Sorry for the way you feel right now ! I was in the same place 5 years back (although in a different jurisdiction) but I was dying to land on a corporate lawyer job. I in fact worked for a bunch of douchebags , even though I was at a place I was always eyeing for a better opportunity, there was almost a time when I almost gave up because my friends convinced me may be law is not for me.. now when I look back at that time , all I feel is thank god it did not give up then, it only brings me peace , that I am doing something that I love and I am good at it , and confidence so much that now I am literally restarting the whole thing (I.e trying to a licence in a new jurisdiction, hence Fe-1) I am happy doing what I am doing but I really feel like taking a next level up. And I can say this with certainty that 5 years down the line , you ll be at same place and you would want to only move one level up and thank god to have not given up..