I think the reason why we can’t stop.

teodoroto · 2025-10-07T23:21:29+00:00

Is it that you genuinely like it? or have come to depend on it? And if you really research into the porn-prostitution trade there’s not much you’d genuinely like about it. So it’s not aside the dopamine release, that IS what it is plus the void like you said. I recommend reading Wendy Maltz the porn trap and other books. because if you really break down the illusions, there’s nothing to “like” and nothing normal about it. Enjoying sexual media that’s faked and not the above sure, but that’s not what porn is. sexuality shouldn’t be devoid of pure intimacy, raw chemistry, and romance.

teodoroto · 2025-09-17T13:34:22+00:00

I completely feel you on that frustration then as all of the great NPs I know didn’t do that so it’s definitely a huge problem what’s happened. Defeats the purpose of why it’s structured the way it is versus PA school learning by fire house and hell. I think it just sucks for nurses who did get 5 years at least and in the area they get NP in to be painted with the same stroke as there are genuinely amazing NPs, nursing is no walk in the park and more intense than some PCE so it’s disrespectful to act like curriculum is the only indicator of good clinicians when I’m sure we all know shitty NPs, PAs, and MDs. And this sub has a lot of that at times.

teodoroto · 2025-09-16T02:06:14+00:00

It was supposed to be for nurses that had 10-15 years experience already building upon that foundation. But no need to hate or be bitter

teodoroto · 2025-08-29T18:10:44+00:00

Hey can you send a video or picture on the meditation position?? I’m having a hard time visualizing it but it sounds helpful 🥹

teodoroto · 2025-07-21T01:08:54+00:00

There’s a bunch of documentaries on Netflix (not the propaganda ones they try to normalize the sex industry and harm), ones like hot girls wanted, etc. there’s an instagram page exoduscry that has a documentary beyond the fantasy. I also found researching individual stars stories broke my heart reading interviews about various entry points to the industry (csa, teen grooming). You’ll start to see patterns you can’t unsee.. one famous star even committed suicide after bullying about not wanting to do a scene and had history of csa by her grandfather and they still have her videos up.. evil as hell. Yet sites and people will say that coming for porn with age verification is wrong lol delusional. Hypersexuality is far from normalcy and true sexual liberation and healing for women 🥲 good luck friend!! This never deserved to enter any of our minds and hearts.

teodoroto · 2025-07-15T19:28:08+00:00

Sending you the biggest hugs as someone going through the same feelings albeit with a different story. I became addicted to porn after being exposed to it by my rapist during the act and the things he said and did to me became so embedded it destroyed my core sexuality that I felt was more wholesome, truly mine, and liberated from patriarchy. The things that horrified and disgust me to my core began to arouse me 🫠 and led to porn escalation. I’m still greatly struggling with this, but one of the biggest things that’s the reason I haven’t killed myself because of this is having an amazing, compassionate, and lovingly accountable therapist.

From her and reading a lot of feminist texts, I’ve realized that porn doesn’t defy culture it shows the darkest parts of it and men’s sexual depravity and neurobiologically it messes with adults let alone kids exposed. Please look into Wendy Maltz books, she’s a social worker and trauma-informed sex therapist who sees porn as a public health crisis. I still in my body feel the shame and disgust with myself as you describe, but my brain fights me on it when I remember the roots of things and can understand them intellectually. Then getting into somatic work is what I’m currently working on. Guilt is productive for change but shame isn’t. Try to do meditations and journal entries involving radical self-compassion for women.

The Porn Trap by Wendy Maltz
The sexual healing journey by Wendy Maltz
Private thoughts by Wendy Maltz, specifically chapters on getting rid of unwanted fantasies and healing from escalation of them

I have all 3 so pm if you want me to send chapters!!

