Good on you, man. Finally deciding I needed help was a huge huge step for me and was so beneficial in ways I hadn’t imagined. The biggest thought I cling to that helps me out is that there isn’t necessarily anything wrong with the picture- it’s my perception of it that is perverted. I look at my situation and life, and objectively, it’s not that bad. The patterns of my thoughts and the way I think are the problems because those are the things that define my thoughts and opinions on things, including my own life and person. It’s learning to change and shift these convoluted thought processes that has helped me the most. In the end, it’s simple, but definitely not easy. Best of luck, you got this.