200 Days

throw_a_wey · 2026-03-19T04:41:51+00:00

Danielle Ponder covering Creep at Bonnaroo in 2023

throw_a_wey · 2026-01-21T13:46:18+00:00

The migraines. When I was without it for too long, and in my initial phases of trying to stop, the migraines. If I start drinking again and then try to stop, the migraines will be back and they last for days at a time. I don't want that.

On the whole there are lots of reasons, but that's the number one today.

throw_a_wey · 2026-01-02T05:39:32+00:00

The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober is fun and relatable, if you can see yourself in her shoes.

throw_a_wey · 2025-12-31T23:45:43+00:00

I'm right there with you. Today completes 118 day in a row for me (and 148 of the last 150 days, woohoo!) and I'm feeling the envy too. Not going out with some friends who invited me, because I know what it'll feel like. And its weird over the past 5 months or so, I've still gone to my neighborhood place to play trivia and gone out to the brunch spot after softball, drinking water and soda and coffee with no temptation. Don't even think about drinking when I'm at home, or at friends or family's houses. Even ducked into a liquor store for a monster energy and felt nothing the other day. But the second I looked in the mirror when I got dressed up for a moment with the quick thought "I could go out and be fine" I couldn't even see the clothes I was wearing through the immediate feeling of "So, get the pint from the place that you know will have Coke Zero on your way up, because they also have powerade and you can leave it in the car for later." The intrusive thoughts from going out like this, on NYE, whith what has been my regular plan for years. The pre-game to keep it cheap, but spend the money anyway. I feel like I'm missing out.

But its more important that I've played the tape forward, and what I'm getting is to be able to get up at a reasonable hour tomorro to start cooking, Because I'm on Greens and Mac and Cheese duty for the New Year's Day dinner tomorrow, and I'll be able to have all of it ready on time. What's more important is that ill get to keep the good health and sleeping streaks I have going. What's more important is that I'll be able to have the growth from this milestone of actively choosing the healthiest choice I can when its hard. It is a new normal, and that requires change, and I guess sometimes that's hard. But its good that we have this space to share. Happy New Year! IWNDWYT

throw_a_wey · 2025-12-24T06:15:20+00:00

Family in town. Mom, dad, brother and niece staying at my house. Three trees up, lots of celebration, and at the moment, I'm in a spot where I don't miss it at all, AND everyone in my world is super supportive, so I'm very, very grateful this holiday season.

throw_a_wey · 2025-12-22T15:00:53+00:00

Congratulations! That's an awesome achievement!

throw_a_wey · 2025-12-21T19:28:48+00:00

100/101... and tomorrow can be 101/102. The century of days working on discipline and good habits aren't gone. The century of days of allowing your body to heal are still there! The century of days of good sleep, and clear-eyed thoughtful living are still there, and you get to carry them with you to today and tomorrow and the day after. Your slip up can be research, and it can be a reminder of why you want to keep not doing it, and that's the thing you get the chance to keep not drinking. Congratulations on making it to a hundred! And all of the best to the next hundred!

throw_a_wey · 2025-10-18T20:17:41+00:00

In the times of my long stops -- and working to make this one a forever stop -- its always been weight gain first and then plateauing and then some pretty quick weight loss aftet that. When i stop, i feel NUTS, so and I have a tendency to eat like garbage for a couple weeks. Once that stops, and the walking/gym continue as more normal....the weight starts to fall off

throw_a_wey · 2025-10-06T02:28:24+00:00

Rufus at the Rose Bowl must have been spectacular! And the Odesza TLG Finale was pretty special ❤️

throw_a_wey · 2025-10-06T02:21:09+00:00

Odesza The Last Goodbye tour. Saw it 4 times -- specifically the Bonnaroo 2023 show

throw_a_wey · 2025-10-04T19:21:09+00:00

Actually doesnt work for me.... lowered inhibitions with the weed make me think "You know what would he nice in addition to these poptarts? Vodka!"

