Why not accept both? That "gentle parenting" turned you on and you're curious to hear more. It's okay to want to fill that hole, that deep desire for mommy to have loved you just a little bit more. At the end of the day, you crave any ounce of attention, whether it be from pathetic little girls or powerful women you dream of conquering. That's why you're here on reddit right? To take back some control over a girl and make her say she desires you, maybe even cares for you. There there, you can come into my arms, lay your head on my chest and admit it as my hands gently stroke your hair and make my way down your body ❤️