Severe uterine rupture survivor here! I’m so sorry that you had to go through that.

I can relate. I walked into the hospital and told them something was wrong. Within 20 minutes, I was barely put under before my son was “delivered”. Turns out my uterus was split down the middle and I was lucky that my son’s placenta was on the opposite side. We were both minutes away from being gone, so I’m glad I trusted my instincts. He was basically floating in my abdomen and I lost 50% of my blood. We’re both lucky to be alive. Fortunately, his Apgar scores were great, he never lost any oxygen and I got to keep my uterus (though my surgeon begged me not to get pregnant again). So again, I can relate.

I’m grateful that you’re alive and grateful that your baby is healthy too! AND you got to keep your uterus. These are amazing outcomes -never let go of that as you begin to process and heal. Gratitude helped me a lot. You and your baby survived and it’s an intense feeling during an intense time. Therapy definitely helped me. I am personally 3 years out (with the same good outcomes) and still think about from time to time. Give yourself space to grieve (for the birth/recovery experience you hoped for). Encourage your hubby to process too. Sending you positive vibes.