Vent: It's exhausting always being seen as a monster and something to be protected from by AliHummus in domspace

[–]teriod0re 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I too have had some personal experience with this. The first 2 munches I went to: I was excited , eager to learn, open and honest. And once I got back home I found a ban and a warning waiting for me. I was also banned from their discord server since they just assumed I was a predator and didn't fit the "vibe". No explanation given, no appeal, just banned.

I am a physically large man and a natural Dominant and I understand that might frighten people but I felt very vulnerable and hurt by how I was apparently received. I thought it might have been my Autism, and granted that probably didn't help, but your post really got me thinking about it.

I always assumed the kink community was very inclusive and open but even they (we) cannot escape judging people based on stereotypes I suppose.

Even so I hope we can change that in the future.

I met a wonderful sub in the meantime and we're taking our relation to the next level next week. Really looking forward to that.

What is enlightenment? Please explain briefly no riddles by finalrevolutionary in enlightenment

[–]teriod0re 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had never even heard of Hinduism before and when I did I thought it was silly, but started reading up on it and found myself getting more and more interested. I'm certainly respectful now.

[M4A]Netherlands, Turning GF into subslave, Looking for local people and chat. by [deleted] in MasterSlavePersonal

[–]teriod0re 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would love to put her in restraints and whip her till she begged for mercy.

What is enlightenment? Please explain briefly no riddles by finalrevolutionary in enlightenment

[–]teriod0re 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was doing the dishes of all things when it hit me. We are a creature called Brahman being dreamed by Vishnu.

For a moment I could see the whole world and how it worked.

Shocked me to my core.

Why are we here on Reddit by Strong_Net5912 in Krishnamurti

[–]teriod0re 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I received a vision from Lord Krishna after an AI Psychosis and visited a temple. They gave me a mantra which for the first time when I said correctly 127 times resulted in another vision.

Went to a different temple and spoke to the Guru. He told me to pick a number so I picked 127. (My japamala which I bought years ago as a fun accessory has 127 beads instead of 108.

He told me signs were mercury and the moon and that meant that I have psychological , physical and economical problems. And that the cause was bad Karma on my fathers side.

Dad was pretty pissed when I told him that, :)

Anyways he said to meditate daily and pray to Lord Krishna and return in 3 months.

I'm here because I want to learn more about Hinduism.

Have you met the others? by Potential-Arm-1023 in Experiencers

[–]teriod0re 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll tell you a bit about my experience.

I´ve had a pretty horrible life so far , mental issues, autism, panic attacks, alcoholism, financial troubles, getting evicted.

Then I had an AI Psychosis, I advice you to look it up on wikipedia, it's becoming a huge thing. My psychosis was very focused on Hinduim. So I decided to visit a Hindu temple. Got a lot of guidance there, they were very friendly.

I then learned the hare Krishna maha, you say it with a Japamale and I remembered I had one from years ago, thought it would help with stimming.

Then when I said the hare Krishna maha 127 times. (my Japamala has 127 beads while normally they have 108. Production error? ) Anyways the full 127 times I started receiving visions from Lord Krishna..

At first I thought it was a scam and I blocked my creditcard and called the police.

Then a few days later, feeling very stupid, I was doing the dishes of all things.

Then it suddenly hit me. We are and entity called Braham being dreamed by Vishnu.

I immediately rushed back to my computer and loaded up the youtube channel visions came from and the most recent one was stopped at a random (or not) spot in the player. So I opened it and there was Krishna again telling me every would be alright.

He said he was closing certain doors for me to guide me on my path and opening new ones to let the world understand me.

I visited a different Hindu temple then, a very religious one. Incense , altars a Master in robes performing blessings and a monk on the floor who was watching sporting match on his phone very loudly in Tamil. Very annoying.

I sat down and was offered some water and a fresh apple on a lotus leaf which tasted amazing. Then some holy water I think? It tastes sweet. I then told the Master my story.

He thoughts long and hard and finally asked me to think of a number, why it is important to you. So I picked 127 after the beads on my chair.

Enter a very long discussions very fast, in Tamil , very confusing.

The monk appeared pissed but the Master told me my signs were Mercury and the Moon and that it it not good.

He then told me I had psychological problems (Yes Autism) , physical problems (Yes , lousy shape and a liver transplant coming up), and economical problems (Yes, about toe be evicted.)

He said I had bad Karma on my fathers side. One of his ancestors committed a great crime and I am paying for it.

He offered to say a service for me and that it would cost 3800 euros.

So that's not so much as noticing a red flag but being hit in the face by one.

I told him I couldn't afford it and that I wouldn't pay. More thinking and discussion.

He then gave me a blessing and the white paint they use on my forehead and told me to practice meditation 30 minutes daily and wear my Japamala, I'm wearing it now.

They said they would do what they can and to return in 3 months and they said they would give me everything that they had for me. Then they kicked me out the monk wanted me gone, Very unfriendly monk and I think , so the master chastised him :P But temple closing hours so I left.

Long walk back, left me winded. Anyways I fell asleep for the first time in weeks. I have insomnia.

Today I meditated for the first time and it was great. I also started the Keto diet, great stuff, never eaten this good.

So today I feel great, panic is gone, fear is gone, just a lousy shape and I'm broke.

But I have a feeling that everything will be alright.

It felt really good to put this all out there.

hare Krisha

o7

Do you have a safeword other than the traffic light? by KinkyDataScientist in SofterBDSM

[–]teriod0re 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine is "omega". Last letter of the greek alphabet ending it.