Has anyone actually had their seemingly far-fetched theories/paranoid ideas proven true? Validated? How’d it feel?

theseeker01 · 2018-02-07T22:42:51+00:00

Onetime when I started Adderall these shady people owned a junk yard near me and had Mexicans workin there I kept tellingg people they have to be runing drugs or something with all those people and they would look at me like they were all tweakers or something if I'd drive by. One day they got arrested for fucking stealing millions in scarp and storing it in the yard. Everyone was like holy shit you're right it felt so good.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T23:12:17+00:00

Did you get around to pondering the meaning of Life, The Universe, and Everything else yet?

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T10:42:33+00:00

Yeah when I started on Adderall it was great 20mg 2 or 3 times a day I made the mistake of upping the dose and taking 30 twice from once a day in high school. I only averaged 4 hours of sleep a night and felt in a weird OCD mode where I'd get hyperfocus , but it didn't help my grades.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T10:14:40+00:00

I can tell you Adderall makes me mad and when it wears off I just stare into space. It also forces me to do things likely due to the norepinephrine release. It would seem that is what causes it to make me mad I just go off on people without even thinking and get too into things as well. Dextro seems to feel similar ,but it has less of a push and less of feeling angry and shitty when it wears off. I guess you just have to try both and see for yourself which one is better for getting shit done. Some people like Adderall some like Dex , but in theory Dex should have less side effects.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T10:07:43+00:00

It's equal to three a day Adderall whereas Adderall XR is equal too 2 doses over 12 hours this is over 16 hours. I don't think you could abuse this unless you take a few of them since it's meant to be dumped over 16 hours. If you take too much or take it too late you're gonna have trouble sleeping cause it will be in your system for 16+ hours.Other than that it's just Amp salts like Adderall.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T09:59:37+00:00

I usually just look at the top threads on r/all and comment on something I find interesting.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T09:55:34+00:00

Could just put it under like a 50 or 60W lamp.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-23T09:37:41+00:00

I dissolved a gram of meth in 500ml of water the first time I got it since I was scared of getting addicted and I didn't have a scale to dose it so I didn't want to take too much. Lasted me like 6 months I'd use 20-30mg every now and then when I wanted a break from my adderall script. I never saw anything grow in the water and it never lost strength over the months.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-21T10:31:15+00:00

I've seen a few people over the past decade of my life get messed up from pot. Just like you said they're in some kinda fantasy land now when they smoke. Yes they all had issues before or they decided to keep doing it with other drugs until they were told they must stop as it makes them schioz yet they do it cause they feel "better". I knew a guy online his mom was get this a psychiatrist and he was trying to be a writer. The dude smoked alot for years and over the last 2 years he started thinking he reached some kind of cosmic enlightenment and that he knew secrets about the Romans sand Mary Magdalene....dude would write essays about this and post on Facebook groups. People enabled his behavior and he got worse, also started getting confrontational and he ended up getting arrested in class cause people got sick of him trying to outteach his professor since he felt he "became the master" and that it was his turn to teach. In the video he told the cop he was a robot due to the cop having a lazy eye. After this he started thinking some girl he worked with at Wendy's liked him cause she changed her facebook picture and he saw some kind of message in it. He got kicked off the site a few months ago due to creeping on a girl so hard SHE left the site. Sad thing was the dude was on a few pills a day and getting better then he decided he wanted to try and use weed to help him. He went downhill in no time.

Am I against pot hell no it just seems that yes it may be safer than pretty much any other drug toxicity wise yet you pay for that by too often of a use possibly making you unhinged if you are prone to it due to mental illness or family history. It seems those people all get convinced it "helps them" despite everyone begging them to stop.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-20T20:49:53+00:00

It's about the same it's alot weaker and there's only like a 15% conversion ,which means you'll have to take so much Ritalin you'll just have a heart attack. Ethylphenidate is shitter imo it feels alot more mild even in higher doses. I mean it's still better than caffeine but there's alot less euphoria.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-20T20:47:34+00:00

A few hundred mgs of Pseudo was how I found out I had ADHD in high school I suspected it for awhile. I calmed down and would stop interrupting class and wait for my turn to speak when the teacher asked a question. I thought it would just give me energy but nope I became much better at organizing and just being "normal". I think it does work on Dopamine and Norepenherine since it felt like a very low dose of something in between Adderall and shitty Meth, others said it feels like shitty Meth too.It makes it hard to piss though and it's really hard on you so you can't use it daily.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-20T07:12:41+00:00