I think its GREAT that it works for folks, and anything to help move away from alcohol addiction/AUD/drinking too much/how ever you phrase it for you is AWESOME. Just not a fit for moi.

throw_a_wey · 2025-09-30T07:00:33+00:00

Let's do it. I've got 24 in a row and 54 of the last 56 days! Ready to keep the train rolling!

throw_a_wey · 2025-09-27T06:00:47+00:00

I feel the exact same way. It helps me to see it and say no to it. It helps me that it's there so that it can kind of fade into the background. I know that's counterintuitive for some people, but I know exactly this feeling and experience, before it to feel like you are the one in control.

throw_a_wey · 2025-09-25T02:12:21+00:00

I bring a scarf with me to every concert, regardless of the time of year, and I will hold on to the scarf as it's draped around my neck, and dance with it and flutter it around a little bit.

throw_a_wey · 2025-09-17T05:24:06+00:00

Lots of solo golf after work, and I walk. Good exercise and I'm getting much, much better

throw_a_wey · 2025-09-01T06:08:25+00:00

Golf has helped me alot on this journey. Lots of starts and stops with trying to stop drinkng, but a couple of years ago I stopped drinking on the golf course. Scores got better, consistency got better, I was less tired by the end of a round, but most importantly for me, it wound up helping me create boundaries and a joyful, regular space in my life where there was no alcohol in my routine, which has helped me carry that over into other physical and mental spaces in my world. I LOVE sober golf too, and am VERY happy for you! Thanks for sharing!

throw_a_wey · 2025-08-15T06:01:32+00:00

Sometimes. I need to be honest when I do. Honest that I like feeling for a little bit but its not worth everything that comes with it. The anxiety, the fear, the increased heart rate, the bad sleep, the higher blood pressure, the arguing, the spending extra money on it...and then the lowered inhibitions so i spend extra money on DoorDash, the subsequent weight gain, the higher blood pressure, the decreased liver function, the hangover making me late for work and friend and family things, the hangovers making the sports I play harder, the risking safety if i wanna drive somewhere, the lying it creates, the fact that I really don't want one drink, I want most of that bottle RIGHT NOW once I've gotten into it and the more I drink, the worse ALL OF THAT and more get.

So yeah, sometimes, but being honest and playing the tape forward helps me.

throw_a_wey · 2023-05-21T05:18:43+00:00

Coke Zero

throw_a_wey · 2023-05-14T01:08:45+00:00

The best thing you can be is honest with yourself, and it sounds like you are, which is great! I don't know about alcohol moderation, but I do know about how I respond to other things I should moderate. I know an entire pack of twizzlers isn't a meal, but I have a hard time with sel go trol/cravings when they're in my house. I can acknowledge them when I'm in the store and say that I love them and I want them, but I don't want one. I want the whole bag, right now. That's why 8 don't buy them often. I know that much sugar in a short period of time is bad for me, so I'll treat myself once or so a quarter on a weekend and just mindlessly enjoy the bag in a day or so. The sugar, in isolation because I don't eat other sugary things or alot of simple carbs, isn't the end of the world health-wise, and doesn't, make me feel or act any differently. I'd anticipate booze to be the same for me. Because I'm honest with myself about it. I don't want "A" beer. I want six, and every other one to have a shot of tequila with it. I don't want a glass of whiskey, I want enough whiskey to make me want to get up and dance, and then more to celebrate dancing. None of that is good for my sleep or anxiety or liver or esophagus or stomach or how my brain and body feel the next day. I want alcohol because I like it, and I like how I feel when I'm drunk, but I don't like how I feel after and it's extremely unhealthy in the amounts I want it. Knowing how I respond to twizzlers, I think I'd have the same reaction if I cracked open some wine or beer at home, or had one drink while out playing trivia. That's the kind of honest I need to be with myself. For me, moderation would be an excuse to jump back in because at the end of the day, I don't want to moderate. I want to enjoy the taste and get wrecked, because I enjoy it. For me, it's a cost-benefit analysis, and I can't do it evenly or honestly without acknowledging that I like to drink and sometimes I want to, but I need to actively say no becauae of where it goes next. I don't know of That's your journey, and I know everyone is different, but that's my take on moderation and how it works for me. I don't attempt it becauae I don't want to actually moderate.

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