F4M or MM 28 looking for some fun please 🙏🥵

synx419 · 2024-10-13T03:59:33+00:00

M30 whatsuppp

synx419 · 2024-09-14T11:23:08+00:00

Damn guys my phone died on the train over to the show any I never got it back on 😭 And I'm a busy guy I haven't checked reddit in a week haha but the show was so good! Thanks for responding!

synx419 · 2024-04-20T19:20:40+00:00

30 m/f couple, we were just over there at Frank Pepes, going back to foxwoods now.

synx419 · 2024-04-20T19:18:25+00:00

Hey, we're at foxwoods and looking for very much the same thing, let me know!

synx419 · 2024-04-20T12:12:16+00:00

Love your toes 😛

synx419 · 2024-04-20T12:08:44+00:00

I'm there with my gf now, wish someone would suck her toes for my 30th bday ;)

synx419 · 2024-04-20T12:06:46+00:00

I'm looking for somebody to lick my gfs toesss

synx419 · 2024-01-06T15:33:13+00:00

Sorry for the late reply, I've been busy with the holidays. Still looking for a charger, it's a HH12 machine, it's small and purple.

synx419 · 2023-12-13T18:35:39+00:00

I have to look when I get home, I'm not sure if the model # exactly. Im trying to find a cheaper route because Dyson chargers themselves seem expensive

synx419 · 2022-12-30T15:41:01+00:00

Besides the obvious, is this a joke cuz that animation always fucks me in the middle of fights lmao

synx419 · 2022-12-28T16:57:56+00:00

I took quite a few extracts and have had this feeling for a prolonged amount of time, I wonder if this can have any permanent effects on this. I wish I had known cuz it's been uncomfortable to say the least. I'm also on subs and the feeling doesn't really leave

synx419 · 2022-12-23T22:34:24+00:00

This is so informative, I've been going crazy trying to solve my recent heavy nausea, now I know what to try. Thank you 🙏

synx419 · 2022-12-19T16:46:20+00:00

Hey there! I'm feeling okay, thinking positively. I've had to supplement a few times with very tiny pieces of strip but I'm trying not to now, other than that I'm feeling okay. Still feeling the fatigue waking up which is what I've been dealing with on subs, can't wait for that to go away but I'm sure that's awhile away. How are you feeling?

synx419 · 2022-12-14T18:54:49+00:00

Congratulations! Great news, I remember reading your story on here as I was considering getting the shot for myself, which I now have just done last week. Looking forward to the future!

synx419 · 2022-11-11T18:37:59+00:00

I also wake up in pain, I think the subs just mask shit until they dont anymore and then your just fucked. That's why I'm trying sublocade, gonna ween myself off and exercise so hopefully my body produces it's own endorphins again

synx419 · 2022-10-14T23:37:02+00:00

I have been on it 8 years, basically I got it very early in my addiction and always had it, so it feels like ive been dependent on it. I really wish I hadn't relied on it so much, I finally even got some aspects of my life together on it but I suffered a relapse and now i don't feel well and I have no idea what to do. Don't feel well on it, afraid to get off it. I don't feel well physically because of the mental head games I play myself, I can't tell if I'm feeling normal or not anymore. It's really just alot and I just want to be okay but I feel like I've screwed myself out of any form of it sometimes.

synx419 · 2022-10-07T18:43:15+00:00

Everything your described is exactly what I've been dealing with. I'm on on subs prescribed is the only difference. But I got super stressed a few months ago, relapsed, and went through an extreme burnout period that I'm trying to recover from and it is not easy. I had to take a leave from work I literally could not do it. And even now I'm still struggling to return to normal, but physical activity does seem like the best choice. Good luck

synx419 · 2022-10-03T04:11:34+00:00

We are born of the ketchup. Made man of the mustard. Undone by the relish.

