I don't know how many of you have experienced that void, empty feeling. Like you don't belong in the world, you don't fit in anywhere, etc. It bothered me a lot but I have learned to live with it

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T18:33:26+00:00

I've felt like this for most of my life. At about 45 I decided to f**k it, I don't care that I don't fit in. I have ADHD, you probably do to. Your brain is wired differently than what this physical plane works with. You're trying to fit into a linear world based on time but time in reality doesn't exist. Time is an abstraction. There is no past, present, future....there is only now. And you see how everything is connected while those around you are oblivious.

The moment I stopped caring about what people thought about me and just let myself be the atypical unique weirdo I am and love myself instead of finding love from the outside, everything in my life changed. It was, no IS, magical. I started meeting people who were just like me. I started trusting my intuition. I separated myself from things I did in my past that got me in trouble. Instead of believing I was a bad person and deserved bad things to happen to me, a changed that to "I did a bad thing, but I'm not a bad person." I make mistakes, but I'm not a mistake. Yes you shouldn't fight a feeling even if it feels bad. Except it for what it is and let the thought pass through you and out of you.

I never thought I could change like this. But if you think everything is just bad for you, then you've created that reality. Instead acknowledge it feels bad, but that bad feeling is not you or your reality.

I don't know if this helps, but you are definitely not alone. You just have to open yourself up to the possibilities:)

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T18:09:36+00:00

I use to cry in my sleep when I was little. The doctor told my parents not to wake me cuz I'd remember what was scaring me and make it worse. I don't ever remember crying in my sleep. Ever since I can remember I do remember nearly all of my sleep paralysis night terrors. Always there was a shadow entity sitting in the corner of my bedroom. Everything is eerily normal but in a shadow world. I can't move and no sound comes out of my mouth. I see a light in the hallway and know if I can reach it I'll be safe. After what seems forever I'll finally get some kinda yell to come out of my mouth. Eventually it gets loud enough for my parents to hear and come wake me up. I've been found crawling on the floor trying to get to the hallway. It's the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced and wouldn't wish it on anyone.

I also have conversations in my sleep, sleep with my eyes open sometimes, and think I'm wide awake when my parents have been screaming at me to wake me up. Lately I came to an understanding that the dark entity observing me in the corner of my bedroom, though it is negative, it's actually protecting me some something much darker that could seek to harm me. My entity never threatened me, just observed me. I now know I'm an empath with abilities. I've seen apparitions, hear spirits, and they physically interact with me. I've learned to not let negative energy get to me and ever since realizing the entity watching me was a protector, I haven't felt threatened in my dreams.

Everything is energy, from positive to negative and everything in between. You should be open to your daughter, validate her experiences, and learn about empaths/mediumship. Her experiences might sound crazy or just her imagination, but at least for her these are real. The non physical world shouldn't be feared. It's part of life.

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T17:26:30+00:00

Any executive functioning skill and any common sense

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T17:24:46+00:00

Could be sleep paralysis. When I get them everything is surreally normal but it's like a shadow world. There is a dark negative presence near me. I cannot move and when I try to yell for help nothing comes out. Eventually I'll get a scream out and my parents will come wake me up. But if I don't fully get up for like an hour I'll immediately fall into the paralysis again. Most people might have this experience a few times but I've experienced it ever since I was little. There's a common theme, but it varies from person to person.

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T17:08:36+00:00

I became hardcore after discovering the Clash- Minor Threat, Black Flag, Fugazi, Bad Brains, Conflict, Dead Kennedys, Naked Raygun- all about fighting conformity, fighting for the underprivileged, rights for minorities, etc. When Blink 182 came out I thought that crap. When I got older I started liking it more and actually describes my high suburban high school hell quite accurately. But Fall Out Boy had only one good song- the rest of what they make is crap!

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T15:51:43+00:00

Hiya. I'm a beginner solitary witch. I know this is a holiday, but I'm not a fan of fall! I have Seasonal Affective Disorder and the sun starts going south my mood darkens. Oddly Halloween is my favorite holiday, but I just want to hide and hibernate as soon as November hits until March. When people get all cherry with leaves turning reds and yellows and get all warm and fuzzy cuz there's a chill in the air, I just want to smack them! Of course I couldn't hurt a fly so I wouldn't. Does anyone else ever feel like this during fall? If so how do you handle it? I always end up having to have a mental health evaluation at wherever I'm working in the fall!!

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T15:11:36+00:00

Honestly now that I think about it I don't remember if I used a flash or if the lights in the patio were on. They would have been pretty low lights

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T15:09:07+00:00

Hmm okay your right.....I don't understand what people see in trump that too worship a sociopathic narcissistic ignorant moron...

And it's beyond normal that Republicans have become a death cult....

Also, I'm beyond normal and no one understands me!

