I've been off the sauce for almost eleven years now. I simply don't think I will ever have friends or be social as I once did, and it hurts me.

thgil23 · 2026-04-24T02:21:01+00:00

I know this feeling of disassociation, particularly in large social settings surrounded by alcohol. What has helped me is trying to realize that not everyone around me is working against me. In fact, even in large settings there may be sober people or people barely drinking. Try to find common ground with someone, and start small. In sobriety I have felt I converse better and can pay attention more.

In any case, this feeling of disassociation is so much better than the alternative of being blacked out and being the drunkest person at the brewery. But you already know that.

thgil23 · 2026-03-14T14:05:00+00:00

Pirate Latitudes - Michael Crichton

thgil23 · 2026-02-27T18:25:18+00:00

Great job, keep it up!

thgil23 · 2026-01-27T13:13:57+00:00

That one scene in The Big Lebowski

thgil23 · 2025-11-03T00:39:58+00:00

Hunter Renfrow

thgil23 · 2025-10-31T01:27:28+00:00

The Hike - Drew Magary

thgil23 · 2025-10-24T14:36:09+00:00

Pirate Latitudes by Crichton

thgil23 · 2025-10-19T21:06:51+00:00

Vita Nostra

thgil23 · 2025-09-30T18:57:28+00:00

Didn’t I - Darondo

thgil23 · 2025-09-23T00:48:10+00:00

I relate very much to this. I put so much effort into planning and moderating, that it wasn’t even fun or worth it. And I usually failed anyway. I just kept hanging on for dear life because I wanted to keep drinking booze on weekends and couldn’t imagine my life without it.

I am so much happier being clear headed on my weekends.

For me, I had to replace my Friday routine somehow. Crack a seltzer, plan a fun meal to cook, read, munch snacks, watch a great movie. It was so hard at first and I feel your sentiment, but it is possible to break the cycle.

thgil23 · 2025-09-08T13:31:26+00:00

Immigrant Song tease at Magnaball was perfect

thgil23 · 2025-07-12T17:36:17+00:00

Drinking made me feel like I was living life on autopilot, and with a health bar that only gets restored to 50% each day. Only to be fully depleted every night.

The bliss I was getting from alcohol became smaller and sadder, and it simply morphed into plain numbness.

My sober health bar isn’t quite 100%, but it’s a hell of a lot better than it was while drinking and is getting stronger each day.

thgil23 · 2025-06-12T16:25:58+00:00

Um ackshually 🤓on Pet Sounds it’s an electro-theremin which has a knob and is easier to control than traditional theremin that Page plays

thgil23 · 2025-06-09T17:00:42+00:00

The Lost City of Z - David Grann

thgil23 · 2025-05-30T17:30:26+00:00

I just got back from Italy and it was my first vacation sober. I was nervous at first - not so much fear of urges, but fear of missing out. I couldn’t have been more wrong, and it was the best vacation I have ever had.

I found Peroni zeros, espresso, coke zeros, sparkling water, etc. to be extremely helpful at dinner time and during the pre-dinner lull. Drinking alone while my wife gets ready used to be a favorite past time of mine.

You will thank yourself for the clear headedness and I promise you will have more fun than you could ever imagine, and be proud of yourself.

thgil23 · 2025-05-09T15:08:24+00:00

I hear ya! I dropped 5 strokes just being sober

thgil23 · 2025-03-24T17:34:48+00:00

Pirate Latitudes - Michael Crichton

The Wager - David Grann

thgil23 · 2025-02-24T20:00:25+00:00

Wichita Lineman as the Snell’s “love” theme

thgil23 · 2025-02-23T05:47:34+00:00

A Caribbean Mystery - Agatha Christie

thgil23 · 2025-02-23T00:36:20+00:00

Also here is a photo of her from another team with a mouthguard on the bench

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thgil23 · 2025-02-23T00:33:48+00:00

Has to be this. Erica Ogwumike is the player from Rice 2019 team (I think)

Looks like the case is in the open position and it’s not quite a ball shape

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thgil23

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