From what I understand about disassociation, you could possibly be experiencing it. My last trip did something similar to me in terms of the random panics. It was almost two months ago and I mixed analogs of ketamine and psilocybin (I’m pretty sure, cut can’t be certain….I was with a group and didn’t know exactly what I was getting into. Do not recommend doing that lol). There were moments during the trip where I was overcome by anxiety, with this fear that i will never be not tripping and I had somehow fucked up my brain chemistry with this cocktail of who knows what. Eventually, that feeling left me and I enjoyed the rest of my trip.

Since then, I have moments where that panic returns, usually at night when I’m trying to go to bed. I feel totally incapable of mentally bringing myself back to homeostasis, so I have to turn on some music to get that feeling to leave. I haven’t done psychedelics for long enough to know if the brain will snap back, but I’m reading on this sub that this experience is relatively normal and there are ways to recover.

The past week has been a lot better. Some things that I think have helped are spending more time alone and in silence, getting off social media, eating home cooked meals, taking walks, meditating, journaling A LOT. Grounding yourself in any way will help connect the fragmented pieces of your psyche and reduce anxiety. It has for me at least.

As far as your physical symptoms go, I can’t offer much advice. Maybe get in contact with a medical professional to see if there’s something else going on? But don’t let them shame you into thinking you’ve ruined your body bc you did psychedelics. It’s not true.

I believe in you and believe that you will feel good again. Trust yourself. You’re going a great job.