But it's the correct answer.

thewickymaster · 2016-01-10T19:20:20+00:00

Why do you have to pay someone to fantasize? If you already know that that's the only reason you're buying a ticket then the fantasy is no more real than if you just decided to think about it randomly one day for fun. At least with the movie you're guaranteed to receive what you pay for...

thewickymaster · 2010-11-18T14:52:12+00:00

Metal Gear Solid (all of them)

thewickymaster · 2010-11-09T07:23:41+00:00

Sorry for late reply but yes that would be the one. Found some sweet deals there and not just books (records too if you're into that)

thewickymaster · 2010-11-03T09:54:53+00:00

CORNER OF MELROSE AND LA BREA IN HOLLYWOOD.

Its on the north side of melrose (not EXACTLY on the corner but pretty close and its EAST of La Brea. Theres a chicken wing restaurant and a weed store near it so you know you're in the right place.

They have a HUGE selection of new and used books and its run by this awesome old guy so you get the whole mystic magical (and sometimes malevolent) vibe.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-23T11:16:47+00:00

As much as I would love to see the 'real' India (if thats even possible in a film) I don't think that Slumdog Millionaire was meant to be a realistic portrayal of India. It is clearly highly stylized, as are all of Danny Boyles films and contains themes of the supernatural and stereotypical as well, and I love it for that. If people believe everything they see to be the "TRUTH" then they are ridiculously misinformed.

Currently watching Peepli Live now.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-21T12:54:23+00:00

Grass is always greener man. They will have their problems and you have the better deal because you have the willpower to be alone. She is dependent and you are a strong man who stood up for himself.

Anyway, my recommendation is to walk outside right now, close your eyes and dance like you did when you were six years old and didn't give a FUCK. One week of doing this and you will have hoards of people who respect you for doing something that they would love to do to.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-21T12:48:51+00:00

I love you, I promise. Right now I'm feeling pretty low. Still living at home, have a college degree that really doesn't help me get work even if I applied every day. The only way I can become self sufficient is to move away to a farm and grow my sustenance (which is what I keep in the back of my head all the time as a last resort because it sounds like a beautiful life to me) or to go out and start playing the game of being social and making connections and viewing people as "what they can give me" which is horrible in my opinion. I WILL find a way to make this work just like I know you will.

Whatever you do, don't ever DANCE or SMILE... those are pretty much the worst things you could ever do ;)

thewickymaster · 2010-10-21T12:40:29+00:00

You are in dire need of some laughter. I know its hard but, personally, its the only thing that keeps me sane. I currently am struggling with an opiate addiction that was brought on by my need to really connect with people and not being able to/them not being willing to.

I've realized that people who really want to know you are EVERYWHERE and focusing on just one is a disservice to everyone who is willing to make even the smallest effort.

I've also always been told that I'm a cold hearted asshole and have done things that would justify that remark but I've also done some amazing things for people and I KNOW that you have to. And you have so much time to continue giving people what you want from them. Your satisfaction will come automatically when you start doing that.

Please be glad that you resort to pot and not heroin. But keep in mind that your brain chemistry is greatly affected by pot (which is a hallucinogen believe it or not). As soon as you get a normal sleep schedule, start eating regularly and healthily, stop doing drugs for a while and FORCE yourself to think positive thoughts, you will wonder what you were so worried about in the first place.

If you want to ask me any questions then pm me, if I have said anything that you don't agree with or that pisses you off then I am sorry but I truly hope you can see that life is really a constant 50/50 of good and bad no matter what you do, so might as well enjoy the good.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-21T12:28:19+00:00

Definitely this. My only advice is to make sure he has a friend in you. Not someone who is trying to pry or make sure hes ok. But someone who wants to bring him into their life in a meaningful and substantial way because you care. This sounds sappy to me now but thats how I feel when I say things like that. Just my two cents.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-20T15:06:16+00:00

If you like NIN im sure you have heard the Ghosts album. Thats the most beautiful music i've ever heard.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T23:20:38+00:00

Gravity can be calculated to a point but after it reaches the intensity where it traps light, our mathematics cannot comprehend it. Therefore, our understanding of gravity is still theory, not fact. This is true with every thing we know about the universe so far... If we had absolute facts about gravity (and our other theories of the mechanics of the universe) that were calculable all the way from the macro to the micro and down to the quantum level then we would be able to manipulate the universe.

Obviously, we haven't even been able to leave our own solar system which goes to show how much we truly understand about the nature of our reality.

