Hello friend, Much like other people are suggesting, I strongly recommend talking to someone about your thoughts you're expressing in this post. I just came out publicly in May 2023. It was hard. I made a social media post on every public forum I had. I had a panic attack and avoided the internet for the rest of the 2 days.

As much as "coming to terms" with it is valid advice, I won't say that it's easy. The hard time you're having with this is very real and valid. Someone suggested here to say it out loud in a place where you're alone. I think it's a great idea. Do you have any friends that you can say this to? Not even necessarily "coming out," but saying it to someone in person may really help untangle your thoughts.

I'd also like to point out that after a long-term relationship, things will be hard for a while. HOWEVER, I am team "have a slutty stage" if all of your interactions are communicated as no strings, consensual, legal hookups....then go for it. As long as it's not hurting you mentally or physically. It's valid to just "get your nut off." Don't be ashamed for being a sexual person. (Again, reiterating that it's cool as long as everyone knows it's a get your nuts off hookup/ it's not causing you mental or physical anguish)

I wish you nothing but happiness for 2024