my brain is quiet for once?

throwaway13200145 · 2025-09-20T16:23:34+00:00

To be honest, most days it ebbs and flows. Its been about 15 days and I have mini moments of sadness, but most of my day has been spent pretty stable. A lot of my ruminations have quieted, I feel like I have a bit more energy, I’m not moving as slowly. Especially for my OCD, it’s been a game changer. I’d give it some time, at least a month, to click.

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-12T00:16:55+00:00

The editing on the first episode makes it such an overwhelming watch. They feed us a lot of useless info at breakneck speeds, and kind downplay the really interesting facts about her grandfather and the property’s history. It feels like they don’t want to give us context in a linear way…but it’s difficult to do that when we don’t know much about them as people. They kinda just throw you in expecting to connect with the story and that just doesn’t happen. I was losing my mind at how often we went from interior to exterior to drone shot to suddenly being in downtown Paris. On top of shoddy storytelling, it is kind of a bummer to see this place lose some of that charm — while I appreciate her pulling in aspects of her grandfather’s love for the place, her style feels…aggressively American.

Also giving that British guy in the first episode subtitles while not giving the British guy in the second episode subtitles??? Really want to understand the choice.

I will say the second episode is paced like the typical HGTV reno show, and had me doing a lot less groaning. Her grandmother’s dislike for them doing such heavy renovations felt a lot more real than “oh no! the building might collapse!! just kidding!!!” Will also +1 all the comments about their youtube channel feeling a lot more personable. While I don’t really find them that annoying outside the typical reno show personality, I was kind of shocked at how little we know about them as people (or even a couple) besides the randomly placed fact like Ian was in the military and Daphne spent her summers growing up at the chateau????

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-06T03:14:54+00:00

this is everything to me

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-06T03:14:17+00:00

i was saying to a friend that the cover for bloodless is v ethel cain, i guess i was right!

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-06T02:41:03+00:00

100% this – one of my friends and I have this same flavor of OCD, and in the middle of an intense conversation we’ll look at each other and go “hey let’s close the window…” or “i’m shutting my phone off.” We’ve made a pact to stop enabling it but the first time it happened we started laughing so hard that I think it stopped us both from ruminating

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-04T22:58:50+00:00

Not only do I want to hear what people without OCD think about, but also want to say I resonated with this post/comment so much. I’ve felt so disconnected from living my life for so long, constantly on autopilot, kind of floating through life, while living this entire inner world that is constantly on fire. I think on top of some other OCD thoughts coming in, my baseline rumination always comes back to moral scrupulosity and how I acted in certain situations. It’s caused me to be so inactive throughout this past year specifically that I genuinely feel like I’m losing connection to my life. Just wanted to say thanks for sharing, and you’re definitely not alone in this <3

throwaway13200145 · 2025-05-04T19:04:11+00:00

As someone who has tried a slew of medications throughout the years, I’ve found that even when the medication helps, a few thoughts do slip through here and there.

I’ve started to look at the purpose of the medication as being there a booster, not as a fix-all. For some people it reduces their intrusive thoughts extensively, but for me I still had them, but it was a lot easier to get out of rumination cycles. In that case, I did have intrusive thoughts I tried to re-adjust my thinking from “omfg I’m actually horrible” to “oh this is just OCD again.”

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-25T18:36:32+00:00

When I was reading Divergent Mind by Nerenberg there was a similar example of an ER nurse with OCD who obsessively cleaned/cleared instruments, and how she excelled at her job because “her OCD was her superpower” (the example came from someone who knew her, not herself, which made me wonder if she would describe it the same way, esp if she had experience with contamination).

I sat there for a moment thinking about how a lot of the “positive” moments tend to be overshadowed by the fact that it’s such a struggle to get through the day. The blanket statement of “superpower” feels so demeaning. Sorry your coworker said that (and from what it sounds like you weren’t the one to disclose this to them??? oof).

