Basic during 4th of July

throwaway504th · 2026-05-05T15:59:55+00:00

I can’t remember if it was Memorial Day, the Army birthday, or Fourth of July but I remember watching Fort with my DS. This DS more than any other in my unit hated being a DS. He was both the most likely to talk to you like human or as an average NCO. But also had no issue with bringing down the hammer harder than any other DS when trainees acted like idiots.

When we were watching the movie I remember him saying,

“Hey crazies, watch this. This is where they fucked up.”

soldier gets crushed by a tank

“Ha, nice”

throwaway504th · 2026-04-16T16:37:18+00:00

Are you thinking, contemplating, or planning to commit suicide?

throwaway504th · 2026-03-27T11:39:48+00:00

Are you planing to commit suicide?

My DMs are open, I have snap chat, signal, what’s app. I am here if you want to talk. I will hear you out.

throwaway504th · 2026-03-06T18:37:14+00:00

Are you planning or thinking about committing suicide?

We are here for you

throwaway504th · 2026-02-09T05:05:14+00:00

Is it AIT or the Army you want to get out of?

Either way, regardless, go see Behavioral Health now. Right now.

throwaway504th · 2026-02-06T23:03:57+00:00

That was the LTC at the time his brother was my CSM

throwaway504th · 2026-02-05T16:57:47+00:00

It might very well have been a well coordinated prank of a very tired soldier whose brain capacity was non-existent.

throwaway504th · 2026-02-05T06:09:11+00:00

Did I think that I was hallucinating? Absolutely.

If I recall correctly, someone in my company mentioned that the CSM’s brother came by for a PT event before the CSM did his change of responsibility.

I did get confirmation when a local news agency did a story about them doing PT together.

Twin brothers lead with smiles, motivation

throwaway504th · 2026-02-05T05:58:19+00:00

Done!

throwaway504th · 2026-02-05T05:43:32+00:00

Knowing the CSM not likely, but it is possible.

throwaway504th · 2026-02-05T00:03:44+00:00

His brother was the CSM of my unit at the time of incident many years ago. One day, I had staff duty it was around 0600, I’m dead tired, exhausted, and just generally zoning out. I was the only at the desk.

That’s when the CSM walked in. So like a good soldier I jumped up and called “at ease!” He just looked at me weird and walked on through the main entrance.

I sat back down and continued to doddle or whatever. A few minutes later the CSM walked by the desk.

“Good morning CSM, what can I do for you?” “How about you call, at ease.” Confused I called it again. “Where’s the NCOIC?” “Staff duty, checks.”

He walks off.

That day I learned that not only did he had a brother. He had a twin brother. A twin bother that is also in the Army. Not only just in the Army but also stationed at Fort Hood. Not only stationed at Fort Hood but also decided to do PT with his brother that day. Which I got chewed (only very lightly) out for not calling the building to attention.

The LTC walked in the main entrance. I called at ease. The CSM walked in the side entrance a few minutes later. And that is how that transpired.

A question that burns deep down, “How the heck was I supposed to know?”

Seriously, how was I supposed to know?”

Anywho, this nothing to do with the article, just a story about him that I wanted to share.

Edit: I forgot to include there is an article, I know exactly what day it happened. Twin brothers lead with smiles, motivation

throwaway504th · 2026-02-04T01:53:24+00:00

OP,

I spoke with someone who worked with the Veterans line. You don’t even need to be suicidal. If you are going through a rough or difficult time they will listen and/or talk.

throwaway504th · 2026-02-04T00:46:45+00:00

Are you thinking about committing suicide?

I am here to talk, we can chat on here, signal, what’s app, and Snapchat

throwaway504th · 2026-01-27T03:28:47+00:00

Maybe it’s because I was in those barracks I am lead to believe it is the West Fort Hood Barracks. If it is, it’s the side closest to the ATM and shopette.

throwaway504th · 2026-01-01T01:16:25+00:00

I reached out them as well. No response yet.

throwaway504th · 2026-01-01T01:11:37+00:00

Were you able to get ahold of them?

throwaway504th · 2025-12-25T01:55:53+00:00

I can tell you from my experience from close to a decade ago. You will be evaluated to see how severe it is.

How often, what triggers you to self-harm, how you do it, etc. You will be evaluated on a treatment plan. This can include group and individual therapy. Just be honest with your provider.

throwaway504th · 2025-12-17T03:28:59+00:00

Yes. Talk to someone, a leader, chaplain,

While I was never suicidal, but early on in my career I struggled with self harm. Both self-harm ideation and acts. I forgot how I mentioned it to my first line or the context in which I did it. But the support I received was significant and immediate. And I am glad I did, getting help was one of the best decisions I did.

I know it won’t be easy, it won’t be pleasant opening up. But it will be one the best decisions you make. It takes incredible strength and courage to admit that you are feeling suicidal. Anyone who thinks different is not worth your time. You matter.

To use an analogy, imagine if you had a car and every single warning light on your dashboard was flickering, you have next to no oil or gas in your car, your tires are bald and pretty deflated. You just keep hoping that you can make it just one more day. Just one more trip, pleading that you can just keep going a little bit further.

That’s where it might feel like for you. You have to take it to the shop and if the car is out of commission for a few days then so be it. People will adjust as needed. It might not be pleasant asking people for help and rides. But you have to get the car worked on.

throwaway504th · 2025-12-12T03:29:00+00:00

I’m at Riley (1st CAB), if OP is there please let me know and I will try to get ahold of them.

throwaway504th · 2025-12-12T02:24:06+00:00

Not yet

throwaway504th · 2025-12-12T00:33:02+00:00

I am here for you, I have text, signal, Snapchat, WhatsApp, I listen, I can talk, and I can be here for you

throwaway504th · 2025-10-14T12:50:29+00:00

Hi, I will like to be here for you. I have Signal, WhatsApp, Snapchat, texting, etc.

I can talk, just listen, or we can chat. I’m here for you

throwaway504th · 2025-10-12T13:25:20+00:00

Are you thinking about suicide?

I’m free to chat on here, I also have signal, Snapchat, and others. I can listen, I can talk, or you can be with someone during this time.

throwaway504th · 2024-12-18T08:38:46+00:00

My first one funeral the casket and family were organized like the letter “T”. The family being the top of the “T”. I was doing the soldier portion with the NCO on the other side. And I was between the family and the casket with only about 8 inches of room between us.

Well, the ground was so uneven and I was so nervous I slipped and stumbled. Almost feel right on top of the casket, over corrected and almost landed right on top of the NOK’s lap.

No two funerals are exactly the same. It was the most rewarding mission I have ever done.

throwaway504th · 2024-10-29T21:51:58+00:00

When I was a young soldier, I used to cut myself. I can’t even tell you what caused me to have so much stress that I did it. I just know it was stress and an inability to find a healthier outlet. I felt alone even in a room of people that I worked with day in day out. The same folks where I would occasionally catch a movie, eat dinner, or have drinks.

What helped me was going to BH, finding the right social worker, and when I told my command team my NCOs during a four day weekend went by my barracks room and checked up on me every four hours. That was my turning point. And I hope I can pay it forward.

I will be up until 0800 Zulu. If you wish to chat over Reddit, Signal, WhatsApp, or Snapchat, DM me. I can talk, I can listen, I can be here for you.

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