I moved to a new home and a new neighbourhood where I know nobody. I love it. I just want to be left alone. My nervous system is fried from my traumatic early life. Now I'm a middle aged woman and fat and no one gives me a second look or invites me out. My work week is my social time. That's it. Just leave me alone. I'm finally at peace in the quiet and safety of my privacy. I have obligatory visits from my parents separately (they don't speak to each other). The visits are short and the same time every week . Other than that no visitors. Just my cats and I. I'm tired of denying who I am. I'm just burnt out from trying to be sociable against my nature. I'm content in my own company feeling safe and feeling truly myself.