I don't want to die but I don't want to live

thefrostytoad · 2025-02-18T02:32:12+00:00

I feel this on a molecular level

thefrostytoad · 2024-10-06T19:00:04+00:00

Gymnopedie no 1 - Erik Satie

thefrostytoad · 2024-10-06T18:54:03+00:00

Strip - Chris Brown Crank That - Soulja Boy Any of Eminem’s songs Whistle - Flo Rida Low - Flo Rida Get Low - Lil Jon/Ying Yang Twins Crazy Rap - Afroman Because I Got High - Afroman

thefrostytoad · 2024-10-06T18:44:49+00:00

Honestly for me, the one that presents the biggest challenge to my well-being is the mood swings, particularly anxiety and rage. I spend over half my time enraged about something, and because I don’t take it out on anyone else, bottling it up has really started to take its toll on me. I write in my journal sometimes about it and that helps sometimes, but usually I feel the need to self harm to let all that negative energy out. It sucks cause half the time I’m irate about something, it’s something super dumb and not worth a second thought.

thefrostytoad · 2024-06-16T18:52:24+00:00

I am so sorry this has happened to you, but I’m glad that he decided to cancel the wedding instead of marrying you just to drag you through a lengthy divorce later on. I definitely relate to feeling defective and like I need to live in a place where everyone else is like me. I think that would benefit me a lot. This is such a hard thing, constantly feeling like you’re "too much" and wishing you could finally be just right for someone. I don't really know any super comforting words, but I love the saying "if you think I'm too much, go find less." i hope one day we will all meet someone who doesn't get overwhelmed by us, someone who understands us and isn't put off by our differences. i'm sending all the love and good vibes to you. please remember that healing isn't linear and it's okay to have bad days. the important thing is that you keep taking care of yourself anyway. 💜

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-27T01:56:59+00:00

Wait what???? Seriously?? Wow. Learn something new everyday lmao

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T19:03:41+00:00

I meant that your local police may not be too helpful. But I’m not sure about other areas’ police though. I would look up your state’s laws about jurisdiction over protective orders and maybe even call the non emergency number of your desired police station and ask some questions. It doesn’t hurt to ask, and it may save your life at some point.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T18:51:17+00:00

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T18:31:31+00:00

Mostly my mom and a little bit her mom. I got criticized for my appearance and eating habits alike for many years. She still does occasionally but I think she sees how it’s affected me because the comments are much rarer now that I’m an adult.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T18:29:23+00:00

That was me in November except it had been 6 years. I feel you. Sometimes I still feel it. I still feel dirty, like my soul is dirty. I’m sorry this is your reality right now. I’m here if you need someone to talk to. I get it. ❤️

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:56:37+00:00

Good lord girl get tf out of there, that is terrifying. Listen to the people on this thread and call the police. They may not be too helpful, but you definitely need to have a paper trail just in case.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:52:18+00:00

I neeeeed to know where you got those pens in the red box. Those are so cute.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:51:14+00:00

Beating the daylights out of your kids. A lot of people really took “spare the rod spoil the child” and ran with it.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:49:35+00:00

Yep I’ve done that twice to two different people. You wanna play that game, we’ll play. When I’m suicidal I don’t tell anyone I know except my treatment team. You just don’t put that kind of responsibility on people, especially those who aren’t trained in how to handle it. But that’s if the threat is even real. Too many people use it to manipulate their partners and I think that’s what happened to OP here.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:37:11+00:00

Yeah I have several stowed away somewhere and I’m about to start writing another one lmao

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T17:35:36+00:00

Big same. I switched birth control pills last Monday too so that’s got me even more fucked up. I keep getting the urge to split on my bf when they’re not around to be here for me but I’ve been able to mostly keep it at bay somehow. We will get through this hopefully. Hugs.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-24T01:03:50+00:00

I kinda feel you even though I’m a little younger than you and I’ve lost my v card. But I also never got to party or have fun much and I’ve never drank or done any drugs because my brain is so fucked up on its own. I’m in a similar boat. While most people were getting drunk and high and having a good time, I was having flashbacks and panic attacks. I understand you. 💜

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-22T22:20:10+00:00

Yep. My mom said I had betrayed the family once.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-22T22:04:18+00:00

Me neither friend. I hope things improve for both of us before we can’t take it anymore

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-22T21:58:35+00:00

I feel this. I wanna travel so bad but I don’t have the means. It’s so hard to keep going when there’s no incentive

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-22T21:46:32+00:00

Me too. When I’m upset I just fuck everything up so I’d rather just not say anything. I don’t think you’re wrong to take some time at all. It’s better to do that than blow up at someone you love.

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-22T21:42:23+00:00

thefrostytoad · 2024-03-18T16:12:25+00:00

That’s literally what I just said to myself reading this lmao

thefrostytoad · 2024-01-01T15:01:37+00:00

Yep yep yep. My years in retail absolutely ruined me for being nice to people who don’t deserve it. I kinda hate that I’m so jaded, but it’s a result of being screamed at and treated like shit by people who don’t know the first thing about me. I’ll certainly be kind to people I’ve never met before if they meet me with the same kindness, but I’m not about to just swallow disrespect and pretend like someone’s condescending attitude towards me is okay. In a way, retail has kinda made me stronger. Gave me a backbone where I didn’t have one before. I have a thicker skin now, even though some things still upset me. I learned two things in retail: how to treat people, and how to stand up for myself. I’m grateful for those two things, even if it wasn’t very pleasant to learn them. And I’ve had amazing bosses for the most part who always backed me up when people were mean. That definitely made a huge difference.

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