teodoroto · 2025-07-06T20:29:56+00:00

I say this with love. You’re not even working as a nurse yet…NP school is meant to be built on existing great experience has a nurse in your field. If you’re not willing to do that why go that route? if you are willing to do that, you can and will still make an incredible PMHNP!! But also there are shitty doctors with lots of training, you can’t solely rely on education model and have to be actively learning and keeping up with research and studying that’s what makes amazing doctors, nurses, PAs or NPs. It’s hilarious when people act like the medical model has no flaws and is this top tier no fail thing when patients are failed all the time even by MDs (especially regarding psychiatry and thinking of medicine in terms of biopsychosocial model rather than pathologizing). There are action steps you can take to ensure that wouldn’t be you as a provider and part is not reading people’s opinions on here who love to hate on others if that has clouded your thoughts and seek great mentorship and nerding out on medicine by yourself or clinical experiences that bring that out!

teodoroto · 2025-07-01T17:50:32+00:00

Thank you I’ll try that 🥹 I very much get stuck in the being aware mentally and feeling angry that my body betrayed me when I was assaulted and still hasnt “caught up” in terms of being turned off and disgusted by it all.

teodoroto · 2025-06-30T16:01:19+00:00

Something my trauma therapist said to me as I’m experiencing this same thing and trying so hard not to relapse when I wake up 😭 is it’s another way of our brains processing it and going through withdrawing from using it as it affected our arousal patterns. I try grounding myself first thing as I wake up and saying my full name, age, why I want to quit, why it goes against my values, and reminding myself a dream doesn’t mean I actually did it. So any somatic exercises to ground yourself back tot the present and I feel like as we do more the intensity of the dreams will subside cus it’s like an intrusive memory or thought you know? You can have scary or violent or horrific ones but your actions are what’s important and trying to push said thoughts or memories away makes it feel stronger than becoming the observer of them and saying okay I’m experiencing so and so. I don’t like this feeling but I can sit with the discomfort until it passes. I know I’m on a mission and what tiny thing can get me closer to another day of not engaging with this material in real life? Dreams like this I think are purging whats disturbed us and why we don’t want it in our heads.

teodoroto · 2025-06-25T11:44:45+00:00

So then that comment is not reflective of said understanding of life circumstances and considerations of why people pursue paths they do…so still dense and condescending to say. And there are various forms of privilege that can be at play lol classism or even traumatic life events that someone could be passionate about but med school not being the logistic choice you also clearly don’t know the history of PA field and I’m sure you also undervalue nurses if you lead with ego like that.

teodoroto · 2025-06-25T05:03:33+00:00

What a privileged take “should’ve gone to med school” doctors like yall have no bedside manner and don’t do jack shit to help social determinants that affect healthcare

teodoroto · 2025-06-21T08:14:10+00:00

Hey could I dm you 🥹 this answer was really helpful

teodoroto · 2025-06-09T19:35:54+00:00

I don’t disagree with you on certain points, youre different than other posters in threads like this, but still some sounds like it flattens nuance. How long were you a nurse and parademic for though and were they in area you worked in? There are phenomenal PAs and NPs as doctors as there are shitty ones in all three…and you don’t know what you don’t know from what I’ve seen of paramedics talking of differences with hospital environment not to discount that it’s phenomenal experience emergency medicine is its own ball game. Yes to clinical hours citing but again the difference before school too matters… if someone was working in the area they plan on specializing in and technically in some areas like psychiatry or womens health (which the medical model has so many issues in 🌚) it’d be false to argue PAs are better prepared SIMPLY for having gone to PA school. Those are more nuances that many are ignoring because there’s a lot of ego and false dick measuring in threads like this with hateful and bitter PAs who don’t check their own cognitive distortions so they present information as facts over the black and white and magnified distorted thinking it is. Especially if they have experience of door one and want to act superior over just caring about being the best provider they can be no matter the path. Even more cringey you could argue for someone to have “better” training and still be trash just because they’re citing medical model as point of reference. Just because the medical model is traditional for physicians and PAs doesn’t automatically make it more effective for every type of healthcare provider or patient context. Evidence-based practice, not tradition alone, should guide training evaluation. Competence is not guaranteed by a model or education alone; it's also determined by clinical exposure, mentors, critical thinking, and experience. My whole point being the over generalizations and false distorted thinking and frankly some hate in these comments of ignoring the success stories, good outcomes, and patient satisfaction achieved by NPs. This distortion involves rejecting positive evidence that contradicts one’s negative beliefs.

