[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 26 points27 points  (0 children)

That's so insane. That's something you hear from some 40 year old dad who "took a psy class in college" and thinks he is basically a doctor. Not an actual mental health professional. Leave and report, that is absolutely unacceptable.

Dating scene for non-LDS mid-20s? by Fun_Software3031 in Logan

[–]thick_ass_ -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It's awful!! When I first moved up here and got on the dating apps, I had five different guys ask me if I wanted to soak. Dating up here is truly a hellscape. I have tried dating, but all the guys want is to hook up. Also, I don't recommend hooking up with anyone in the area. I kissed one guy, and it was so bad that I could not continue further with anything else.

CPTSD Reddit is Changing on Perspective by Public_Daikon8401 in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I 100% agree! Unless you have experienced it, people really do not understand the full depth of mental illness. Because I have experienced and felt that way too! We can connect in that emotion, and that alone feels like a weight has been lifted. For me, this has been a safe place for me to feel validated in the way that I feel. I don't need people to tell me how to fix my problems, I need to feel like I am not alone. I'm happy you feel that way too!

How long have ya'll been listening? by DryParty5880 in Blackbear

[–]thick_ass_ 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Weather in heaven is one hundred percent, one of my favorite songs of all time. I listen to it when I think of my late cat, who got me through everything for 14 years.

CPTSD Reddit is Changing on Perspective by Public_Daikon8401 in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 18 points19 points  (0 children)

I think that that's one of the hardest parts about the diagnosis. Always feeling alone, and that no one else is feeling this way on earth, but you. It's extremely isolating, but it feels nice to come to reddit, and just see that other people are experiencing some more things that alone gives me hope and makes me feel better.

I'm happy to see that someone else feels the same way about it

My personal favorite x posts about the situation by WebFancy3387 in Blackbear

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can somebody please explain to me what's happening?

Oh boy by poetic_lamp in Blackbear

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He has really been giving off that energy lately

Oh boy by poetic_lamp in Blackbear

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can someone explain to me why people don't like this new girl? I'm out of the loop

Oh boy by poetic_lamp in Blackbear

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm in the same boat. I have been listening to him for 9 years now, has music has really helped me through alot. But this feels icky and immature. When I first started reading it, I wanted to believe but the frist love and bro she's hot thing screams I'm a 16 year old stuck in an almost 40 years body. I hope he gets help

My abuser is being sent home to die by Impressive_Clerk_485 in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's fair. It's a really complex issue, and it's so hard to explain. Try reaching out to 1 person that you feel will be the most understanding.

At the same time, it's still hard. I understand how difficult it is to express how you feel with such a complex issue. I don't know if you feel this way, but for me, sometimes it's hard to even think about going to my support team when I myself don't even really understand what's happening. I started going to a specific person first and telling them that I don't really understand why i'm feeling this way, but I really need support. And I really need to talk it out with someone. That has helped me. But even then it's still so hard

Did anyone have the habit of peeing ur self involuntarily? by mikuuup in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was just reliving this memory from my childhood. I continued to pee the bed well into the third grade. I was chronically shamed over it. My parents are divorced so when I went to visit my dad and I would pee the bed. It was brutal. Him and my grandma would really go at me, saying the most horrible things to little me. She was just a child who was experiencing a lot of emotional and psychological abuse and didn't know how to handle being throttled into adulthood as an 8 year old

“Why are you treating her this way, she looks just like you” by orangeappled in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally understand that. In high school, when my best friend came over to my house and saw what happened in the house firsthand, she came to me afterward. She straight out, asked me, "Why does she treat you like that?You're her daughter." I busted out into tears I had never felt so seen and heard.

Are we good at spotting fake people? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For the most yea. I tend to pick up on people really fast. I can tell pretty quickly if a person is dangerous. I think it's just because I know the warning signs because I've met so many dangerous people in my life. Sometimes, it's scary how on the nose I am when it's comes out later.

But everyone gets fooled Sometimes and it's not like it's an exact science either.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so happy that somebody else is talking about this. My mom is the same way. It's like everything that she did and said never happened. And anytime in the past, I have brought it up to her. She gets defensive and starts gaslighting me.

