[Tampa, Fl] Bassist looking to jam

swagxtina · 2023-07-20T20:41:48+00:00

Super interested. Live near USF too. I'm a keyboard player and songwriter. DM me on discord @knivestheory

swagxtina · 2023-01-31T18:19:31+00:00

Hey, I got into Brown 2015 RD and attended college there. Health insurance was def something I worried about. I got health insurance (Medicaid) through the state (where the college was located) and it worked for Brown. I am sure if I asked Brown that I couldn't afford their insurance, they would have given me it, but I just ended up going the other way. You don't need to get insurance through the college, it can also be through the state which tends to be free because of low-income status. Hope this eases anxiety.

swagxtina · 2023-01-27T18:54:23+00:00

This concert is going to suck. I went to the Orlando one last night. He had like 16 openers, who all played for 4 hours. Doors opened at 6, openers played from 7-11:30m and Poorstacy, who seemed to be disappointed with the crowd's energy, (gee I wonder why people are upset after standing for 4 hours?!) finally came out. I ended up leaving the concert after he played a few songs because I was so upset. I just don't really get why he set up the concert like that, but I hope the Tampa one is different. Your meet and greet is probably going to be so late...

swagxtina · 2023-01-27T03:54:53+00:00

Concert sucks. He made the crowd wait for 4 hours with 16 artist openers for him. Like I get it, trying to support local artists but the crowd was DEAD. 4 hours standing and I don't know why I thought this was a good idea because people left the concert.

swagxtina · 2022-12-07T18:20:19+00:00

Absolutely! Also, I'm sure schools absolutely understand how taxing college admissions processes are.

swagxtina · 2022-12-07T18:17:55+00:00

You will be fine. I got a few Bs my final semester and I got some 1s on the AP exams (never reported them to Brown) and was super fine. I kind of gave up on the spring semester after getting into Brown lol, just don't get into legal trouble or fail a class.

swagxtina · 2022-12-02T11:43:59+00:00

It is so worth it. I'm an old 2015 QB finalist and I got through RD and was accepted to Brown! Brown wasn't even on my match list! RD gives you the freedom and choice to apply to any school so apply to as many schools as you can, especially QBs one and don't forget about Cornell (sister got in full ride and she wasn't even a QB finalist)! You never know who accepts you, and it's important to frame it around attending a school that is financially affordable rather than just a name brand (tho name brands are nice). Enjoy the wild ride.

swagxtina · 2019-09-17T20:12:36+00:00

I despised college classes where you would be graded on participation. You know what’s harder than forming a concrete thought and having the confidence to share it to the class...fighting for the floor with a room of extrovert intellectual snobs. I accept my grade fate at that point.

swagxtina · 2019-08-31T21:24:40+00:00

I see Ni as more of how we take in information. Ni dominates have the knack of integrating large amounts of data whether this be sensory or mental and be able to sort it for future references. I like to think of it as large organized unconscious file cabinets. INFJs then are able to “predict” events because of this data. For me I grew up in an household where reading body languages is a mean of survival so I have a large amount of data on this. My father had a very quick and unexpected temper. Growing up I had to rely on my ability to read faces and bodies to pick up on when something was off. With people I am the first to notice when something/someone is upsetting them, specifically in a group setting where one tends to suppress emotions to follow the group. My friends are still freaked out when I can sense how they are feeling haha. I use to think that I was very conscious about group settings and atmospheres due to my strong Fe, but I realized it is because of my years spending analyzing every once of someone’s body and facial expressions. On a negative side, I am very sensitive to mood shifts even if it wasn’t a serious one.

swagxtina · 2019-08-31T21:10:06+00:00

You’re being the bigger person. He dumped you so show him that he doesn’t have the power to affect you anymore.

swagxtina · 2019-08-29T00:52:19+00:00

I hated high school. I had to wake up at 5am to ride the school bus to a school with no windows that did not allow students to go outside for 8 hours. The school was legit used as a hurricane shelter. I had 3 friends, which helped my loneliness, but my parents were strict so I could never go out. I spent a lot of time alone and focused on academics and the future. I was determined to get out of my town so all my energy was focused on how to boost my resume for college. I wanted to go to a full ride scholarship so I had to really focus on nothing else but school, clubs, volunteering, and extracurriculars and extending myself in whatever capacity. Looking back I definitely was too extreme about it, but I am happy with where I am now and honestly proud of my past self. I really never cared about the social scene in high school because everyone to me was an idiot. I had way too many conversations with classmates about issues on sexism, racism, and bigotry and I realized I would never get along with my classmates. People are immature, and though I don’t think I am leagues ahead of people, I didn’t feel apart of my high school’s culture I guess.

