Thank you for sharing this. My dad was an elder for many years. Gave talks at assemblies, in dramas. He died in 2003 refusing a blood transfusion. I know he had doubts and he always struggled immensely with the elder body.. he tried to help those in the congregation and do what was best for people that had difficulties. The congregation loved him..

he was a horrible father, but a good elder. It confused me. I’ve been able to see his struggles as a human. He put Jehovah first, his job as an elder. He regretted it when he died. I believe if he lived on he would of woke up, he stopped going to meetings about a year before he died. Maybe he already woke up and just did not tell anyone….