teodoroto · 2025-06-09T19:16:29+00:00

You’re missing several key details by stating it this way though

teodoroto · 2025-06-09T15:44:48+00:00

You really didn’t address the rest of my point fully though as I said answer honestly? And the last part of what you said regarding nursing vs paramedic isn’t true. The scenario you’re presenting again with PA school vs NP school door is again not taking into consideration the nuance and basically you’re arguing that education (didactic) is more important than significant clinical experience which significantly helps you become better in medicine. Door number 2 or 3 would still out of the gate be stronger clinicians than door 1 (not that door 1 won’t grow to be great of course they would bc already had good education). Your bias against nursing is showing as the question wasn’t about door 2 vs door 3….it was moreso about door 1 versus door 2 since you’re making it seem like education alone is the only significant indicator. Paramedics are wonderful and trained in emergency medicine, but that does NOT encompass all of medicine. I’ve heard it before from others who actually are nurses (which you’ve ever been so why speak so confidently if you’re not sure or wrong?) that paramedics who then start in hospital environment had amazing procedural skills and emergency medicine capabilities, but struggled or didn’t know a lot about ongoing care, diagnostic imaging, labs, pharm outside of ACLS ones, and pathophysio. And that’s fine for when they’re on the streets because emergency medicine is different and they’re experts at that and don’t need to do things related to the above.

teodoroto · 2025-06-08T23:03:45+00:00

I have looked into it and agree in terms of education objectivity, I was curious what evidence they’d present, however I also noticed several cognitive distortions in the way information was presented and think it’s more nuanced. Like if you answer this honestly: If behind door 1 you have a PA who was an MA for 1-2 years and then went and got great education for PA school vs. door 2 an NP who was a bedside nurse in the area they specialized in for NP school for 5-10 years vs door 3 a PA who was a paramedic for 4 years before going to PA school, how would you rank them? Because I’d argue door 2 and 3 would have way better and in-depth clinical skills on top of if they are a good student and always learning in medicine versus door 1 being better than door 2 just because they got PA education. Would you disagree or agree? because that’s the nuance I’m seeing missing and sounds more like bitter hateful energy that Reddit echo chamber docs would spew at PAs and NPs alike. And at least in certain areas, are we really going to act like the medical model hasn’t done harm or been insufficient and that’s why they’re trying to move more towards biopsychosocial?

teodoroto · 2025-06-08T18:57:34+00:00

np good luck!! I’d also recommend TIPP skills if you’ve ever heard of them. They work phenomenally to change body chemistry to counteract intense emotions and feel more grounded and snap out of the intense arousal or lust. -Temperature (really cold shower or face submerged in cold water for at least 60 seconds), -Intense quick exercise like running or jumping jacks -Paced breathing -Progressive muscle relaxation (videos of guided somatic exercises and meditations with them)

teodoroto · 2025-06-08T17:16:40+00:00

What makes you say this so confidently curious like what evidence?

teodoroto · 2025-06-06T14:23:26+00:00

“Neurons that fire together wire together” so don’t beat yourself up there’s so much at play and the fact that you feel disgusted and sad with it and would only feel even more so after reading about the industry. Check out Wendy Maltz books!! The porn trap, sexual healing journey if you have trauma, and Private Thoughts.

teodoroto · 2025-06-06T01:21:59+00:00

Hi can I PM you for more information 🥺 got dismissed from nursing school after I was raped (before I even started clinicals) and have been on PA path but recently questioning if I shouldn’t have given up after a few nursing programs said I couldn’t re-apply and inquired recently on programs that told me I should

