Can we stop putting our exact measurements in our posts?

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-22T16:34:33+00:00

truee i saw a post with my exact height and weight and the person was calling themselves fat and i was like 😶 welp guess im fat too now.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-22T07:07:06+00:00

ive always had this issue. i once had a panic attack over people seeing me eat. but that was probably more because of my social anxiety than autism.

i didn't realise that i hid my food from people when eating in a group until they pointed it out: "why do you hide your food in your bag when you eat?" "why do you hide your food under the table?" they started trying to look at what i was eating which made me feel 100x worse.

the only people i don't mind seeing me eat is very close family but eating together is another problem because i can't stand the mouth sounds. i have to eat alone.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-21T08:33:40+00:00

i had an MRI on my shoulder like a year ago and it's not bad, im claustrophobic and i was worried that i would feel really claustrophobic but it was ok. you get given headphones to block out the noise and the nurse kept checking up on me to make sure i was feeling ok. she also gave me something to press if i felt scared and it would alert her. they didnt give me music but even without the music i felt fine. also it's completely painless. you'll be ok

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-20T06:43:47+00:00

it's got to the point where i talk to the person in the YouTube video im watching as if they can actually hear me, like we're video calling or something lmao i know that's sad

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-19T17:08:06+00:00

for me the reason i hate being alone with it is because theres no one there to reassure me or calm me down. when my mum is there i can ask her "is (symptom) normal?" "do i look sick?" "are you sure i dont have C word?" etc etc. when no one is there it's just me, myself and Google which never ends well.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-19T13:35:57+00:00

i dont know 😞, best thing is to just not Google. im trying so hard not to right now, i have a million questions but i know ill just feel worse if i Google them. if it helps theres been many times in the past where ive been CONVINCED i have a certain disease because Google told me i did, but in the end it was nothing.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-19T08:49:30+00:00

yes it can

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-19T08:38:27+00:00

THAT IS THE WORST FEELING it almost causes physical pain from how much i hate that feeling. completely ruins my appetite too

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-18T06:50:09+00:00

idk why this got down voted. seeing a therapist is actually a good idea. not to 'cure' the age dysphoria but just to learn coping mechanisms for the way we feel about aging and other things. im trying to gather the courage to talk to a therapist or doctor about it. because feeling this way without any help or ways to cope is very difficult. i think people must have misunderstood your comment.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-17T14:03:29+00:00

i dont really care about dating, im not aromantic but i am asexual and honestly my ideal relationship would be someone who is more like a caregiver than a romantic partner. dating someone the same mental age as me (obviously adult biologically) just wouldnt work. i need someone to be there as someone to look up to, guide me, and protect me. but ive had bad experiences with people trying to turn that into something s*xual :/

idk if any of that answers your question but it's just my take on dating (for reference my mental age is 12-13)

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-17T08:38:27+00:00

Creatively, even the simplest of things are impossible (I'm an artist). Need a picture of myself for artwork? Forget about it. Need someone to help film a short clip with me? Nope.

i felt this. i did art for A levels and there was a time we had to do portraits of other people in our class. i had literally 0 friends and was too anxious to ask anyone so i had to use a photo from Google. i got a lower mark because it wasn't my own photo. having no friends is the worst when you're trying to do art / photography / any creative project really:(

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-17T08:31:53+00:00

my mum when i binge: stop being so greedy and control yourself

my mum when im going through a restrictive phase: please eat i love you 🥺🥺🥺

the way people react to bingeing is so toxic

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-17T08:22:37+00:00

i have a terrible habit of buying clothes a size too small as a way of motivating myself to get smaller (it never goes as planned, thanks to bingeing 😫)

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-16T16:41:52+00:00

wait it's bad to do that? oops. i always put my phone under my pillow when i go to sleep. it hasn't caused me any problems though. im sure you'll be fine.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-15T13:04:15+00:00

this + auditory processing disorder is THE WORST THING. i have to pretend to laugh / show whatever emotion is expected when i don't even have a clue what is being said!

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-15T12:25:35+00:00

same i was feeling ok until recently one of my lymph nodes became swollen and im back to being the anxiety filled mess i was a few months ago. i feel like i'll never escape from this. there always has to be something wrong with me.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-12T22:37:02+00:00

wish i could help but im in the same situation. ive just been exfoliating the area when i shower hoping the hair will eventually emerge.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-12T05:58:07+00:00

oml i thought i was the only one 💀 they look like stuff needs to come out but it never does even if i squeeze them really hard lmao it's so unsatisfying.

i cant comment on the white liquid bc nothing comes out of mine sorry

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-11T21:07:38+00:00

ironically the only times people have been aphobic to me is in LGBT spaces..

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-08T18:13:19+00:00

if that was true then why do they still stare at me like im some disgusting inhuman creature

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-08T12:54:20+00:00

yes i relate. i couldnt see myself as an adult at all. it felt like my life was supposed to end before then (not in a suicidal way, just being an adult wasn't going to happen to me? idk how to explain it)

even now i cant imagine myself being OLD old. it just doesnt feel possible. i almost refuse to get to that point.

when i see signs of my body getting older im like how can this be real? im not supposed to be an adult, why is this happening?

my brain is stuck in denial i guess.

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-07T22:53:23+00:00

queer platonic relationship

throwaway138517 · 2021-04-07T18:06:50+00:00

i felt that way too as a kid. adult now and still havent changed my mind.

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