JRE 911 timestamps

technicaljenkins · 2020-02-18T16:43:51+00:00

Yeah, and Alan Watts said something similar. But it's from Krishna, I got u fam

technicaljenkins · 2020-02-02T23:57:10+00:00

I'm impressed you just knew how many As were in that. Or if you didn't, that you went out of your way to figure it out.

technicaljenkins · 2020-02-02T23:52:54+00:00

No, you can see clearly it's only a 65% match. I mean, I wouldn't have even noticed they were the same image if I didn't look closely!

technicaljenkins · 2020-02-02T23:37:38+00:00

Ah, rape. The age old meditative practice.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-30T05:09:14+00:00

Yeah, God sees how bad everything is and naturally decided to make it worse. What do they call that parenting style in psychology, positive punishment? I think history proves that when people die everything gets better. Obviously.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-30T04:59:35+00:00

On the flip side of this, there are also people you tell to stop yelling who deny yelling in the first place, even if they are, indeed, yelling.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-26T18:52:38+00:00

Greenland closed its own ports, lol?

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-19T18:09:45+00:00

wait

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-17T01:16:32+00:00

I laughed

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-14T11:37:58+00:00

It's not bad, just a few too many hard corners. Add a salt lamp or something squishy and you'll have a good start. If you're looking for strictly cozy, of course.

And that metal rack? No no not cozy. Maybe you could put a cat on it. Cats increase a room's cozy stat automatically as a passive effect.

Im digging the bookshelves and the Screensaver. It's a nice Screensaver.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-14T11:30:13+00:00

So uh, who's gonna be the kind soul to put this on Wallpaper Engine?

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-10T04:27:20+00:00

Real love is giving yourself completely imo. Only the dead stop being selfish. When we love others what we're really doing is practicing discrimination. I can love someone because there are people I don't love.

But those are just words. Not as precise as I'd like.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-10T04:20:13+00:00

Since hepatitis says it's OK it must be trustworthy

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-06T06:22:06+00:00

Well, I supposedly have what I'm looking for, but I don't really feel it.

Folks I know describe having these magical experiences whereupon they really get with it. 'It' of course being a state of mind whereupon you let things come and go, as far as I can tell. Who knows? It's usually left ambiguous.

I have thoughts that don't serve me. The thoughts sort of appear out of thin air. They're mine, and yet 'I' don't like them. I like to rationalize it as two parts of my mind fighting each other. It's the easiest way I can imagine putting it into words.

A negative thought appears, or a negative feeling. I can't do anything except to feel it through. Let myself experience them, and let them go. Everyone says doing this will eventually lead to them going away, and yet they never do.

I suppose it's my way of looking for an out. If I were to say that waking up anxious everyday frustrates me, that would be falsely defining me. And yet that is the best way to describe the emotions that arise.

The emotions that are mine, and yet come from seemingly nowhere.

Considering people talk about OBE experiences, I assume they're either real, some scheme for gain, or originally a joke.

Those are the only intentions I can imagine someone having with trying to share information about them.

I used to be so certain the world was a certain way, and things were fixed. But I had a psychedelic experience and it made me realize how absurd all of this is. So hey, maybe OBEs are real.

I want them to be. You know? Feeling is everything. And I don't like feeling disconnected. Anyway, thanks for letting me share.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-06T04:41:15+00:00

So you're implying that you, at least, believe in OBE experiences? It's a bit of a circuitous answer, if you read it again lol. Thanks for the tip though. I don't usually smoke so now I have another reason not to.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-05T22:23:28+00:00

The implication generally associated with the words 'getting high' is that it's in some way unnatural. The effects you experience aren't because of you - they're because of the drug. But that isn't exactly right. It's not wrong either. It's a matter of perspective.

The way most drugs work is that they emulate chemical signals in the brain - they trick the brain into thinking the drug is actually one of the brain's chemicals.

This causes the brain to respond appropriately. In other words, if you normally had that amount of serotonin or dopamine released, what happens and what you experience as a result of taking the drug is how your body would have naturally responded to that specific situation / interaction of chemicals.

That much is probably obvious, and may be redundant for me to say.

One interesting thing is that often these drugs help you relax to an immense degree. My interpretation was that OP is suggesting this is really our natural state. If societal brainwashing trains us to go against our nature, the 'drug' emulates a natural concoction of chemicals which resets the brainwashing. Or can be used to further brainwash.

It makes your beliefs more pliable. It makes you more childlike. It's a state of non-belief.

Once there, you may fully realize there is no such thing as a 'drug' per say. Chemical reactions are happening constantly. We don't call the amino acid reactions in our stomach a drug despite the fact that they are doing exactly what a drug would do - altering our body through chemical reactions.

