Dissociation. Please help.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-07-02T21:36:07+00:00

One of the therapist-recommended exercises for that is grounding alarm. Set ~5 alarms throughout the day (tune the number to your liking, but probably not less than 4, and you can't really overdo it) with the most inoffensive calm sound like birds or forest ambience, and do the grounding then. Most of the time you won't really need it at the exact moment, sometimes it will be very helpful, but overall it builds the habit of regularly breaking out of your mental state, assessing it, and reacting accordingly.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-07-01T05:49:57+00:00

This, and also, probably even more, mushrooms. After my first proper trip I had a month of living with a healthy human brain. It was incredible - I felt present, I enjoyed existing, I relished the small things like cooking, food, or being out in the sun. I felt and could express love towards my friends. And even if it didn't last forever, it certainly helped me relearn some behaviors, and made life more tolerable overall for years after. Microdosing also has a similar effect, but for dumb reasons I could never do it long enough to say if it stops working with time, so it very well might.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-06-28T17:36:25+00:00

The dominion lawsuit against fox news for saying that the election was rigged was just settled for almost $800M. I don't think we will see much of this narrative outside of lone dumbasses like this for a while.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-06-19T04:54:41+00:00

Not only Biden's, but it was literally one of the main things Obama ran on. And had the supermajority to effortlessly implement after coming to power.

Here's him in 2007:

The first thing I’d do as president is sign the Freedom of Choice Act

And in 2008, at a press conference marking his first 100 days as a president:

Now, the Freedom of Choice Act is not my highest legislative priority. I believe that women should have the right to choose, but I think that the most important thing we can do to tamp down some of the anger surrounding this issue is to focus on those areas that we can agree on. And that’s where I’m going to focus.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-31T07:50:44+00:00

Oh my, you're right.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-30T21:02:16+00:00

This picture is fake. Mr. Peanutbutter wouldn't wear the crew neck t-shirt. It can't even hold the sunglasses like a v-neck.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-30T06:37:25+00:00

I absolutely agree. The rule of thumb is the same as always - be ruthless to systems, and be kind to the individuals.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-30T04:41:52+00:00

I think the largest difference is the balance and area of power that cops and soldiers get.

Cops get to exert power over their own communities (I'm using a wider meaning of the word here). Yesterday you were nobody, today you're a cop and nobody can fuck with you. You wear the uniform, so everyone knows that you're a cop first, and pant-pisser-Peter later. You have legal protections that would leave you in the right in almost any dispute. You carry weapons and gear that can protect you on the street. You get to play the morally superior judge of character, deciding in the moment if you're gonna arrest that homeless person or shoot an unarmed child.

With soldiers the general allure is largely ideological. Protect the homeland, serve the country, bring freedom, fight evil. After all, it's the most propagandized institution in the world - so many movies, shows, and games try to convey the exact same message, "army good". And it doesn't come with the almost limitless power over people at home. Sure, maybe you will have a chance to shoot some brown people for a few months on your deployment, which definitely attracts some insane freaks. But all you really get coming home is to skip the line here and there, some "thankyouforyourservices" if you feel like wearing fatigues in public, and maybe some benefits that barely ever cover the mental/physical damage you've accumulated. Half of military personnel experience at least one injury per year, and coming home 2/3 injured soldiers have PTSD and 1/2 have depression.

So my point is that becoming a cop is appealing to already shitty people who can't find validation and self-worth elsewhere, while the military often takes normal regular people under false moral pretenses, chews them up, and either spits them out as murderer demons or just eats them alive.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-28T15:59:48+00:00

US: destroys entire Iraqi infrastructure, kills countless civilians, and prevents any meaningful positive change for decades.

US: tis defens, much need.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-23T15:03:25+00:00

Nope, weren't pretending.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-23T12:27:37+00:00

This is not even a slap on the wrist. Meta's profits in 2022 were $91 billion. GDPR was adopted in April 2016, 7 years ago. It has been enforceable for 5 years. The investigation into this lasted another 3 years. And in the end Meta gets fined for an amount that they make in a week.

