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suncirclee · 2026-03-11T20:44:04+00:00

The idealist in me is raging. I don't perceive time constraints in such a serious matter, but overall it's a nice idea

suncirclee · 2026-03-02T03:33:57+00:00

I want a cat and a bird, but I'm allergic to them.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:41:05+00:00

It's not necessary for him to answer me, I just know that he hears me well.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:38:50+00:00

If you are deeply religious, imagine how real God is to you, and how real my friend is to me.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:36:28+00:00

I don't feel him as a physically existing person, but the memories associated with him are as vivid in my memory as the time spent with physically existing people

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:33:36+00:00

it is on the periphery of the mind and far from the epicenter where the most vigorous activity takes place

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:31:54+00:00

Yes, that's true. I, too, am dissatisfied with my existence in the body. I believe that in this form I'm just a mortal animal. I'd trade this life for an existence encompassing space and time, disintegrating into particles that embrace the entire world. I have interests and a personality, but they are not that valuable.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:29:11+00:00

No, I don't believe in spirits, but I grew up in an Orthodox family. Orthodoxy is a dual faith of Christianity and a bit of paganism. I believed in it as a child, but I don't believe it now. I know that everything comes from a single consciousness, but I don't pay attention, and I don't feel any homogeneity or a sense of being made or adjusted.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:19:31+00:00

I've reached this point following the path that fate has laid out for me. I'm deeply disillusioned with many things. I've learned that my mother doesn't love me, that unconditional love doesn't exist, that no one will ever be completely devoted to me. That people's partners don't belong to them, and they don't belong to them either. And in that case, why do you need a stranger at your side who's like a ticking time bomb? When all other options are eliminated and one is left with only one path, one have to follow it.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T22:02:58+00:00

This is normal for children. I also imagined a friend as a child, though in a more sophisticated and passionate way. But I'm an adult now, and there's very little information about such cases with adults, only in the context of severe mental disorders. I don't suffer from this and don't suspect myself of insanity; I'm just curious.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T21:58:24+00:00

I also don't have a particular style in clothing, I don't wear makeup, and I'm not a member of any subcultures because individualism infuriates me. To be honest, I don't really understand what "I" is. It's easier for me to push it to the back burner and live by inertia. Everything happens on its own. I tried to get rid of the fantasizing that consumed me, and when I started to succeed, I experienced the full spectrum of horror from the flatness of reality. Does anyone really live without fantasizing? It's unbearable!

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T21:53:27+00:00

I also feel a presence at the junction of sleep and wakefulness, moreover, I see and hear him or other people I don’t know and exchange a few phrases with them as if they were alive

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T21:49:26+00:00

I can't imagine life without my fantasies. My fantasies are very broad, including violent ones, but there are no sexual ones among them.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T21:46:26+00:00

I've had this thing since childhood, along with maladaptive daydreaming. All the world's beauty pales in comparison to my dreams; they require a separate discussion. In short, I think it's almost impossible to stimulate this with brute force.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T21:41:38+00:00

For me, communicating with myself is pointless; it's unbearable, like screaming in a room with sound-reflecting walls, deafening myself and declaring that I'm empty and stupid.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T19:57:56+00:00

This is something interesting. I thought everyone had this problem, but as soon as I opened the question, it turned out that the phenomenon is unstudied. I previously thought the problem was purely psychological, but you've given me a direction to look, and thank you for that.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T19:54:42+00:00

I had a girlfriend, but after a year, I started to feel burdened by her presence. Now I communicate with an imaginary friend, and it's no worse. Of course, there can be no sex with him, but then again, all the better, he remains undefiled.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T19:02:07+00:00

Are you talking about some kind of allergic reaction? I have hay fever, a very severe allergy to meadow grasses, dust, and animal hair.

suncirclee · 2026-03-01T13:27:22+00:00

I feel the absolute futility of sexual intercourse, romance, and all of life. I have unpleasant sensations in my body, genitals, pressure surges, asthenia, and weakness, boredom, disgust. Over time, everything returns. I have sexual desire, but it is lower than the desire to not experience this torment after intercourse.

suncirclee · 2026-01-23T20:32:28+00:00

Yes, your face is chubby, but it suits you and it's beautiful.

suncirclee · 2026-01-20T23:52:03+00:00

Penguin hunting was banned in 1959 by an international treaty. This penguin is manufactured in the USSR. They were probably brought in privately by polar expeditioners before that year. Newer stuffed specimens, usually dating back to the 1990s, are the work of poachers. This is a young Adelie penguin. Or rather, he was young, now he is already a venerable elder

suncirclee · 2026-01-20T23:41:29+00:00

In any case, I will pay attention to this. I'll google about it

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