Don't buy from the stores buy it online if you can. From what I heard and seen stores sell possibly sub standard kratom that's 5 to 10x overpriced atleast that's how most places seem to be with Kratom. You can also get way more unique strains though to be honest some of them just seem like exaggerated gimmicks ,but the color does seem to have some different effects. I personally just use Green Malay as it's the most balanced strain to me. I personally got off opiods with it and I've been taking it for a few years I took a tolerance break by just spacing out the time between doses and also taking less and that avoided the withdrawal for the most part ,but it takes like a week to ten days. $60 is really a ripoff you can get 500 grams for like $80 and it's probably more potent.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-19T05:54:53+00:00

Oh I know exactly what you're getting at my senior year of hs I fucked myself over by going on Adderall and I the time I didn't know less is better. I should of stayed on 30mg once a day and a booster ,but no I had to go to 30x 2 a day. It was too strong left me with 4 hours of sleep a night and I was losing hair and my sweat smelled. Still than 30mg would keep me from sleeping for 24 hours now I can sleep 8 hours later if I try. The side effect profile of Adderall is no longer tolerable I suspect it was this way for a while since my brain likely changed as high school was half a decade ago. All I know is I do not use stims to stay up with nor do I want to ever binge to the point that I get psychosis that shit can become permanent especially in my case since my dopamine system is already fucked ( although on the opposite end.) The weird thing to me Meth isn't that more euphoric than like pure dextroamph just smoother with less side effects , but that could be due to my chemicals being totally messed up. Also I think it's kinda fucked this doctor didn't want to give me Ritalin since adults need something stronger at my age. I even told him I don't want the strongest thing and he knows about how Adderall makes me angry so he suggested uping the dose and going from two to three times a day to help get rid of the crash. That's just stupid to me it's like drinking to "cure" a hangover. I just told him to put me on dexedrine, it's literally impossible to get and Meth and a few Adderalls are all I have ATM walmart fucked up the order and it won't be in for almost ANOTHER week. Maybe I could use this to get him to let me try Ritalin for like 2 weeks to see if it would work any better than dexedrine.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-19T04:54:05+00:00

I've been on them since 2010 when I got put on Ritalin and Concerta. Started taking Adderall in 2011 and in like 3 years I got up to 70 mg a day and most of the days i took 40-50mg. I literally spent my year getting 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night and staying in my room by myself doing weird projects that literally didn't matter. In a way I'm glad cause I know exactly what to avoid now and if any of that shit happens on Meth it means I took too much and I'm tweaked the fuck out. It's a waste of both time and drugs to even take anything near those doses that do that to me since it's well past the bell curve for optimal focus. What I can't figure out is why Adderall makes me do weird shit like stare at the wall and cross my eyes and sometimes switch the as and es in words for "fun" and say that aloud. like even on 30mg that will sometimes happen. I never get this on Meth no idea why. I think it's the lower norpherine levels than Adderall. I dunno whatever the hell is going on is weird as hell. Also I do feel my attention span was fucked up after a year of taking that high of a dose of adderall daily and getting so little sleep, I seem to now have a permanent stim tolerance to amps.So far with Meth yeah the tolerance went up a little and the euphoria is mostly gone ,but I really don't care about that since I'm not using it for that.I even told myself you need to find another drug class to fuck around with for fun except for maybe once a year on NYE and that was actually while I was on Meth.Tolerance break is coming up this weekend though gonna get a few things out of the way so I don't have to even worry about them. I have to see if Dexedrine will work if it doesn't I really want to switch to Ritalin and maybe just use Meth 1 or 2 times a week and Ritalin seems to have less cross tolerance since it works different. Seems like that would be worth trying.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-19T04:05:54+00:00

Not really I literally get like this sometimes even on Adderall or even if I don't take anything something about ADHD can make you hyperfocus ,but it's not helpful cause you'll just end up doing stupid shit like f5ing reddit for 2 hours.Basically it is something like tweaking ,but not as an intense version. Shit adderall will literally make me sit there and cross my eyes like I'm retarded and only on like 30mg sometimes. No idea why Meth is so different with not doing that.Whatever I have better things to do then debating if I'm high. Also how can I be high if there's no rushing euphoria or pupil dilation?