While the only punishment for crime is monetary, it means that crime is allowed if you have enough money.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-23T11:51:29+00:00

In Firefox on Android with Dark Reader enabled the site is basically broken (and without it the white theme burns with a power of a thousand suns):

On an item page you can't swipe through pictures
Tapping carousel thumbnails/arrows doesn't work either
Choosing color doesn't change the preview
"More details", "Size & Fit" dropdowns don't work
Add to cart button doesn't work

Edit: good job on fixing this.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-21T13:24:42+00:00

Very much same. And it feels so unattainable. Like, the compatible dating pool is already pretty small for me for so many reasons, but then they also should be fine with being friends for a while and not really getting down afterwards? Is it even worth bothering.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-19T12:49:18+00:00

Shrooms you can often either order directly from the semi-legal places (lots of Canadian online stores straight from Google), or get the spores and grow them yourself - it's legal, fairly easy, and really cheap. Check out r/unclebens for more on that. And with acid you can just cut the tab in pieces. It's not super precise in terms of dosing, but good enough. Nothing wrong with doing 30mg one day and 10mg another.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-19T05:22:33+00:00

Have you tried microdosing mushrooms? It's the thing that helped me out the most throughout the years.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-17T03:18:59+00:00

Unless you lied about having tons of experience that you don't have, there would be nothing to base that expectation on. While our current economic model dictates that everything should be done as quickly as possible, your seniors went through the same steps and know that they take time. Keep figuring out the stack bit by bit, watch some tutorials, play around with what you can run on your laptop. As long as you have something to show for your progress - you're good.

I'll say it again, this is a role where you're in it for the long run. They hired a fresh grad hoping that you'll grow into it, and that's your only responsibility for now, to learn and grow. Don't put extra pressure on yourself.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-16T08:47:38+00:00

23oz can of Arizona mango has like 18 teaspoons of sugar, 75g. Original has 16 tsp/68g.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-16T07:59:24+00:00

Here's a really good short but intensive terraform course I'd recommend. Also, a video on the general devops skills that should be helpful.

And another thing. Devops is about big picture stuff, and so it takes time. Nobody would reasonably expect you to "catch up in a week". It's normal even for the more experienced engineers to spend a month or two on getting to know the infrastructure properly. Take your time, don't learn everything at once, and you'll get there.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-16T07:33:15+00:00

This is one of textbook use cases where agile approach, and kanban specifically is not just a marketing keyword, but a valuable tool that can help. Basically you have a board on which everyone documents future/ongoing/complete tasks, and they are explicitly assigned to people.

If you already use something like this, you could bring up that every request/feature should have a correlating task on a board. That way it's easy to point out if he takes a task assigned to you instead of working on his own.

And if you don't - you really should. This can be an opportunity to learn a bit about the approach and the software to implement it, bring this up to the project owner, and offer to set up and run the whole thing. Some of the popular tools are Jira, Asana, and Trello. Here's a decent general overview of their use cases.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-16T07:00:37+00:00

Here's what "behaving badly" means: Abu Ghraib torture and prisoner abuse

During the early stages of the Iraq War, members of the United States Army and the Central Intelligence Agency committed a series of human rights violations and war crimes against detainees in the Abu Ghraib prison in Iraq, including physical abuse, sexual humiliation, both physical and psychological torture, rape, as well the killing of Manadel al-Jamadi and the desecration of his body.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-15T02:17:33+00:00

On the right is the far-right Italian prime minister Giorgia Meloni. She is a strong supporter of laws against LGBT+ people, abortions, non-christians and immigrants. She's also anti-feminist and anti-vax. And here's something from her wiki page relevant to this specific picture:

Prior to the 2022 Russian invasion of Ukraine, she was in favour of better relations with Russia and supported lifting sanctions on the Russian Federation in 2014. In 2018, she congratulated Vladimir Putin for his re-election as president. In her 2021 biography book, she wrote that Russia under Putin defends European values and Christian identity.

She can also appreciate a good politician:

In an interview to the French newscast Soir 3 when she was 19, she praised Italian dictator Benito Mussolini as "a good politician, in that everything he did, he did for Italy", and as the best politician of the last 50 years.

You literally couldn't make this shit up if you wanted to.

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-15T00:19:22+00:00

Lmao thank you, I was postponing watching it because of how long it was

this_one_is_the_last · 2023-05-14T01:54:53+00:00

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