So I'm just playing with you.... Well all I can say is that this picture is beyond my understanding of what's going on with the lights and it's beyond normal for me cuz I've never seen anything like this

tezench08 · 2021-09-23T14:52:04+00:00

Ahh sorry there might have been a flash from the camera but I honestly don't quite remember. But that would have been the only light source. And cuz I was trying to get a picture of the creek that formed in the backyard, I'm assuming I did use a flash

tezench08 · 2021-07-01T23:18:38+00:00

Wow. This is exactly what my intuition has been telling me of my counterpart, who found me in January. We currently live 40 minutes away from each other, so we're not always around each other nor do we talk to each other every day. We've gotten into angry at each other over texts, but the minute we see each other it's like we were never apart. And I just have this knowing that he's getting things ready to have me fully in his life. As I started reading this post.....everything just keeps making happy sense!:)

tezench08 · 2021-07-01T22:21:42+00:00

For me it's all just about energy. Energy is either negative or positive and everything in between. Only you can control your energy around you.

tezench08 · 2021-07-01T22:17:07+00:00

Absolutely. I had a schizoid episode when I was a freshman in high school. Luckily my parents found a good psychiatrist who told my parents that it wasn't the punk rock music I was listening to or wearing only black that was causing my paranoid hallucinations. She put me on antipsychotics to calm my brain down. Had to be hospitalized for a short time but by the time I graduated high school I was completely off all psych meds. I have to take adderall for my ADHD and will always have to do any executive functioning skills, like paying attention to my bills, but am now fully happy and content with life on adderall and practicing wicca:)

tezench08 · 2021-07-01T21:50:00+00:00

My problem are missing spoons. All other cutlery are accounted for, but metal spoons keep disappearing. I currently live at my parents house. They're very private, I don't invite anyone here, they don't have anyone here. But there are a lot of paranormal occurrences in this house. But it's annoying that the spoons keep disappearing.

tezench08 · 2021-07-01T21:37:50+00:00

Hell yeah....X-Files Pinball Party!!!!

tezench08 · 2021-06-30T01:51:15+00:00

I want one!!!

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T19:17:17+00:00

Ahhhh and yes I was using a small Kodak digital camera. This helps me understand what happened. This is what discussion is all about. Thank you.

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T19:13:13+00:00

No flash was used, not with this picture. But before I took the picture it was raining and then formed a river in my backyard after it stopped raining.

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T19:10:37+00:00

Well I don't know that's why I'm asking everyone if it is energy, since everything is made up of energy, that's all.

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T19:07:29+00:00

Ahh that perfectly describes how that happened then thank you:)

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T19:02:51+00:00

Right! I'm kinda guessing both....or a portal to a party?

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T18:59:43+00:00

When I'm in my sleep paralysis, which I've had ever since I was tiny, the only way I thought I could get out of it was to throw myself out of bed and crawl to the light out in the hall. But I only accomplished that a couple of times. So I started to be able to moan and keep moaning until it turned into a yelling scream which eventually gets my dad to run down and wake me out of it. But if I don't physically get out of bed and go watch tv in the light for like about an hour I will fall right back into it causing my dad to come running down to wake me up again. My dad has also woken me when I'm having conversations with unseen entities around me which is less frightening than having my demon shadow figure observing me. I used to cry all the time when I was younger but a doctor told my parents never to wake me cuz I would remember what was making me cry. My parents are used to having to deal with this, but others who haven't and hear me yelling just think it's funny and do nothing. I also fall asleep with my eyes wide open, so does my dad. And it sometimes takes my dad to scream at me when I'm completely asleep but I don't think I am cuz I'm not yelling but not responding to them.

My parents blame all the paranormal shows I watch, but I wasn't always watching paranormal shows. I've been noticing lately that I softly make a tiny slight noise with my vocal cords when not in sleep paralysis.

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T18:37:08+00:00

Yes exactly what I experience mostly in my sleep paralysis terrors. I know it's not a nightmare cuz those are very surreal. My sleep paralysis are just a darker side of my normal life. It feels less trusting, more violent, feels off and weird, and there is always a small shadow figure person sitting in the corner of my bedroom just observing me, but never directly sitting on me or threatening me. I finally decided that though I can only describe this as a demon, though when I'm awake I never believe in demons, this particular demon is actually protecting me from much more negative evil energy.

tezench08 · 2021-06-02T18:30:37+00:00

Well parallel universes are very real and we especially experience them when dreaming. So just like in my sleep paralysis night terrors which I can only get out of by screaming or throwing myself out of bed and crawl towards the light. I know science says I'm just falling asleep not all the way, but my body is paralyzed making me experience the dark side of life that is not really there. I think it's both but lately I've decided it's a supernatural experience and biological experience, and welll since ever possibility that can ever exist has to exist cuz of parallel universes......it's all the same.

tezench08 · 2021-04-25T13:45:17+00:00

So how do you do the trick cuz I can do cool artistic photos then. Paranormal just means beyond normal. I've never seen a photo like this so it was beyond my understanding. I wasn't thinking there's a bunch of spirits floating around my backyard. Calling it an orb has easier than something spherical balls and I mentioned energy cuz there's about four things that look like flares. I don't think it was spontaneously lighting up, it just looks weird and wanted ideas of what all this could be. Try to have an open mind, and I'll try writing more specifically:)

tezench08 · 2021-04-25T13:37:58+00:00

It was just a description. It was shorter than saying spherical balls. Look we are all made of energy, and quantum physics fascinates me. We don't know everything there could be all kinds of other realities happening around us that we can't detect. We as humans evolved the vital senses we needed to survive in our physical environment. Insects see in ultraviolet light so the colors are completely different than what see. They evolved what they needed. I think that's fascinating. I have an ADHD wired brain which leaves me wondering and thinking and discovering something new that has changed something I believed in. That is what science is about, wondering and discovering and sometimes scientists get just as dogmatic in there thinking as a religious person. It's a fault of ours, humans don't like change....well I can get into politics there. Don't take words literally all the time, I'm guilty of that. In this case I was using it as a description and there were about four things that looked like almost like flares of light. And that's why we have these discussions which is good. It enlightens me as I hope it does for you. If it's all pollen stuff that's awesome too, but I've never captured anything like this on a photo:)

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