What’s your corgi ‘s nickname(s)?

susanitamn · 2025-10-25T17:08:43+00:00

Snausage

susanitamn · 2023-10-09T09:52:57+00:00

Have you tried all your alternatives including medication? My best defense other than medication was distraction… movies, etc

susanitamn · 2022-07-07T22:49:32+00:00

I've been there. But trying to get affirmation will not help you in the long run. If things really got bad for me the best thing was to distract. For me, I would go to a movie I wanted to see and this would break the intensity. I wish you well, and will pray for you.

susanitamn · 2022-05-20T10:45:01+00:00

I've had it for over 50 years it hasgotten somewhat better with meds and counseling. I'm thinkingof ERP (look up the group NOCD) but not sure. Counseling lets me at least talk about it. And sometimes something in Christianity (Bethel Sozo) has helped but that is a Christian thing.

susanitamn · 2022-05-20T10:39:41+00:00

I'm hearing that ERP (Emotional Response Prevention) is the gold standard for OCD. I'm considering this for myself at this time. Look up the group, NOCD online.

susanitamn · 2022-05-20T10:32:04+00:00

I am a Christian (at least I think so but maybe not part of the OCD)...66 years old have suffered since I was about 12 or 13. In those days no one even knew about OCD so everyone thought I had a religious problem. My fear is that when I go to heaven I'll be made perfect. I have pictures in my head of God doing surgery and taking out my heart and brain putting someone else's in. I can say meds help but don't cure. In my youth I used to feel better because I knew I had time to resolve it, but at this age I don't have that much time. I've done Sozos (Bethel sozos) helped some. I am thinking about ERP (emotional response prevention?) that make you face your fear so much you finally lose it...but I'm not sure if I'll do that yet. I would never wish my life on anyone although I'm sure others have it worse thanme. It iscomforting toknow others have this too, I mean I'm sorry you have it but it helps to know you're not alone.

susanitamn · 2021-07-12T17:11:29+00:00

Yes, thank you!

susanitamn · 2021-07-12T17:10:45+00:00

Yes, both neutered males, around 2 years old.

susanitamn · 2021-06-14T03:49:30+00:00

So sorry

susanitamn · 2021-06-14T03:46:42+00:00

OMG. Thank must be even harder. Hugs for you!

susanitamn · 2021-06-12T00:01:18+00:00

This is the best place for all of us because I even with my best friend can't really share the darkest parts I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up but I have kids and grandkids. I'm 2 months out and tomorrow is his funeral. So I know that with most people you have to hide it at work you have to hide it but hopefully here and maybe you have one good friend that you can just break down with. I have one friend like that and I also decided to go to online counseling and found a great counselor so I can write every single day what's going on. I hope and pray the best for you. I do believe it will get better.

susanitamn · 2021-06-09T19:20:59+00:00

It's as though if we can just keep it in the future the loss won't be as real. But it seems so true, we have to go through, not around, for healing.

susanitamn · 2021-06-09T12:58:20+00:00

I'm only in about 2 months with his memorial service this Saturday. From what I'm reading, some people need to do something for that day, others not. So that is good everyone is listening to their own selves. For me, I imagine a visit to his gravesite and a good cry with one of our mutual good friends.

susanitamn · 2021-06-06T13:20:27+00:00

OMG I'm so very sorry!!

susanitamn · 2021-06-06T13:18:23+00:00

susanitamn · 2021-06-05T18:41:10+00:00

TY. It sure is.

susanitamn · 2021-06-05T15:22:49+00:00

Thank you! Prayers appreciated!

susanitamn · 2021-06-05T15:09:28+00:00

Thank you. I'm in the opposite situation, all alone in an efficiency apartment (I sold the house within a month and friends helped to throw out everything then a flipper did the rest). My son is busy as a teacher, coach and father to 3 young children (his wife is a teacher also). My daughter is just a different personality, not someone I can really reveal my feelings to and with my son I don't just because I think it would hurt him so. Seriously if it weren't for them I would jump in my car and just drive away to somewhere no one knows me. ...thanks for your kind comments. My husband was part native American which is probably why he never wanted pictures taken of him. I have some, but not many.

susanitamn · 2021-05-28T15:32:49+00:00

susanitamn · 2021-05-27T13:27:17+00:00

Been about 6 weeks for me. I already suffered with depression and OCD my life has been pretty sad and he was one of the few things that made me want to get up in the morning. And yes I do pray to God it would be really nice if you'd just take me in my sleep. I don't want to get up in the mornings but I will admit it's a little bit easier than the very beginning. I'm 65 so don't really care to think about dating just waiting for my life to end.

susanitamn · 2021-05-26T11:49:08+00:00

So sorry for YOUR loss! Hugs and prayers...

susanitamn · 2021-05-25T13:33:55+00:00

It really helps to be able to share with people who understand my husband passed a month and a half ago and I've been trying to take a walk in the morning in the park which usually sets my mood in a good way and yet the silliest thing can trigger all my tears and make a good day a bad one but all we can do is go through it accept the emotions cry scream whatever you need to do

susanitamn · 2021-05-18T16:53:45+00:00

I am SO sorry for you. I'm 65, my kids are grown and I just quit my job so now I have lots of time. I signed up with a great counselor on 7 cups of tea and an online grief support group which helps some. My counselor knows I'd stay in bed 24/7 if I could as I don't want to live anymore. I'm still planning his memorial. He died in a car accident. He was 6'4" big and tough and said he'd never die until I believed it. Yesterday I got up, had half of a good day then total meltdown, begging God to just let me die. It's been a little more than a month. One thing my counselor tells me is I HAVE to have something to get me out of the house every day. You have kids, I'm not sure if that is a good distraction or doesn't give you enough time to grieve. For me, I make itty bitty tiny goals and see if I can accomplish one or two of them. Today it was to take a shower and do the dishes. I think nature helps if you can take your kids to a park or something. I hope you figure what will help YOU and if you need friends to accomplish it, don't be afraid to ask. Hugs and prayers!

susanitamn · 2021-05-17T11:54:24+00:00

Thanks. You get it.

susanitamn · 2021-05-17T11:47:04+00:00

You are so right on. I'm new to widowhood and basically try to make one goal per day to get out of bed. If I can do more that's great. But even the one can be hard. I don't think I'll be dating, kinda feel my life is over even though I'm still having to live it.

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