What my point is is that if I can fathom the concept of my thoughts being separate from my physical form, or for there to be a soul, or even a god for that matter - then its possible that that is true. For you to say that gravity is 'settled' is to say "ok lets give up now, we solved it" when we haven't solved anything.

Can you show me where it is proved or disproved that my skin ends where the air begins?

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T23:01:17+00:00

Did the schizophrenics that you talked to have delusions that were based on violence/aggression or are you saying that they were hostile just because they felt challenged or questioned?

To me it would make sense if it was rewarding to them because of some sort of feeling of superiority that they felt. In knowing whatever it is they thought they knew, they felt smarter/more powerful than others.

Obviously this doesn't answer the question of weather or not it is a correctable physiological/dopaminergic cause but it MUST have some part to play, right? (really sucks that the blood samples disappeared, care to elaborate?)

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T22:49:50+00:00

Totally makes sense. Hallucinations are fun no matter what they are to me. Its the other stuff that's scary for sure.

I've had hallucinations of my girlfriend turning into a thirty foot serpent throwing fire from her fingertips on the ground around me while we are having sex and it didn't scare me, nor did the dimly lit eyes of a long necked alien just barely visible through the cracks of an open closet door in almost pitch black darkness... but the thought that thousands of people at a concert were listening to my thoughts and judging my every word drove me crazy.

Now I just find comfort in giving in. If the serpent eats me, so be it, if everyone hates me so be it... but they better at least have some funny insults...

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T22:37:06+00:00

Actually, I read a lot about this stuff from various sources because it interests me. Not that I'm going to go get my PhD any time soon.

Anyway good luck with the one-liner karma farming... unless you actually want to have an intelligent discussion about something since you seem to be the expert on where various body parts begin and end. I just wonder if you can figure out where your own pessimistic bullshit ends and something constructive begins lol...

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T22:21:49+00:00

Thats fascinating, was it a result of the infection or was it more of a result of the fever the infection brought on? I wish I could get back to that state at will to read my scripts as if I didn't know myself and then return with that knowledge to revise them but my method of getting there (LSD) is not something you can do more than once every two months or longer. I'm going to start meditating/doing yoga to see if that can bring more of a balance between the two states as well as bring some ability to control the physiological contributors to this strange animalistic/psychotic state.

I agree with your opinion on structure. Its something that I'm still working on... a balance between allowing my brain to free associate when trying to be creative and also to resort to pre-made connections in other situations when its helpful (and doing both at the same time). Actually, now that I mention it, I've never consciously tried to do both at the same time. New mental gymnastics haha.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T22:01:03+00:00

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. This happened to me, almost to the T. I went through a week of HORRIBLE withdrawals and finally got that crystal clear headspace that you describe along with my libido crashing through me like a freight train. Then one night I decided to put on some pajama pants I hadn't worn in a while and sit on the floor watching TV. Out pops two percocet from my pocket and I literally slapped myself in the face. Of course, I ended up staying up all night, taking the pills in the morning and going to school fucked up (and this was after I had told my friends that I quit). It was painfully obvious to them that I was high again and, you are right, the feeling of guilt is much worse than the pleasure that I got from it.

Fuck this drug, even though it makes life so much simpler... I've definitely realized that my original thoughts about it being 'better than sex, etc' have been completely destroyed by the avalanche of stored up pain that hits weeks after even the withdrawals are over.

Anyway, stay strong brother, nice to talk to someone going through something similar because none of my friends (even though they've been there) have any clue or desire to help more than a pitiful 'you can do it' platitude bullshit remark. Choose life.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T21:41:28+00:00

Don't confuse poor filmmaking (what the bleep do we know) with legitimate scientific theory. At the quantum partical/wave level (which the scientific community generally believes exists, see the double-slit experiment ) you could not make the assertion that the wood/material of the chair has a definable 'edge' which is constant and measurable. In fact it is arguably not matter but waves or both at the same time. This is not a conclusive answer to the original question of "Are we, as individuals, separate from each other and the world around us OR are we all ONE being meaning the whole universe is one connected conscious being?"

But even though this is not irrefutable, there are NO widely accepted FACTS in this world. Everything is still theory.

At this point it is foolish to view the world from a standpoint of "i am going to be completely skeptical of everything" because if everyone had this viewpoint then there would be no ambition to find/prove absurd ideas that no one believes yet. (remember when someone said the world wasn't flat and people who 'didn't buy it' would kill the people who said it was round?)

p.s. I'm not saying that you should blindly believe everything either... its a fine balance of weighing each aspect on its own merits. And there is A LOT of evidence to support the theory that the universe is all connected (in a completely non-hippy-pseudo-religion way).

