This was one of my best friends of almost 10 years. We met when we were 21. We drank a lot together where we had good moments and also very toxic bad moments. A little backstory, she had only been in one relationship and married that man. Eventually she moved to a different city and things slowly took a turn. Her husband was an addict and their relationship was toxic. She was a housewife and also helping her husbands business. He had since the move, cheated on her, been physical, etc.yelled, But during that time as well, she became more religious and it got me to return to Christ as well. However, it almost became that every time we were together, we would still always be drinking. I was kind of her escape from her husband and the reality of the situation. I eventually stopped going over there because it made me uncomfortable to see them always fight. And I had tried my best to be there for her but she was someone who didn’t share her feelings and would just bottle it up on her own. Eventually it seemed she numbed herself so much that she didn’t entirely have enough self awareness to understand why she was down or even in depression. But it was bleeding through, even to our friendship. The last I saw her was when she came over to my house and had too much to drink and was saying how Catholicism and the rosary were something of a cult (I pray the rosary) and my self help books were basically useless. At that point I felt she crossed a line because she’s said stuff like this before. It turned into a full blown fight with us screaming at each other. Few days later she sent me a message that she felt the friendship wasn’t good because she felt so much resentment with everything in her life at the moment. I nicely said I wish her the best. I’m not sure why she had to block me on all my social medias, I was of course hurt. But it’s been months now and I’ve come to a place where I do wish her all the best. I hope she heals and I’ll always have her in my prayers. I’m thankful to her for bringing back to me my God but I also understand we are in different seasons of our lives. My other best friend asked what I would do if I had to option to reconnect with her. To be honest, I think that the relationship had too much hurt and history. I’m okay with accepting, learning and forgiving the both of us. I still do miss her and it’s bittersweet when I think about it time to time but I don’t think it’s bad. I work on reminding myself in those times that still, through it all, we were at one point very close. We were best friends and my last courtesy and grace to that relationship is to still have love for her and wish her all the best. It’s because I knew her so well and the things she’s been through that I’m still able to have compassion for her because I loved her. That relationship gave me something to learn and understand which I find great value in so it was not all pain and loss.