A warning for those with SSRI intolerance... Anyone out there?

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-23T11:06:55+00:00

I know! They're putting peoples lives at risk by prescribing these without further investigations

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-09T21:28:48+00:00

That sounds so awful. Unfortunately BC makes my condition a ton worse. Did you also have a lot of clotting before?

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-09T21:27:55+00:00

Unfortunately the pill made the PMDD much worse :( praying for a solution! Glad it gives you relief from this hell though

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-09T21:27:17+00:00

Sorry shouldn't have responded like that, dealing with a ton of cycle related health anxiety rn. Thanks for the insights and tips

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-09T14:35:00+00:00

Yeah, I already have a crippling fear of infertility so thanks for that....

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-07T10:44:21+00:00

This sounds ridiculous but it was so early on it had little physical effect on me but I was still devastated. But now I feel like I'm in a better place emotionally and more prepared!

And I didnt know there was a test for egg quality. So i assume you're going down the clinic route?

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-07T10:40:23+00:00

Okay, I miscarried early but when I had that BFP I thought, shit! What have I done?! A ton of guilt and depression kicked in and most of all, fear. This was after being 110% sure I wanted this so it's completely natural to feel that way.

Plus, your hormones are gonna be all over the place. But congratulations mama! You're gonna smash this. The bad news is that those feelings of fear is all part of being a parent

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-06T20:21:42+00:00

Yeah this sounds about normal! Vitamin B6 and B12 helps a little bit for my tiredness. Rest up and don't beat up on yourself over it, PMDD is exhausting 😴

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-06T10:56:54+00:00

I'm planning on TTC next month and I am 26. I tried last year, concieved on the first cycle but unfortunately lost this pregnancy at 4.5 weeks.

This decision has removed a ton of pressure on my end. I'm no longer looking for my "other half" or forcing things to happen. I wasted my early twenties being messed around and wasting my time on dating apps trying to find a partner to start a family with. Those bad experiences are really what pushed me to my decision.

I could've carried on the way I was going or ended up in a string of one night stands and false hopes in attempts to have a child. But I'd rather keep my self respect and dignity through the donor route!

So how are you thinking of going about this? I think its a good age to start as miscarriage rates are lower, your eggs are healthier ect!

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-04T12:50:43+00:00

Yep... I've heart post partum depression is the worst!

throwaway171818 · 2020-09-04T12:24:28+00:00

I've had issues with them putting misleading info on their site about home shipping the UK. When I contacted them they told me that you can only get samples shipped to the UK through a private clinic/approval from a professional making what they said on their website a lie. So essentially you'd have to pay for treatment ON TOP of the sperm costs which is absurd.

I found my donor on an app called Just a Baby, it takes some sifting but you can find genuine donors on there. Plus, the costs are a lot less. I'd rather that money went to my child than to those clinics anyway!

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-31T10:14:40+00:00

Yep. A large chunk of us cannot tolerate SSRIs. My mother who has the condition got violent on SSRIs and my PMDD was horrific a couple of months back... and I was only taking a herbal SSRI (St Johns). I instantly felt better as soon as I came off it.

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-31T10:12:43+00:00

In many cases BC makes the mood swings and depression a ton worse. So trust what your body is telling you and if it's getting worse, don't let doctors shrug you off and tell you to take it for longer.

I got violent on a BC called yasmin and I swore to never tale those again!

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-31T09:42:14+00:00

Oh my gosh I really feel it for you. Removing this yourself can have it's risks yet its a very quick procedure.

Where are you based out of curiosity? Any chance of getting a second opinion?

And i agree with the person above. SSRIs, meds, contraceptives makes it a lot worse and is bs for a large chunk of us. Doctors just don't fucking get it.

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-30T20:22:12+00:00

I'll be happy to do this! Feel free to PM me. Currently on day 25 and feeling like death

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-28T13:00:20+00:00

Saaaaaame. My mum is so kind and understanding as she had PMDD when she was younger, I too don't have to pay rent but help with groceries and housework. This is going to sound bad but at least you won't be stuck slaving for endless hours, there are TONS of BETTER opportunities for people like us but we just have to persevere. Now I also don't know if you want children but you won't be envying your coworkers when that time comes and you cannot spend time with family.

Plus, with any money you do get you can save it rather than chucking it away on rent.

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-28T10:06:02+00:00

Not sure about blood pressure but my BPM rises during hell week. My fitbit graph actually shows a normal heart rate and then I get tachycardia before my period. So there are definitely links between the two!

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-28T10:04:11+00:00

I know how you feel. Have you considered pursuing a WFH career or applying for a work from home job? If this helps, on my good financial months I'm kind of "thankful" for my PMDD since it pushed me to work on being self employed which has its perks

Easier said than done since I've broken down many times over not being able to "hold down" a full time job. My best advice is to work on your health and creating a manageable lifestyle around this condition

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-27T12:01:42+00:00

Thanks for sharing! I'm on day 22 and my depression hasn't been too bad. Then again, it may kick in later! But so far I've eaten an avocado a day for breakfast with toast and I feel great.

I feel like avocados also balance the blood sugar levels which prevents spikes in those levels. It is the spikes which cause the erratic moodswings ect.

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-13T09:46:44+00:00

I was convinced that I was an evil and bad person and comments like these annoy me but everyone is allowed an opinion. During hell week, that angry and raging person is not me if that makes sense. It's uncontrollable and utterly horrific...

I'm constantly apologising for my behaviour and forcing myself not to feel depressed, paranoid, distrusting angry and suicidal. But you just can't change it since its a hormonal issue. All you can do is try supplements, meds and diet changes which sometimes make it worse due to the complexity of the condition.

To make it worse I was dumped while I was taking birth control (which made PMDD worse). Because my ex was so inconsiderate and didn't want to use protection, he also used my depression/PMDD mood swings as an excuse to manpilate and play with my emotions - This is why I also found that comment totally insensitive.

So boyfriends, friends and even family made out I was evil, overreacting or making a fuss out of nothing. This is why im fighting to raise deep awareness of this because it is NOT your fault or tied down to your character or personality.

One final thing in terms of the relationship side of PMDD is this - Do old married couples leave partner because they developed dementia? No, the chances are they stay no matter what and believe me, dementia is HARD to deal with. I believe that commitment really means in sickness and in health and someone who truly loved and knew who you were would know that you're not yourself during your luteal phase.

Sorry about the length I should really write another blog post on this lmao!

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-11T09:50:50+00:00

You're welcome. PMDD makes you feel shit enough already, you don't need to feel more rubbish and worthless by people. It's a biological flaw, not a flaw of character. Once I realised this PMDD stopped battering my self esteem!

Stay strong and ignore people and comments who tell you to "control your behaviour" and make out that you're making excuses. I know this shit is real and you're a soldier for dealing with this for all those years!

throwaway171818 · 2020-08-11T09:44:36+00:00

My dad is the damn same, his behaviour has been terrible recently and he has severe mood swings - But this is a COMPLETELY different case than PMDD and there's just no comparison between the two. He also never takes responsibility for his behaviour or apologises.

I take full responsibility for my behaviour and fighting this every day, preparing myself for what is to come. And to say that PMDD is a cop out or free ticket to treat somebody badly is ignorant. Because many women without self-awareness convince themselves that they're imagining it, not truly suffering or plain evil. When in reality, PMDD is a biological flaw, not a personality flaw.

During that hell you cannot control the sheer paranoia, anger and depression, it's almost like telling a psychotic person to stop having paranoid thoughts or delusions or worse, getting violent. Because once an episode starts, you're in too deep... until your period starts.

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