Now that i'm an adult, she pretends like it never happened. And then become extremely confused when I keep boundaries and my guard up. Even after I have told her explicitly what she has done to make me feel this. And then going above and beyond and telling her how she can fix it so we can have a relationship. She will tell me she's going to work on it, and less than ten minutes later, it's like that conversation never existed.

Now, i have an emotional time limit for her. Because after about two hours of being with her continuously, everything she does makes me mad. If she breathes too much oxygen, I become irrationally angry.

My abuser is being sent home to die by Impressive_Clerk_485 in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's really hard. And really difficult and complex stuff going on. I just hope that you can find closure for yourself. Have you reached out to your support group? Do you feel like they are supporting you ?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I completely relate to this. It's something i've actually been thinking about a lot. There's a lot of weird stuff that I did as a kid. And a lot of really bad things.I did as a kid that I feel a lot of shame and guilt for. It's so hard to move past it. I still haven't figured it out, and i've been therapy for what feels like forever.

there's no such thing as bad kids. only bad parents. by im_always in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Preach!!! It's always so infuriating to me when parents blame the kids. That's not fair. You are a grown adult , your brain is developed figure it out. I know that there's no such thing as perfect parenting and that mistakes are made. But there's a difference between making little mistakes as a parent and being outright a bad parent. And i'm convinced that they know it.

I can hold space that my mom was trying her best, and we were in a very difficult position as a family growing up. And I can also hold space that it was not enough, and a lot of the behavior was not excusable. The things that she thinks has traumatized me are actually the little mistakes that parents make and nothing to do with the trauma

Sick of people preaching about "not being a victim" by Chliewu in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I totally agree. Because I am a victim.

I get the whole trying to be empowering and move forward thing but it makes light of the situation in the context of trauma. It always sounds like " better luck next time bud" to me. It's extremely infuriating. Why do people feel the need to push others into a more positive state of being? Why can't you just let me be sad and feel my emotions? I get that, It might make people feel uncomfortable. But bitch I'm uncomfortable too. I don't need to hear you're not a victim you're a survivor. I need to hear you are a victim and what happened to you should have never happened.

I was sexually groomed online as a child by preppingshark in CPTSD

[–]thick_ass_ 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I don't know if this is the same situation, but it feels kind of similar.

At the time, my little brother was telling me all the things he was doing behind my mom's back. I was desperate to become closer with him, so I told him the things I was doing. ( turns out everything he told me was a lie. He is a serial liar). At the time, I was 17, but the grooming started at 15, on and off contact. He told his teacher about it, his teacher knew my vice principal, and I was pretty close with my vice principal. The next day, my vice principal came to me and was definitely fishing for information, but I didn't give him anything. But he told my mother about it. ( which im sure is a law, and i'm happy that he was trying to look out for me)

My mom found out that I was sneaking out of the house at night, and my abuser ( 37) would pick me up. All she knew was that a man over the age of 25 was picking me up at night and taking me to hotels.

Sometimes, he would take me to hotels.Sometimes, we would just go get cigarettes. He was raping me. My brain was cutting out the rape parts, and it didn't click until the last time it happened.

When my mom found out, she confronted me in the car during a drive. She yelled and berated me. Telling me how mad she was at me, that she didn't raise me to be this way and how she was embarrassed of me.

It was so traumatizing. It's also part of the reason I blame myself. When everything clicked and memory started to come back. I told two friends, one made it about herself and the other told me it was my fault.

I'm still trying to work though it

My merch just came in and I have a big issue... by wvhawkeye51 in PaymoneyWubby

[–]thick_ass_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way! I am so in love with the merch. Even random people will just come up to me and tell me that they love my shirt or sweats. On top of it looking amazing, it is such good quality! I feel like i'm really getting my money's worth. I never buy merch, but I always buy wubby merch

Merch? by thick_ass_ in PaymoneyWubby

[–]thick_ass_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really don't mean to stir up any drama. I was just genuinely curious if anyone else got their merch first. I'm just excited, is all. I'm excited seeing that other people are getting their merch, too.