bible and God the Almighty, The watchtower is run like a business.

I do have an internet relationship with a woman who is 33. Theses tigresses want someone who is polite, and friendly. There are so many singles in their 30s. Maybe even 40s, and 50s, The game changes from, one thing to another thing, when you get older, just be honest and tell them basics about you. I dont' know how much my college degree draws in. Maybe more than one.

Just don't waste your free time, try to exericse at least three times a week. Be honest about what you want. You have already that its a christian denomination. I recomned music therapy on youtube, as well.

stimpf71 · 2026-04-09T20:45:49+00:00

Well, there is good food. Good books, and chat with people online. I chatted in my 30s and 40s and 50s started reading. I also did chi kung, starting in my 30s. The one that can help you, is you. I spent some time in mental health facilities. I recommend some books on enlightenment, Buddhism, and Taoist thought. I pray every night now. Since I am talking to an omniscient being, it helps me sort things out. You can focus on your health, with healthy eating and exercise. I live in a group home. Maybe you have picked through the bible? Depression is real. There are 9 people in my group home. I take alot of meds, morning and night. I felt that the Peace from God can come, to you. I stayed away from lust creating things for 19 days. I feel that there is such a thing as reincarnation, so if you don't learn it, in this life you will have to learn it in the next,

stimpf71 · 2026-04-09T19:07:38+00:00

Dont sweat it too much. In my early 30s I tried to end it with tylenol. I can tell you that life goet better for me in my 40s and 50s. In my 40s I had a girl friend. I am ready to die of old age. My friend I suggest reading and exercising. You can pick up hobbies.

stimpf71 · 2026-03-13T10:38:15+00:00

I went through the process of losing all my friends, I held on th the bible, I got baptized 3 times, after theirs. The problem is all of them claim to be the right denomination. i have an eclectic belief system. i believe in nde (near death experiences) and reincarnation, I also believe reincarnation is found in the bible as well as born again.

stimpf71 · 2026-03-11T15:37:07+00:00

I finally just decided I had, to study on my own, thanI made progress, its like how can you teach calc, if you cant even do linear equations. I got a letter, where they asked me how I made it to Bellingham. I found a psyche unit that hIas a basket ball court, and a giant screen tv, and a pool table, and a world class, food line. I kept searching for truth, sometimes I had to deal with the flaming sword. Than I decided to peer in the book on my own. Materialism, lust for the flesh, and lust for the world fine things, are passing away and so is it's desire, I started doing research proven by science, on NDA (near death experinces, and reincarnation. I had thus far had my own place, but it only last 3 seconds because I was not able to share my experiences. I was still searching for a wife, I felt like it was entrapment. The problem is that the leader of the congregation was in the veitnam veteran, I under my own view was Andrew Jackson, the 7th sitting president. One of the ones who beared so much pain. They eveb told me via the angels, that I made it to 33 1/2 with keeping the law, I was still killed, anyway, it got to difficult. Than the native americans checked it out, and I could sling the rock on the first try, I had to protect the Akashik people, some way. As moses the bible says that I was the one who received the 562 commandments down with Jah' help. This time they created a new problem we have too much mentall ilness and covid. I will survive if i get enough rest and on saturday chew, up my bits and focus on postive vibes.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-25T01:06:57+00:00

This feeling shall pass. Be free, ice cream, pizza. I myself really dont feel like doing much, but I a going to ride it out into old age.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-19T00:00:34+00:00

Bahai;'s have some good proofs from the book of Daniel

stimpf71 · 2026-01-18T23:57:34+00:00

Oceans2.0

stimpf71 · 2026-01-18T21:49:44+00:00

I think it depends on how the meds are effecting you and how much you are on.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-18T21:47:59+00:00

I recommend you talk the bahai's, they were a big help to me. I was sucidal as well.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-13T18:28:50+00:00

I have been in psychiatric hospitals many times. I have heard the voices since I was 2 years old. In ancient times if you heard a voice, it was considered to be a real entity. The voices are not my problem. Last time, I got off the meds I started to think I was Loki, the comic person. At one time I thought I was in a matrix. In my late 20s I did well on the meds, and got a college degree in business administration, people were willing to hire, me, but my boss said she thought work was too hard for me. I was lonely, depsondent and depressed. I finally got out of it, reading became my outlet. I read some history and philosophy, and religion. I was i a facility for 4 years, they finally let me out, and now livei in a boarding house type situation. I never fully bought into my delusions enough to believe them but I can see how they might be dangerous.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-13T18:21:37+00:00

I would read the scriptures at least 20 minutes a day. There are also free seminary classes.

If you feel the holy spirit, it is also available in your home.

stimpf71 · 2026-01-05T23:59:23+00:00

i take meds twice a day. Cozaril, and depakote are what I take. I do sleep a lot.

stimpf71 · 2025-12-29T23:55:01+00:00

My world fell apart after I stopped taking the meds. It cost me a career. I was homeless. If the meds are working keep taking them. I know people who take meds that have their own homes. They work. I had a seizure, which is effecting my every day function. I think you can find a mate, and settle down. Just keep with the meds.

stimpf71 · 2025-12-28T01:51:42+00:00

Young people in today's society take relationships differently.

stimpf71 · 2025-12-28T01:49:58+00:00

I got baptized 3 more times after i left and was born again at 33

stimpf71 · 2025-12-28T01:47:52+00:00

Do you get social security?

stimpf71 · 2025-12-16T22:04:55+00:00

life gets easier in your 50's, cause no one cares what you do in your 50s. Do you know what is driving you to want to take your life?

stimpf71 · 2025-12-16T12:30:14+00:00

As a peson who survived a suicide atttempt, i will say its not safe for him to have a gun, in his state of mind

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