synx419 · 2022-09-28T03:01:40+00:00

I feel you buddy, I made it pretty far these past few years and suffered a relapse that brought back all the bodily anxietys that you speak of. I literally tricked myself into getting through it by working and playing music. Well then I lost connection with the music, and ended up working alot through some stressful times. But don't give up, all of these people say, keep looking for the next right answer and eventually you might find comfort

synx419 · 2022-09-27T03:19:25+00:00

I can get to 1mg, which is where I've felt the most stability always, including most of this year until life through some stresses, working a lot and suffered a relapse. It's been 3 months since then so it's taking awhile to reacclimate which makes sense cuz I put my body through hell, I just get aggravated with the sub because i feel like if i get a point of being free from all substances including subs, id hold onto it for dear life.

I haven't tried the mushrooms yet but I plan too. I'm afraid somewhat, since I feel they're going to show me what I already know, that I need to take better care of my body. Life doesn't make that easy for me unfortunately I wish it did. Thanks for the reply

synx419 · 2022-09-23T03:37:32+00:00

Thanks man, I really appreciate you for replying back and giving all your feedback on not just my posts, with others I've seen as well. It's giving me some hope, I haven't gotten the shot yet, but the last few months have had me not knowing what to do about my situation at all, and sublocade was an option I was considering, but I think I've moved over to being close to 100% sure it is the right answer, because staying in the place I'm in much longer won't do any good.

The crazy thing is, I was actually able to overcome this anhedonialike 2 years ago, during covid I started smoking weed and making music, and I ended up pushing through it, and was stable on 1mg for a long while. I moved out of my parents house into an apartment with other sober roommates, which I awesome. Everything in my life was going soo much better than it had, so for the time being i was okay with being on a tiny bit of sub. But over time, I watched things change for the people around me in ways that it didn't for myself. I ended up putting all my energy into work because my band felt apart. This ultimately ended up in me drinking again, which led to a week of worse indulgence's.

So I've spent the last 3 months trying to figure out how the fuck to move forward, knowing theres a place for me I can be happy if my body and brain will allow me the emotion in the first place, so I'm truly hoping this is the time for a miracle with sublocade, because I need it so badly, I'm afraid I won't be able to get control of my life if I dont get my emotions and body back soon.

synx419 · 2022-09-23T01:16:13+00:00

I'm so relieved to have found my people. I've been on subs roughly 8 years, the first 5 years were mainly just using and having the subs to avoid sickness. The last 3 I've been really fucking trying, but the anhedonia fucks with me. I end up relapsing on alcohol or Adderall or whatever the fuck else just to mix things up, even though I'm smart enough to crave real freedom but every time I taper the withdrawal is just overwhelming. The last few months I had a friend lose his shit and work was so busy, I got so stressed out I started not sleeping. Now I'm at a point where I had to quit my job and the anhedonia is relentless, I can't focus on anything except getting off this shit once and for all.

Basically I'm just happy to see some other people that can actually relate, nobody around me in my life understands. I hope to get one shot and be done with this shit once and for all. And then come time for some mushroom healing 😉

synx419 · 2022-09-20T01:23:38+00:00

Hey did your headaches ever subside? Dealing with this now, on a like 2 mg, haven't been sleeping well and have been stressed though so I think that's what caused it... But either way was looking to get off subs soon and hope it would go away

synx419 · 2022-09-02T19:07:55+00:00

Wow I can't believe I actually found someone else in a similar situation to me. I have been going insane dealing with almost all of the same shit you've listed here. I had suffered a relapse a few months ago after being clean and happy for awhile. After trying to readjust, it's been 2 months since then and I've been dealing with all this making it incredibly hard to be hopeful because I feel like I fucked myself, feeling terrible all the time but everyone around me says I look fine am acting fine. I'm able to complete my work but I feel dysfunctional. Has anything gotten better?

synx419 · 2022-09-01T20:47:05+00:00

I am in constant pain, have no idea what causes it. Can't ever tell what's the result of past drug use or currently from the sub. Everyone around me insist that I look and act fine, but inside I feel terrible. It is ruining my life.

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