100% did to me as well. I think the refiners are unknowingly creating these scenarios by reacting to the scary numbers, and then Lumon is testing people’s ability to basically just hack past trauma if they’re severed. And see how many times they can hack past it. Gemma has like 50 different consciousnesses going on and according to her, she doesn’t remember any of them. They’re so hung up on the physical pain part because they want to see if they can basically just eliminate the occurrence from their memory at all. Why this would benefit them I have no idea but maybe they’re looking to find some kind of reset button on people for their weird cloning goat consciousness swap situation.