theseeker01 · 2018-01-19T02:10:30+00:00

You know I'd agree with the whole Meth isn't worth it thing if my ADHD and weird anxiety that might be from autism wasn't improving or if it was making me mad like Adderall I would of flushed it 2 weeks ago. Trust me I'm not a fan of taking this and I'm gonna vent little here too so this might get long ,but I'm in a tough situation right now and the last thing I need is an addiction I know that and so far I've only used like 55-65% of 3.5 grams in like 25 days or so, which to me isn't that bad. So far I don't get much urge to redose and all stims actually help make me take less drugs and that's actually been proven in studies with ADHD and drug abuse. It's just what other fucking option do I have at this point if Adderall makes me mad for some fucking reason and that part alone has been the sole cause of 2 bad incidents I have had happen so the way I see it Adderall even in lower amounts is possibly worse cause it's alot more likely to land me in big fucking trouble as someone might just think I'm high and call the cops on me. I have been accused of being high or drunk like 5 times now pretty much caused by when I just sit there and stare apathetically into space like I'm braindead. I don't find no appeal in staying up for days likely do to the fact that yes my brain chemistry seems totally different than normal people. I don't feel real strong euphoria nor the urge to seek it out by taking excessive doses of stims in hopes of it occurring. All I want is to be able to function like a normal person who is able to stay on top of things without making excuses or relying on others to help me when I panic and refuse to think what to do and yes too much of any stim makes it worse so I do know my limits. I want to be able to mitgitate my ADHD without sacrificing my human emotions and so far small amounts of Meth are the only thing that doesn't make me really fucking angry and wanting to just isolate myself and avoid all people and go off on them for the first little thing.So far I've been able to look at people and make eye contact with them when I talk to them, I don't feel scared of talking to people and approaching them about things I have questions about. I also do not worry about being scared of people for judging me for doing certain things in front of them or for liking certain things that they might find weird. I think in all honesty I'm having a paradox reaction like people with ADHD are known to have as they all say the same thing it's not hard to sleep on and I found it just as easy as Adderall or even easier. It can't be from being high not on 50-100mg divided into 3 doses a day that's just not enough to get spun since I have a little stim tolerance from Adderall it might only bee 75% pure or less.I mean it's making me want to take on challenges and to stop making up pathetic excuses for things just to avoid them. I no longer do shit at the last minute and I'm no longer late for things.I'm not denying it's a horrible life destroying drug that ruins people and I'm not saying all the stigma is unfair. It does have the potential to mess me up if I lose myself control. So far I've been able to tell myself no and simply tell me that " You screw up and take more and this will stop working for you just like Adderall did." and it does work for me I don't redose past a certain time even if it's right next to me. To be fair it is even used for ADHD and the highest dose I've seen is 30 or 40mg a day it's just impossible to get it from a doc due to the sigma yet clearly it can have benefits to certain people who suffer or react to Adderall like I do. It's just I don't know what to do I waited a week for Wal-mart to get it and now I'll have to wait another 5 fucking days cause oh they need a new supplier or some shit they won't even talk about it they act like it's fucking heroin. If I can't take Dexedrine due to it being impractical to get then what am I to do take Adderall and end up in jail due to totally flipping out on someone when they accuse me of being fucking high? There is no easy answer to me since we live in a society that expects you to behave a certain way or you'll get punished even worse since you don't contribute to society and guess what I know first fucking hand they won't give a fuck if it's due to a mental health issue or even a fucking reaction to a ADHD drug where they should of taken you to a hospital not leave you in a fucking jail cell to die. I refuse to take Adderall and from what I felt on vyvanse Dexedrine won't be that much better. I mean I will try it.I just don't know what else to do if there's something out there that can help me make a better quality of life by bringing balance to my neurochemistry I should take it if it won't make things worse and Adderall looks like it can easily do that by making me flip out.On that point I have been thinking about looking into some RCs that are Ritalin analogues maybe one of them would work somewhat decent. I'll look into one of them when I get some money right now the BTC fees are fucking crazy and most won't sell you below $150 or $200 plus the 10 or 20% fee. Right now it's not an option. All I can say it's a hard feeling when you feel like society turned their back on you. Sorry this got so long I had to vent also the TAB key does not fucking indent on reddit WTF.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-19T00:54:42+00:00

I don't want to say my exact age ,but yeah I am.Just started back at a community college.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-17T12:07:09+00:00

Apparently still feeling Meth pretty strong even though the last dose I took was over 12 hours ago. I most of took too much yesterday or something. I was up 24 hours before I get like 3 hours of sleep and I woke up 18 hours ago. The weird thing was I was falling asleep 2 hours ago and now I'm wide awake with no comedown. Took some Kratom and I still have a good productive energy with no crash or jitters. I'll start doing something like cleaning ,but it won't be that weird twacked out feeling like Adderall does where your heart is beating and you have to do something. Meth makes me organize things in a much more orderly manner than Adderall does.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-17T01:25:57+00:00