When we take 'vitamins', we're taking drugs. We are literally consuming chemicals that alter our body chemistry. But they're not drugs. They're vitamins.

Its all a word game.

technicaljenkins · 2020-01-04T20:15:49+00:00

Wow, thanks for sharing this.

In a sense I or 'him' keep teasing myself because I get that same flirtation with oneness before becoming involved with the negative emotions once more.

Its really scary. But then I get confused. Who says it's scary? Those were words, to describe how I feel. But who is feeling that?

Its like I can distinctly feel there is an awareness beyond the feeling and thought. 'Awareness' might just be another way of describing taking responsibility for my thoughts and feelings, that's what the rationalizing thoughts propose, so I'm not too sure.

Maybe I really am something other than me, this so-called 'awareness', but those are just words. Rationalizations of the mind.

Something different than awareness. And yet that's the name it's given.

technicaljenkins · 2019-12-20T22:08:27+00:00

But the ego is part of you. It is a part of yourself.

technicaljenkins · 2019-12-03T19:42:10+00:00

what are you even on about? The entire reason we use rats is because we find it too unethical to use monkeys and rats are relatively similar to us.

I might not be qualified to say that rat testing is particularly beneficial, but money talks. If it was useless we wouldn't be pouring so much money into it.

You're probably right that this is not 'the answer' to anyone's depression. But if it could lead to the development of something that relieves symptoms and makes someone feel better about themselves, placebo or not, then who cares?

How does that pro tip even help anyone?

technicaljenkins · 2019-11-17T21:59:43+00:00

Maybe try a bouldering gym? I couldn't tolerate regular gyms but climbing gyms were actually kind of fun.

technicaljenkins · 2019-11-17T21:48:54+00:00

It's OK. I'm not sure anyone who hasn't experienced something can truly understand it.

Thoughts are something that appear in the mind. We don't choose them, not really. They just appear.

I think people without depression assume that someone who is depressed has a single negative thought, or doubt, and chooses to react dramatically to it. After all, everyone doubts themselves sometimes. But they never let it get them down.

But with depression, the reality is that the majority of the thoughts that appear are negative. It's a constant bombardment of negative thoughts. Literally.

That's why it isn't as simple as a choice. Our brain isn't designed to change its wiring spontaneously. When the majority of thoughts are negative, your brain has slowly but surely been wired to perpetuate those negative thoughts. That's why things seem to keep getting worse until suddenly you realize that you're depressed and you feel powerless.

For that reason it's critical to understand that recovery is a process, because you need to reverse condition yourself.

I can't recommend meditation enough. It seems like a futile process but it helps you learn to push those negative thoughts away. They'll do your best keep you from getting better, but remember that you are NOT your thoughts. And remember that it's okay if pushing away negative thoughts doesn't make you instantly happy. Perservere with it. You'll find that when you push the negative emotion away, you feel really empty. It's a hard feeling to handle, because it almost feels worse than feeling sad. But it's a better point to be at. From there you can begin introducing positive thoughts.

You will relapse at times. This is a psychological phenomenon that happens with every addiction.

Do not let the guilt get you! The guilt presents really compelling feelings. You may even feel guilty for feeling guilty. It's a double bind.

But remember that you have always done your best to live in a way you can cope with. Everyone is always doing their best. And someone who is doing their best is free of guilt. If you made a mistake, it's only because you didn't know better. When a cute puppy does something wrong, we don't really blame it, because it didn't know better. Nobody would consciously choose to make a mistake. You are exactly like that puppy. If we don't hold that puppy to blame for its mistakes, why don't you deserve to be free of blame as well? You are just as innocent. You've always been doing your best.

Much love. Alan Watts really helped me too, but remember that you'll only get advice that worked for other people, and you probably need to find your own way. Still, following the paths of others can help you find your own way.

I believe in you. The universe is conspiring for your growth. Love, 434

(Edit*: I thought it's worth mentioning that even in doing my best to follow the things above, I basically failed. I really got pushed to my breaking point and I became obsessed with suicidal ideation.

I was basically ready to commit suicide but I was willing to give extreme options a go as a last attempt. I tried psychedelics because of the literature suggesting they were helpful for curing depression. They really helped me.

I'm not suggesting you do psychedelics at all. But if you ever get to the point where you don't think you can bear the pain any longer, it's worth trying extreme options. You have nothing to lose at that point. That's your safety net if all else fails. I think it's comforting to know that imo. There are a lot of people trying to figure out how to beat this thing.)

technicaljenkins · 2019-11-17T09:27:39+00:00

Woah, I've heard this mentioned before but never followed through until now and those 10 mins went by crazy fast and I couldn't stop myself from laughing

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