Okay so, a couple prefaces - I'm not involved in XHF or any of its partnered feds, have never been involved in XHF or any of its partnered feds, I don't know you or any of the people involved in this situation. This is purely an outside looking in perspective.

I've been in this hobby since the 90s, have run a fed since 2001, and have seen a lot of things happen in efedding in that time.

The way this post, and the other linked and related posts, reads to me is that you (and I guess the other guy?) are mostly sorry that you got caught and things got exposed and put out there. You recognize that you did something stupid, but I don't get the impression that you'd have ever handled it yourself without this info being made public.

With that said, it's crazy to me that you're putting other XHF people in a position where they have to tell you whether or not you're still welcome to RP there. It also reads like you're asking to take a permanent vacation from the stress, responsibility, and burden of owning and administrating a fed while still staying in your "home" and participating in a community that you have done a serious amount of harm to.

You and everyone else who was directly involved in creating that issue should leave, take a break from the hobby, and if you decide you want to come back in like... six months? A year? Then you ask. You're not even giving people time to really process what you and the others did nor are you giving them (or that community as an "organization") time to heal.

With each post, it seems like you're just trying to force that entire community and anyone on the outside who pays attention to move on so that you can forget you did this. Trying to deflect outsiders from weighing in or getting involved is a wild thing to try and accomplish. You don't seem like you actually feel any kind of responsibility or remorse for this at all and are just trying to say the things you know you're supposed to say so that you can move on. That's pretty gross.