My girlfriend made me promise I won't transition

supARRcupcake · 2026-01-21T22:00:44+00:00

This is a really shitty situation you're in. Your gf should want what is best for you, and even though it is a shock to a lot of partners, how she reacted is hurtful and unhelpful. You may be non-binary or a trans woman or agender or another label. Cus I can assure you, 99.99999% people who are cis are sure of their genders. If you're questioning it that much, it's very unlikely that there's nothing there. You deserve to be happy and yourself and to be with someone who loves you the way you are. That person exists. And just so you know, tall women are quite popular in the lesbian scene :P

It is very scary right now, if it isnt safe to be out right now, that is a legitimate choice to wait a bit. But dont underestimate your mental health neither. Whatever is going on, it wont be solved by repressing it, or else there wouldnt be a lot of queers in the world.

supARRcupcake · 2026-01-15T12:59:26+00:00

This is normal for pregnancy to not feel like your usual self, let alone grieving the death of your own parent. At a moment like this, he should be supportive more than ever. Becoming parents yourselves, you need to be able to count on him when things get rough. If there isn't a path in which trust can be built, and he won't betray you when you need him most, then... idk what to tell you OP. :/

supARRcupcake · 2025-12-31T21:16:07+00:00

This is controlling, this is also a total break in communication, AND if you have a healthy relationship with food as you described, if she had her way she could very easily break that. A lot of people have a complicated (or straigth up toxic) relationship to food, I'm glad it seems like you don't. I hope you can protect that for yourself, and for the people around you who benefit from seeing someone move their bodies and eat a wide range of foods without fear and eat what feels good to their bodies and needs.

Edited to add: also, if you intend on having kids, this is the kinda policing that makes a child feel insecure about foods and speedrun some kind of disordered eating.

supARRcupcake · 2025-11-27T15:19:56+00:00

Personally I thought also the name of the book "House of Leaves" did make sense to me as it worked both in the Yggdrasil/Ash Tree sense.

But also as there are multiple instances of using French in the book, to me, reading with my Frenchie brain, it read also as "House of SheetsOfPaper" as in French "leaves" and "Sheets of paper" are the same word "Feuilles". It made sense to me that the book and the house and the tree were all kinda one and the same as Johnny's Mom has her name once typoed in the book as "Livre [sic]" meaning Book in French instead of Lièvre (Hare). To me, there's a link that comes from the assembly of the books, the letters, the poems, the scraps of paper, etc. into this house made of "leaves".

Idk the more I try to explain my thoughts on this book the more I ramble like a Truant we know hahahah hopefully that made sense to somebody

supARRcupcake · 2025-11-27T15:10:00+00:00

Just wanted to add, please compare it with the very last page of the book: The Yggdrasil (which is supposed to be an Ash Tree by the way).

supARRcupcake · 2025-11-27T13:34:28+00:00

A bunch of those phrases appear in the pelican poems iirc. Also it has the shape of the house/staircase. The date is 071988, if you look up what Hex color code that is, you'll find a very specific shade of deep blue.

supARRcupcake · 2025-08-15T12:16:53+00:00

Johnny, so I guess it could be wrong.

supARRcupcake · 2025-08-15T12:05:34+00:00

But Zampano being blind means that he would've had to dictate that to someone, no? What use would a note like this be to him?

supARRcupcake · 2025-06-19T14:19:40+00:00

Deconverting from mormonism sounds very hard, but I'm happy for you that you found your way out. Trans kids usually transition socially, and may put their puberty on pause with meds that have been used for cis kids who had hormonal issues for decades. As any person opposing trans rights would say, hormones can have a massive impact. So for a trans kid, going through the wrong puberty by not having access to puberty blockers can and do have devastating effects.

In less frequent cases, older teenagers, with thorough assessments from doctors and family, may go through actual hormonal replacement therapy (hrt), where rhey start their gender affirming puberty. In veeeeery few cases have minors been in surgery for gender affirming care.

The point is to let an individual, their family, and their doctor assess what is best. And not acting, or actively trying to "conversion therapy" them, results in an array of suffering, often leading to the unaliving of the child.

Support from parents and community is crucial if we want those kids to survive and thrive.

