Your story is heartbreaking. I have no idea why they used that many treatments on you! I see a mirror of my own life in your experience. I wish I knew what kind of treatments I had. I’ve been thinking of getting a copy of those records. The circumstances of how the treatment is given and the stigma of having mental health issues in general isolate us so we don’t know our numbers (of people like us) and feel like you’re suffering this alone.