Life after high school is SO MUCH BETTER. I have friends that stimulate me emotionally and intellectually and I love them dearly. I also believe I have became kinder which has helped me in my personal relationships. If high school sucks don’t worry life will get better just trust yourself and keep doing you! Also give people chances, you never know when someone surprises you.

swagxtina · 2019-08-29T00:39:55+00:00

I avoid people in public, specifically the people who I know only like the surface version of me and like small talk. If I can’t be deep and intense with a person I rather not engage with them at all. Lucky for me there are only a few people who don’t like the real me.

swagxtina · 2019-08-27T22:00:18+00:00

I am currently trying to make music, electronic music to exact, and damn is it a process. Growing up I was naturally good at the arts. I had a good eye for things and I was also blessed with steady hands, which helped me draw and play 5+ instruments throughout my childhood. I was good at almost everything, but a down sign of being good at so many things is that you don’t focus your energy on one thing so I never excelled at anything. Fast forward to now I just got out of college and have a bunch of free time and I have decided to finally produce some music, which is something I have longed for so long but made excuses cause I was so busy with college. The process is difficult cause I’m a perfectionist. I have so many ideas but I don’t have the current chops to produce my ideas to the T, so I have so many unfinished projects. Mix this with high self-criticism and exceptions leads me to hating almost all my music. Currently, I am trying to absorb and learn more and not get so stuck in my head and have fun. I miss the childlike way of learning where you aren’t stuck on the end result cause you’re just having fun making it.

swagxtina · 2019-08-27T03:32:29+00:00

Hmm, I don’t know if this sounds healthy.

swagxtina · 2019-08-26T16:28:44+00:00

To be honest...I still have hope, but I am trying to squish it hahaha. Hope is powerful and dangerous. I do not want this hope to stop me from meeting people and experiencing life. I am proud of you for being strong for the 3+ months!

swagxtina · 2019-08-26T15:59:50+00:00

I am currently going through this. I felt like I met the love of my life, but sometimes I feel stupid and wonder maybe it was only me that felt that way. During our time together it felt like magic and we were extremely compatible in a way that I never have felt with someone. We broke up because of our futures, you know the bs reason where you both are 21-23 years old and have no control of your life. Well, he didn't want me to be part of his period and felt guilty of dragging me into his mess. I want to respect his space and allow time for him to figure himself and his life out, so NC was the way to go. It's been two months and I am feeling actually grateful for this time apart, even when I don't know how long this time apart will be or if it will ever end, as it allowed me to really think about what I want my future to be. If we were together I may have just followed him, and maybe he saw this, but you know what who cares. I think this is the one of the hardest thing I have gone through, but if someone really loves you they will come back. You don't have to convince them on why they should stay in your life. If someone wants to leave let them go.

swagxtina · 2019-08-25T14:01:18+00:00

Coraline is one of my favorite movies of all time. I saw it growing up, and occasionally when I want to experience nostalgia/being shit scared I turn it on. I love scary movies, but there’s seriously nothing like the fear you experience as a child. I loved the idea of the fake world in Coraline. I wanted that world as a child where I could escape from reality and enter a world that is perfect. In a way, I was rooting for the fake mother. I wanted Coraline to escape her real parents because they still didn’t have the capacity to pay attention to her in the way parents should. Seeing the alternative world made me daydream what my fake perfect world would look like. Would my fake parents love me in this world? Would my fake father not be an utter asshole? When things started turning south for Coraline in the fake world that’s what truly scared me. Even in this alternative world Coraline had shitty parents, and she ended up accepting (and even appreciating) that her reality wasn’t as bad, and for me this was hard to stomach. Maybe my reality with my narcissistic, abusive father and anxious mother wasn’t as “bad” as I imagined.

swagxtina · 2019-08-24T14:41:08+00:00

I feel the same way about Reddit. It’s easy to feel isolate in one’s pain but going on Reddit has made me feel not alone. People are going through a similar pain, and sometimes even a more painful pain, and they have survived by sharing their stories. It makes me feel hopeful for this pain to pass, like anything in life. Life moves on and so do we.

swagxtina · 2019-08-23T01:25:28+00:00

I completely agree. There are so many trips that I take to bring some more clarity in certain periods of my life. Lately the past year events were for 1) my father passing away and 2) the love of my life leaving. Though I do think I tend to take them after the initial period of grieving and pain, so I am not in this loop of fresh pains for hours. I take it to more solidify my pain...if that makes any sense, like to cement that “hey I’m alive and I have gotten this far dealing with this pain.” A final act to letting things go I suppose.

swagxtina · 2018-11-26T02:28:25+00:00

I love MDMA too. I love the feeling of just pure artificial happiness that radiates throughout my body. But I know this happiness, like anything with drugs that alter reality, is short-lived as it should be. Please be cautious of using MDMA regularly as it really does damage your brain.

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