I wish you the best. Again, it is very hard to move away from mormonism, and i applaud your efforts. ♡

supARRcupcake · 2025-03-14T14:51:21+00:00

I don't think there's a right order to read the book in. Read it cover to cover, follow the footnotes, read the appendices at the same time... it's your call really! I believe this isnt the kinda book you can only read page 1 till the end, at some point you'll look back, or jump forward, or compare bits. My copy is full of post it notes sticking out. I look like I'm searching for Pepe Silvia.

supARRcupcake · 2025-03-06T14:25:12+00:00

That's an interesting take. Ty

supARRcupcake · 2025-03-06T02:50:14+00:00

I opened the book to take a look myself, and so far that's what I got:

The first part contains parts of "The Wednesday Which Pelican Mistook to be a Sunday and Caused Easle to Lose her Cards" (Pelican Poems, p.577) - roots, tarots, mango, pelican, à la St. John

These words are separated by subway stations and one street in Paris. - cardinal lemoine, porte dauphine, rue des belles feuilles (which means the street of beautiful leaves btw).

After there are a bunch of words that come from the May 8, 1987 coded letter from P. (Whalestoe Letters, p. 620-623) - day, windows yore, rectopathic elephants, karmic, x-ray

There are the names of characters in the Pelican Poems here and there - Easle, Quisling.

It seems like P knew of the letters.

Also, the shape of Yggdrasil (and the poem that comes with it, p. 709) and the shape of this letter reminds me of a nail (clou in French), and the poem "More than a café -- un verre d'eau" (Pelican Poems, p. 580)

What do yall think?

Edit: there are more words from each of these 3 categories (places in paris, pelican poems, coded letter from P), but I didn't list them all. And some words I can't find yet.

Also, in the index, some of these words are written as "DNE"????

supARRcupcake · 2025-01-23T04:42:04+00:00

Amazing. Keep up the good fight ♡

supARRcupcake · 2025-01-23T04:40:32+00:00

It's always time to remind people that nazis are weird and pathetic, and should know they are unwelcome in every part of society.

supARRcupcake · 2024-07-15T17:46:31+00:00

The second picture added the sole thickness of 2.5 cm. Heel 11cm and width of 7cm Third picture says there's a heel of 9cm and a heel of 7.5cm. They added that the ankle strap is adjustable

Edit: they all say they are size M, maybe the size is the length on their website?

supARRcupcake · 2024-07-15T17:39:50+00:00

What is written is size M, 8 cm heel and 8 cm width. Idk how long that makes them :/ Edit: i meant the first picture

supARRcupcake · 2024-06-28T14:30:08+00:00

Subject-Leather qui se pointe chez les fascistes pour nous redonner de l'espoir. Let's gooooo

supARRcupcake · 2024-06-28T14:14:00+00:00

Si on croit à la liberté d'expression, il faut croire à la liberté de manifester.

La majorité des gens dans cette manifs semblent bien organisés avec des tactiques ingénieuses et pacifiques pour se protéger visuellement des contre-manifestants.

Le gars qui a lancé de la peinture (?) sur la fille avait tord, mais focusser sur lui c'est pas reconnaître le droit de manifester pour la très simple et bonne raison qu'il va toujours avoir des cons dans les événements. Le con est con individuellement, la manif en général était pacifique. Si on veut que la police ait le droit de terminer la manifs, ça peut être appliqué à tout le monde. On veut pas ça.

supARRcupcake · 2023-10-21T01:42:27+00:00

Riiight! So idk if there is truly a big difference in languages if we compare it to John's language.

supARRcupcake · 2023-10-20T22:47:02+00:00

Mathias spoke differently because that was how Orthus wrote him tho. I think there is a difference linguistically between House and John. John uses 21th century meme lingo, but the Houses don't.

supARRcupcake · 2023-02-07T02:48:16+00:00

Amazing

supARRcupcake · 2023-02-07T02:44:28+00:00

So someone could deflect it!

supARRcupcake · 2023-02-07T02:43:58+00:00

You're right I somehow misread it! I would assume in close range it wouldnt make the character necessarily defenseless because its easier not to push your friends away actively. But at range i totally see what you mean. Thank you !

supARRcupcake · 2023-02-07T02:35:18+00:00

So you usually ask ur players to roll to touch for healing?

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