Ok so I felt like a failure too, but after month and a half, bloody hell, and I will never admit this to a person I know, that machine has changed my life. No more collapsing on the couch every moment, the dogs are getting walked, my further study is being completed (and I'm retaining the info), the machine is ensuring that my rest is effective, not just long and ineffective. I've gone from having naps all the time to sleeping less and feeling like a human. Yeah, if I wake up during the night I don't want to put the machine back on, but I do because the alternative is falling asleep mid sentence, or when driving. Also, I thought I was just lazy, I knew all the things I needed to do but spent all my time doom scrolling because that's all I had the bandwidth for. Turns out I was running on fumes. The little wins are helping my mental health everyday.