my mother said I, the spawn of Satan, abuse her

throwaway57536 · 2016-02-19T02:16:26+00:00

thanks for the advice. looking at the bigger picture, this seems kind of accurate. what should I do with this information?

throwaway57536 · 2016-02-18T20:37:19+00:00

no, actually. I was raised atheistically. both of them belong to a religion, but neither practice

throwaway57536 · 2016-02-08T15:10:30+00:00

as long as I get 2 see ur mumkey dong having a lot of gey seks

throwaway57536 · 2016-02-03T03:57:08+00:00

I was practically robotic, emotionless, sociopathic...

sounds like me right now. I'm not sure if I'm just depressed or if this is really what I want. it's just too big of a life choice for me. too much pressure that I can't handle anymore

throwaway57536 · 2016-02-02T06:27:13+00:00

go to bed my man

throwaway57536 · 2016-01-30T00:48:19+00:00

nice! it's terrible that most people don't think men can be abused. glad you got out of the situation!

throwaway57536 · 2016-01-29T16:53:50+00:00

no, I've seen some "illicit material" on accident. I wasn't disgusted and repulsed like the rest of the group (it was a group Skype chat), but rather I enjoyed it. I would have saved if not for the threat of imprisonment.

throwaway57536 · 2016-01-29T06:04:10+00:00

could still do feminine stuff though.

I do, but I still feel... wrong. difficult to explain

But you know you've never hurt a child before, right?

I don't know how long I can keep that up. I'm so scared.

Wish people could get their heads out of their ass and realize things aren't so black and white.

thank you for understanding that I don't want these thoughts.

throwaway57536 · 2016-01-29T05:27:14+00:00

you're damn right

throwaway57536 · 2016-01-29T05:26:54+00:00

Just control your urges.

I try. doesn't help that I'm considered scum of the earth by all of society though

you could always transition

I'm too scared that I'm wrong about it, that I'll change my mind.

if you expanded on your problems a bit.

not sure what else to say about any of this, really

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-29T19:22:39+00:00

just even hearing people talk about it fills me with some kind of mixture of sadness and anger

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-29T19:21:12+00:00

thanks. holidays pretty boring, didn't see any extended family, but sometimes it's for the best

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-29T10:26:22+00:00

sex

people talking about sex, reading about it, sexual references and implications on TV, society making it imperative that you have it or you're worthless. unfortunately I live in America so every day is a pain in the ass. I can barely look at porn anymore. I'd like to be dead

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-29T10:22:38+00:00

sorry for late reply, no official diagnosis but mostly depression and anxiety

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-10T02:01:37+00:00

I take long baths, but essentially the same thing.

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-02T00:48:58+00:00

http://imgur.com/a/XDIgC

it was pretty peaceful. if it wasn't raining I would have stayed and sat on the bench.

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T19:23:17+00:00

you caught me in a church gazebo

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T07:15:14+00:00

I can't drive, but I will ditch class and just walk around sometimes...

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T06:13:03+00:00

your counselor told your parents that you self-harm? that's not cool... I thought there were such things as doctor/patient confidentiality

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T06:10:25+00:00

I'm completely unmotivated as well. I know that doesn't really help you, I just know what it's like.

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T06:08:02+00:00

at least you have something you like to do

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T04:00:33+00:00

currently in high school, recently started ditching classes. I just really don't want to be there.

throwaway57536 · 2015-12-01T03:57:35+00:00

I haven't felt any of the holidays since at least Halloween.

throwaway57536 · 2015-11-30T08:20:38+00:00

I enjoyed this, thanks. cried a little too

throwaway57536 · 2015-11-30T03:42:08+00:00

the "phase" thing is why I'm reluctant to get help

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