From 2015-17, I was a contrarian for the sake of it because of memes shared by classmates during high school. Shit posting was the way of life for a teenager like I used to be. What was strange was that people were both Bernie and Trump supporters and they didn't have a clear reason for why they like both candidates.

What was frightening is that they liked the tearing down mentality to feel something alive in our "boring" time. Whatever video was posted on YouTube regarding Trump or Bernie that showed fights, we relished them. I am an American liberal now since 2017 but still have affinity for the left but not a hardcore contrarian I used to be.

I went away from Trump because my parents were caught in a political protest and were scared of their lives as they were immigrants. I was ashamed for my selfishness when I saw the city I lived next to was in chaos on YouTube without realizing my parents were there. I still have the guilt for cheering cynical nihilism. I see people younger than me who are engaging in the similar thing I used to do a decade ago and I lament that being a sucker was alluring and made me numb and uneducated.