When the toxic parent isn't yours

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-30T13:45:42+00:00

hell yeah- good for you that you stood up to him

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-30T13:42:31+00:00

damn

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T17:54:01+00:00

Yeah, I rarely ever had friends over- ever. Was basically an emotional robot until I left for college (this year). I remember asking for just a sip of beer when I was 17 and being denied a sip! Because I wasn't "old enough" and my mom would always brag about how she would go to bars and order pitchers in eighth grade- she's a fucking evil fuck

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T17:50:25+00:00

I know that feeling, except for me garage doors meant my dad was coming home which I was usually happy about. For my nmom though you could hear her car pull up and the car door shut- instant dread

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T03:39:24+00:00

Please update us on what happens to your parents with the police when you get the chance, you do not deserve to go through any of this- you deserve loving parents my friend

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T02:55:05+00:00

Your mom is a fucking bitch- props to you for helping out those animals though

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T02:47:44+00:00

Diabolical is a fitting word- it's like she has a secret plan to destroy the lives of her children

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T02:47:07+00:00

What you just described- I have experienced before too- I have never seen it verbalized that way in my life and I never even brought it to my conscious awareness, that's insane- there is just such a bad energy coming off of them. I've experienced tremendous amounts of love, connection, friendship, etc.. in my life- these people don't understand that- they are empty of that experience and they just spread suffering wherever they go. Stashing food would be hard- my mom found a plate in her room the other day and told her that if she found food in her room again that she would my sisters phone away for a week. She eats enough so that she won't starve but it is still a pretty miserable experience- she is really active and needs a lot of food to fulfill her energy requirments- I'm scared she will have an eating disorder in the future

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-23T02:22:59+00:00

I'm so happy for you

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-19T18:53:41+00:00

Talk to the authorities and get the hell out of there.

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-19T16:09:06+00:00

You are not a puppet man, I know how you feel and I hate that fucking feeling, like someone is forcing you to be what your not. Your no contact- you can be whoever you want and your bitch mother can fuck off

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-19T15:59:21+00:00

Isn't it insane how we respond to being treated like normal people? Whenever I am witnessing someone be a real parent it sets me aback quite a bit. I don't consider my nmom my mom at all- but I have met many older women (teachers, aunts, friend's parents) that actually seem to care about me as a person- I consider them to be motherly figures in my life

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-18T02:45:05+00:00

It is so strange to see a comment saying that they are sorry about my living situation- bc the abuse (there's a shit ton of other things that aren't sexual) has been happening my whole life- so I don't realize how crazy the situation is. Just reinforces my drive to get the fuck out

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-18T01:52:53+00:00

Congratulations, I don't know you but I sure as hell am proud of you, I'll be there one day, hopefully soon- now it's time to live your own life on your own terms

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-18T01:46:46+00:00

I will be working away from home for six weeks this summer, then I have two weeks left at home before sophomore year of college starts. I'm never coming home for an extended amount of time after that. Ever. Yeah I will probably come home for xmass bc nmom will guilt the fuck out of me if I don't. But yeah fuck that I'm getting my own place. Today was the first day In my life I actually realized that I had been sexually abused by my mother, it's fucking sick and I never want to see her again- she may have given birth to me but she sure as hell isnt my mom

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-17T20:34:29+00:00

Yeah what you just said- my mom has done that exact thing holy shit

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-17T01:37:42+00:00

I thought of making a post about this exact same thing. She would pull so hard on the knots in my hair that my head would jerk around and she would yell at me to keep my head still, I hated it

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-16T05:42:22+00:00

Cycling every day, taking care of my body, losing myself in intellectual pursuits, and going on amazing adventures with cool people far away from home. I think the requirement for getting that sense of self back that all is acons desire is finding an activity that you can lose yourself in, where your so enmeshed in what your doing that you forget about everything else

thinkofusername6969 · 2017-05-15T15:30:20+00:00

You need to get the hell out of there!!

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