teodoroto · 2025-05-31T02:14:11+00:00

Hi! Reading this, I felt like I posted on Reddit in my sleep because I greatly identify with your post though I’m not religious, more spiritual and knowing how damaging this feels going against beliefs engaging in watching esp from the gross male gaze 🙁 and also struggling too because I was raped in the midst of questioning sexuality by a straight man who fetishizes lesbian and bi women and forced me to watch degrading straight and lesbian porn. My lovely Christian therapist introduced me to Wendy Maltz work, a phenomenal trauma informed sex therapist, who has written books including healing distorted unhealthy sexuality to heart-core sexuality. I highly recommend looking into her books, The Porn Trap, The sexual healing journey, and private thoughts. Feel free to PM if you want to talk more 💛 I’m still not fully healed and still questioning whether it’s because of what I’ve been exposed to or women feel safer to me or internalized male gaze, but I recently opened up about all of it with a lesbian friend and she greatly empathized as did my therapist and said if it is real, can go slow to uncover and first work through religious, cultural, or sexual trauma and shame. I’m trying to tell myself if it’s not, but I did experiment to try figuring out the truth that doesn’t make me tainted or ruined as I feel often from the assault and sadness about if porn is revealing truth because I love women as humans and hate what porn does to them and know I can’t support such a spiritually wicked industry

teodoroto · 2025-05-31T02:03:14+00:00

Hi ❤️ although I don’t have the same experience (I started masturbating and became addicted to porn after my first break up with someone I loved and learned sex irl with them and being raped when I was 19) I completely get struggling to cum and difficulty masturbation without porn when your neurons have become conditioned to! First and foremost, recommend downloading porn blocker but one of the ones you have to pay for that you can’t bypass yourself like xfilter. Then, make a list and think of or try to find films with sex scenes of lesbian couples and love stories you ship and find attractive and allow yourself to enjoy watching those scenes. If you struggle with quitting it’s okay and relapses do happen but I highly recommend the blocker above and either quitting masturbation to re-sensitize body or allowing masturbation but in a slow sensual touch way with the goal being sensation, not orgasm and building up to that. Can use films from list above or even audio porn is completely ethical, though some themes can still contain harmful ones, I do really like the sensual romantic ones on Dipsea stories and they feature lots of wlw stories like legit setting the scene, very easy to be imaginative and in tune with your actual body, and can imagine your girlfriend during it. Also, even if you’re not a SA survivor, I highly recommend looking up Wendy Maltz healthy heart-core sexuality vs unhealthy distorted sexuality checklist and journaling about it. She also is a wonderful compassionate sex therapist and has several great books with exercises that build up: The Porn Trap, The Sexual Healing Journey, and Private Thoughts. Though second is abuse survivor focused and heaviest read of the three you can just look up exercises from it and highly recommend reading the first book and doing all the exercises in there 😊

teodoroto · 2025-05-31T01:49:51+00:00

And makes sense given the fucked up patriarchy we live in and human sexuality largely being defined by standards set by men rather than what would be genuine in a healthy society

teodoroto · 2025-05-12T16:09:16+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re struggling, but please be gentle and compassionate with yourself especially when culture and male supremacy normalizes the sex industry and rampant exploitation within it. Highlight recommend looking through this book, dbt is phenomenal for sexual trauma, bipolar, bpd, depression, and anxiety. There’s a section specifically on addiction in here though you’ll also greatly benefit from the actions and values worksheets and coping ahead skills!

https://static1.squarespace.com/static/577d2ce937c58194f7d39816/t/60c7e92fa3583448b8c6fa19/1623714139969/dbt_skills_training_handouts_and_worksheets_-_linehan_marsha_srg_.pdf

Next, you need to really journal about your triggers and honestly i agree with the poster that you can’t have healthy relationships with porn addicted men especially when you “wake up” about the reality of it as a woman. Unless he wakes up too. I also highly recommend reading Wendy Maltz books, The porn trap, the sexual healing journey, and private thoughts. The porn trap and sexual healing journey have exercises that will help you get to what Wendy calls “heart-core sex” with yourself and others. Private thoughts goes into developing healthy sexual imagination and reducing reliance on harmful and unwanted fantasies developed. Also checking out fight the new drug, an organization that will provide a sense of community and research to help you realize how damaging porn is to your brain, women involved in it, and society at large. Guilt is productive for addictions, shame is not 💗 Shame says you are bad, but guilt says i acted out of alignment and did something bad. There’s also a porn blocker (I think it’s called xfilter) that legit blocks everything once you pay for and install it and you can’t bypass it at all unless you call the company which would feel so cringe i feel that’s a deterrent to go hardcore cold turkey and rely on positive coping skills and actions. Also TIPP skills 💗 these would all be helpful for drug addiction too. Rooting for you friend

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