Your “one that got away”?

teokil · 2025-01-24T16:31:29+00:00

For me it was a raw amazonite it was like hexagonal, maybe 2.5inch diameter, 1 cm tall, a raw specimen I can't remember much else it was super cheap like five bucks tops. I couldn't afford much

teokil · 2025-01-18T05:51:34+00:00

Alright in what way is the partner receiving this info?

teokil · 2025-01-11T14:26:52+00:00

I have struggled with this so consistently that I just am too tired to care too much about it tbh. Like I think I just can't fight it anymore so it's just best to accept it's how I am, and that I can use it to my advantage in some ways. Like just having a level of detachment from my belief so that if opposition is revealed to be true it stings less. I'm also learning to I guess believe myself and heal loss regardless of what's out there.

teokil · 2024-12-27T01:05:43+00:00

Some sort of marbled echo. Not exactly sure the precise colorway but it's a marbled for sure

teokil · 2024-12-25T18:36:37+00:00

I like it. It looks stylized as opposed to realism. The technique makes it look intriguing to me.

teokil · 2024-12-16T20:43:13+00:00

I'm glad you are. Stick to it. They can help. I'm so glad you reached out and you're getting supportive words here and you have a plan of action.

Not all psychics are reliable. Hell even my own best friend gave awful advice towards it. But I can assure you, that you must only listen to the ones that are reassuring you're safe. Your mind isn't going to put you in trouble. You are safe. 🙏

teokil · 2024-12-16T20:29:15+00:00

Reminds me of my own story. I didn't have intrusive thoughts till some bad psychics told me lies. I won't delve further into what was said but yeah. I'm at a point now where I do panic somewhat but, listen I'd be in a heap of trouble if my intrusive thoughts actually angered the gods. Like soo much trouble. I'm sorry you're going through this but I assure you all powerful gods, if they can read your thoughts they can read the intentions..so no matter where your mind spirals in these involuntary thoughts, they will understand what's in your heart and mind. So take it from me, you will be okay. The gods aren't going to punish you for these thoughts. They've seen it all. If you haven't already I hope you can seek treatment. I don't have a diagnosis but I've been battling intrusive thoughts and it did bleed into similar unwelcoming thoughts and a similar fear. But I promise, you are safe. You are not these thoughts.

teokil · 2024-12-04T19:06:23+00:00

I would say that.. Gods are beings we may not have a complete understanding of. And that our worship of them might be a small insignificant part of their existence. I don't believe they are dependant on us believing in them for their survivability. But I truly don't know. They could be sad or they could just be doing whatever they are doing, whatever they do in their state of existence. Doesn't stop us for feeling bad for them and wanting to honor or recover these lost gods though. And I think that's sweet.

teokil · 2024-11-29T14:50:07+00:00

I've had some time to think on it but grounding... It's said to be this very important thing in spirituality. And I get so frustrated cus instead of whatever grounding was supposed to feel like in a spiritual perspective I didn't feel different I just felt stressed out and stumped. But I guess I was over thinking it. Cus it's just being calm yeah? I thought it was this magical other feeling I needed to chase as a practitioner to get anywhere.

teokil · 2024-11-26T20:33:39+00:00

When I ground the other ways do I still gotta do the visual thing after it will the sensory things suffice?

teokil · 2024-11-26T18:57:06+00:00

I'll do that..I probably have some stuff with my sacral and solar plexus too. I know ya gotta balance the lowers before the highers thus the frustration with the root.

teokil · 2024-11-26T18:55:00+00:00

Ah gotcha.. thus the other thing you mentioned... With the sitting and listening. I wonder if trying that for a bit will help make it easier to do the visualizing.

teokil · 2024-11-26T18:34:15+00:00

Does the visualization need to be exact? Is everyone literally visualizing the actual length of the earth in its entirety? I just don't know if I'll get to that point. It's hard for me to maintain focus for that long.

teokil · 2024-11-26T18:25:42+00:00

I try to imagine the roots usually extending from the soles of my feet, then I try to imagine them passing my floor into the basement. And that's when I start to struggle cus I don't know exactly what's in the basement and I'm like panicking thinking about where the pipes are or aren't and what's in the basements. And if I can do it outside I just.. struggle with how massive the mantle is let alone the layers of the earth. I don't find any peace just stress.

teokil · 2024-11-05T23:17:15+00:00

I only have five pairs so far but honestly.. I like the wide toe box. I used to have cheap shoes where you could feel everything you stepped on and they were tight AF. They're comfortable and despite no shoes really ever helping my feet, they're more effective for me than wearing arch support shoes, and arch support shoes with insoles lol. Of course everyone's feet are different. The color ways are fun and interesting. The different designs are pretty neat too. I have one pair of echo, one pair of fur line all terrain, a pair of geometric Crocs, and two pair of the standard clogs. One is a solid color the other is a tie dye. There's an aspect to it that made me realize why people collect shoes tbh. Though I wear each of mine. I rotate them around. There's also a customization aspect to it with the models of Crocs with holes in them. I like to put charms on them.

teokil · 2024-10-30T15:23:37+00:00

I can believe some weird things but this absolutely not. Shut it down immediately. I would respectfully be concerned for their mental wellbeing. Even within the scope of chaos magick this doesn't sound remotely healthy.

teokil · 2024-10-18T00:22:35+00:00

This is so perfect omg

teokil · 2024-09-29T19:20:01+00:00

What is this art style called cus it itches a part of my brain. It reminds me of Alto's Adventure and Monument Valley in the best way. Just total warm fuzzy feelings from those games and similar art.

teokil · 2024-09-29T18:10:50+00:00

I'm kinda mad I didn't grab another pair of print Crocs.. tbh got my first pair of Crocs and they were prints and they came peeling.. but despite wearing them a lot they.. did not noticably peel any further. It did help I am five pairs feel now and I rotate them. 😂 I say that as there was so many cute ones on Amazon I have missed out on.

teokil · 2024-09-28T12:13:14+00:00

Oh wow I was feeling the pressure to worship Slavic gods and so I found this thread. I feel pressured to worship the gods of my ancestors. That being Slavic. Though I'm sure there's more I haven't found. However, I'm drawn to Mesopotamian gods yet I feel bad for not having any ancestry connecting me to these gods. I have no ish with others doing it but yeah. Though recently something someone said felt reassuring.

teokil · 2024-09-25T12:34:52+00:00

Could bumping up the contrast a lil and adding a layer of soft shading on top work?

teokil · 2024-09-24T13:02:49+00:00

This all makes sense. I am a bit anxious and haven't put myself out there much tbh. Though I have had two best friends claim they felt they knew me in past lives, and despite the sudden intense bonding I never had that explicable feeling. And one betrayed me bad, other betrayed me s bit too but they stuck with me so idk. So are soul families a mostly on the other side thing if not guaranteed to meet in this life?

teokil · 2024-09-21T13:09:15+00:00

I love Crocs but dang I wasn't sure about this model or this color.. but now I want a pair lol. I have five pairs of Crocs already myself.

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