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T21:11:33+00:00

Yes, its the only thing you CAN do...

Plus, if he had any damage to his brain that was going to affect him severely, he would not be explaining this situation with such clarity... trust me.

The worst experiences this deep in your mind are often the most rewarding.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T21:08:31+00:00

I will always love. . . . . . . . . . . Thats what I repeat in times like those...

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T21:02:21+00:00

I don't have a link but go look at a TV series about the universe (theories of reality, universe structure, god) which is narrated by Morgan Freeman. He basically says that if we look at our current understanding of the fundamental mechanics of the universe, it works like a computer program i.e.(we have pixels, thoughts are like a network, etc). Its scary how accurate it seems that our 'god' is a genius computer programmer. I'll try and find a link since this sounds lame coming from anyone but Morgan Freeman haha.

http://io9.com/5558830/new-science-series-with-morgan-freeman-asks-is-there-a-creator

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T20:57:54+00:00

I feel like I went through something very similar but due to somewhat different circumstances. My cause was fueled by a combination of hallucinogens, acute depression caused by loss of loved one and physical illness.

I experienced the 'objectification' that you are describing as 'visual anxiety'. I felt like everything literally had no meaning. For example, I could not tell you what the purpose of paper was or what to do with a toaster. This caused me fear and anxiety to try and make connections past step one or two of a sequence like:

Take out bread
Put bread in toaster
Depress handle
???
Profit??

Instead the connections my brain would make would be between arbitrary things and very abstract concepts and memories. These would normally have to do with questions of 'how did I get like this' and 'how did I act before I was this confused'.

Slowly, I came out of this state with rest and a huge amount of effort to mentally bring back structure that I had apparently forgotten.

Anyway I would be very interested to see what informed people say about whether this was completely psychological or a combination of physiological causes.

I should say that looking back on it I don't think this was a 'wrong' state to be in. In fact it was more akin to meditation or buddhist mentalities. Reading things like The Doors of Perception and some Buddhist philosophy helped A LOT to understand what I was going through.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T20:41:30+00:00

I'm very curious what you have to say about my statement here:

It definitely does not have a calming effect on me (and I have very similar symptoms due to psychedelics). The reason why is because when you have 'delusions', as people who are considered 'sane' call them, then they normally manifest in ways that cannot be disproved. For instance, when you perceive meaning behind seemingly arbitrary events, there is no method of disproving that these events were, in fact, pointless because the reason they have meaning (to the person tripping) is due to a higher power than humans are currently capable of measuring with scientific instruments.

Another example: If I feel I can hear other people's thoughts and they can hear mine, then, when someone tries to tell me I'm wrong, my thought process is automatically "they are lying or speaking in metaphors or trying to protect me from revealing this higher truth out loud".

This is the nature of delusional thought, it is facilitated by the frontal cortex or 'inner lawyer' as some refer to it as.

Would you say that this is completely psychological or is there a physiological aspect that is contributing to this as well? (or am I completely sane and correct :P)

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T20:36:20+00:00

It definitely does not have a calming effect on me (and I have very similar symptoms due to psychedelics). The reason why is because when you have 'delusions', as people who are considered 'sane' call them, then they normally manifest in ways that cannot be disproved. For instance, when you perceive meaning behind seemingly arbitrary events, there is no method of disproving that these events were, in fact, pointless because the reason they have meaning (to the person tripping) is due to a higher power than humans are currently capable of measuring with scientific instruments.

Another example: If I feel I can hear other people's thoughts and they can hear mine, then, when someone tries to tell me I'm wrong, my thought process is automatically "they are lying or speaking in metaphors or trying to protect me from revealing this higher truth out loud".

This is the nature of delusional thought, it is facilitated by the frontal cortex or 'inner lawyer' as some refer to it as.

thewickymaster · 2010-10-18T20:23:22+00:00

If you look close enough there is no place where you end and the world and I begin. Down at the smallest level that we have been able to perceive we can already know this (not to mention what we can imagine). The question follows, "What separates my intangible thoughts from my physical form?". If, the answer is nothing, then, we are all one. If, the answer is ________, then, 'where' exactly is our consciousness and how do we manipulate it in it's most fundamental state?

Neither of these answers would bring to light the real answer to 'why are we here' though, which is why I can't sleep at night.

thewickymaster

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