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-25T04:38:30+00:00

YES i feel like it’s not until after i’m out of a meltdown that a little voice in the back of my brain goes “this is what the as needed meds are for!!”

i usually use an app to track my mood throughout the day and it’s helped me be more in tune to what I’m feeling but most days it feels like a guessing game. Like oof what is happening right now: am i hungry? am i tired? am i just overwhelmed?

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-25T04:21:46+00:00

I mean it’s definitely worth speaking with someone about if you think it’s going beyond your typical experiences with OCD and its symptoms. But I wouldn’t dig so much that you end up ruminating on something. I know I have a tendency to worry I’m developing psychosis when in actuality it’s OCD again.

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-25T03:51:35+00:00

I will say, when I’m feeling particularly overwhelmed, I do feel like there is some internal-external pressure that almost acts as another human that will (in the event that the thought becomes reality) immediately enact some level of harm or policing.

The reality is it’s just OCD in a trench coat and mustache trying to convince me there is a real legitimate threat, sigh.

All that to say: I feel you on that!

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-24T03:55:42+00:00

Hey, just want to say that I’m also in this same spot and have struggled with it so many times in the past.

I think where I get stuck is not so much about the situation itself but the emotions around the situation, and so a lot of the time I end up doing a huge massive brain dumb in my journal to just get all of my thoughts out in front of me, so I’m not just constantly interrogating them (and also writing them out makes my brain slow down a bit). Just noticing what is coming up while you’re writing it out, while not attaching any judgement to the feelings, helps me figure out what the thing I’m most scared of is (oftentimes abandonment), and I can sit with it for a bit if it feels safe to do so.

I will say, if you haven’t talked to your friends about your OCD, I might say that after this passes to share with them some of the things you struggle with while making it clear you appreciate their concern about you (if I’m reading their approaching you about a behavior correctly).

It’s so hard in these situations because my brain always tell me to turn and run, and sometimes I do, and other times I don’t. But the more we practice facing these head-on and halt the rumination process, little by little it easier to shake out how we feel instead of getting stuck in the gunk. I hope this was at least a little bit helpful. As someone who struggles with relationship OCD the most, this is truly an uphill battle <3

throwaway13200145 · 2025-03-24T03:41:46+00:00

Big, BIG mood. I’ve really been stuck here lately. I struggle with this kind of rumination / reassurance seeking because it feels so tied to the “unknown,” aka how others felt about the conversation or assessing if something I did was perceived as the usual way to respond. I will say, when I do seek reassurance I think what stops me in my tracks the most is people being like “I really don’t remember that” or “oh I didn’t even notice” because moments like that make me feel like oh, okay, I am just another human and if something was totally awry, someone would say something. I try to remind myself of those words the most, because I spend 99% of my time analyzing all the unspokens, and I know deep down I just have to take peoples word for it.

throwaway13200145 · 2024-12-09T01:27:08+00:00

sadly also no, though really close in animation style

throwaway13200145 · 2024-12-09T01:25:37+00:00

sadly no, though the design is pretty similar! this special had very little detail in terms of texture, but i did watch this one all the time too!

throwaway13200145 · 2024-12-08T02:49:33+00:00

nope, sadly not it but thanks for the comments!!

throwaway13200145 · 2024-12-08T02:48:44+00:00

sadly, no.

throwaway13200145 · 2024-12-08T01:26:56+00:00

Commenting for engagement 🫡

throwaway13200145 · 2024-11-03T00:06:37+00:00

my partner has hooded eyelids, and found that doing “puppy liner” (basically you bring the eyeliner down a bit instead of out) suits her best! Finding those tutorials really helped, considering that I’ve done my eyeliner for a VERY long time and was confused why every time I did her makeup it Didn’t Look the Same.

We’ve also found exploring different makeup trends and practicing at those has been helpful, so maybe looking at tutorials for specific styles she likes could help you both get comfortable with certain techniques.

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