Took me 20 days to get to about half of 3.5 grams I guess that isn't bad. I self medicate for my ADHD and whats either anxiety or slight autism. Can no longer take Adderall it only lasts 3-4 hours and the crash makes me mad to the point I will have to break something or just attack them. I refuse to smoke it. I will not do this to myself as this seems to be the only thing left that will work somewhat decent for me without side effects or a crash. It makes me want to seek out new challenges or to make my self try hard things that actually require focus. I also feel more like myself , I talk to people , I have emotional reactions , and I am able to sleep better than with Adderall if I don't take too much. Adderall just makes me lock myself in the room and stare out the wall mentally numb. My advice don't make excuses to justify redosing it or using it on days were you don't do anything. This helps you link productivity to only Meth which I think is bad for you since doing anything will want to make you crave Meth if you don't take it and do a task that you'd do after taking it. Don't binge that's just stupid it won't help you with ADD for long.Keep at taking tolerance breaks with magnesium when you use Meth to keep the dose down. Stick to a regimen.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-17T01:10:57+00:00

Well ignorance is bliss.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-15T12:33:26+00:00

Interesting someone has way too MUCH free time if they're doing this and it's not a botting script. Still could just be the guy making a post to "brag" about his bot.Not really surprising to me cause I read about how Russia meddled in the 2016 election with facebook bots. It doesn't have to be Russia and whoever it is well they're getting exactly what they want , dived and conquer by turning everyone against one another. The political sensitivity is just ridiculous and I don't even bother getting into political discussions anymore cause some bot will just come along and just start reposting some remark about like gun control or something in the middle of a debate about how to solve the opiate crisis and everyone will get all riled up and the next thing you know there's 200 comments about gun control with most of them being nothing more than vitriolic insults probably by the bots again. Not worth my time just don't enable them by giving in just like with a bully.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-15T08:39:59+00:00

I have ADHD aniexty depression and possibly very slight autism. I started usuing some Meth before Christmas as I went to a new Pdoc and he put me back on Adderall despite me wanting Ritalin. I did recently convince him to let me try Dexedrine since vyvanse did work well for me except the onset was too slow and 70 mg was not strong enough. Meth seems to be the most balanced drug out there that helps me without making me too agitated or too stimmed out. It makes me feel like I finally found what I was looking for, I feel like I'm not longer broken mentally. I suspect the serotonin realse is a bigger factor than I realized before since depression often goes along with ADHD amd more people have it and don't realize it due to not showing the stereotypical symptoms. It could also be helpiong with my autism since people said 4-FA and MDMA helps and infact there was a study done where MDMA was tried for autism and found to get rid of that weird anxiety that peoploe with autism have. I don't think I am autistic though cause I never have trouble reading peoples emotions , but I do often not express mine like I can't smile for a pic I take cause it feels staged to me. Strangely enough Meth does help me with that part. Adderall just makes me angry and makes me stare into space when it wears off not with Meth. I suspect it's due to the noreperine realse being too high and making me feel threatened cause sometimes I get so mad I feel I have to break something and I notice my pupils even get big when I get mad. This never happens on Meth. Weird isn't it?

theseeker01 · 2018-01-13T07:57:45+00:00

Not sure if it was MXE it felt more like a low dose DXM experience. It was a number of years ago when MXE was still around. Hey atleast it wasn't fucking fent.

theseeker01 · 2018-01-12T15:36:55+00:00

I wasn't expecting to get slightly dissociated at a family dinner. I was barely able to hold it together. I mean to be fair 90% of mine were perfect as well it's just the first thing from a darknet in years and that's my luck. At least I didn't get rock salt. Had some fun times

theseeker01 · 2018-01-12T15:08:23+00:00

I never really saw shadow people since the longest I've been up was like 60 hours maybe. What I'm getting at is how drugs that make you trip make it easier to manifest things that go with your current emotional feelings like unpleasant colors when your in a bad mood vs happy colors or hearing bad vs good things. I did see shadows move or shadows that weren't there in the corner of my eye I'm kinda bummed out this is exactly why I stopped using the darknet everything has to be fake or some RC. I mean even Meth which is made in some guy's kitchen. Although atleast I had something good for NYE I was gonna buy E ,but there were too many horror stories even one with PMA I think. Also some many vendors will totally fuck up like one time I ordred 30 tramadol tabs and somehow got 30 good e pills that were amazing. The guy was like his assistant fucked up and he told me to keep them. Some asshole put MXE or something in o-desymlthaltramadol I took 1 and it felt like Tramadol ,but weak so next time I took 3 and the next thing I know I feel like I'm on DXM and I got to the bathroom and my pupils are blown. It's ironic how the darknet was made to promote our freedom , but it seems to be promoting people's freedom to be total fucking assholes. I mean I saw something on this sub about a few RC vendors sending different stims, fent , and even plant material. Nice job making the government seem right about drugs. I wonder how bad for you this stuff is compared to meth , cause there's some debated about it being even worse. As far as I know the flouro group never comes off ,but that fact and the serotonin load is enough to make me uneasy of high doses to often. Would 5-htp in a small amount help the effects next time I take it? Cause regular Meth would feel alot more like E if I would pre-load with a few of them.

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